Blog : My Debauchery: Part 5

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6/22/2020 4:25 am

My Debauchery: Part 5

I never dreamed that my being used, abused, sexually abused and debauchery would ever go as far as it has. I have read about stuff like this but thought it was something that happened in medieval times when torture was rampant especially of women, or they were made up stories. I am actually living what I have read about.

Born male but I have always wanted to be a female. As I grew up I considered myself as a girl and after I got older and also now, consider myself as a woman. I did have to work as a male much of the time during my adult life but now live totally as a woman with nothing male left at all. I do my days as a woman does. Jockey or boxer shorts are no more for me and now it is only women’s panties that I wear and I do have an assortment of those and all styles and types. I wear dresses, heels and makeup everyday. My underthings are bras, garter belts or<b> corsets </font></b>with garters and hose (stockings). I also use women’s perfume and cologne along with squirt on female pheromones to give me the scent of a woman. One thing about my debauchers is they do treat me as if I am a cis woman. They never refer to me being male or as a ‘he’ or ‘him’ but instead as a female and as ‘she’ or ‘her’. At least there is one comforting aspect of my debauchery is that I am the same as a submissive woman.

If you have been following ‘MY DEBAUCHERY’ from the start then you will know that my debauchery started in my own dungeon that I designed and built myself. I still have to maintain and equip it although the ones in control are the people who are my owners, Master and Mistress. Yes I am owned, I signed papers, a contract stating that I am owned.

Master does come over often to have play with and sometimes just fuck , which is my ass cuz I do not have a real vagina. He also cums inside when he fucks . Sometimes he just has me suck him completion and swallow his load after he ejaculates in my mouth. He will also bring other people and watch them rayp . He likes seeing them rough me up and have rough sex with me. They also cum inside me. Master does bring this large black man over to watch him rayp me . The man is big in stature being about 6’3” tall and a bulky beefy frame of around 260 270 pounds. He roughs me when he rayps me and his dick is very big and thick being about 8 to 9 inches long and he goes inside very deep. His thickness spreads my hole open and the max to the point that I feel he might tear me. After he rayps me I cannot sit properly for several days because of his rough assault. While fucking me as I am pinned underneath him and cannot escape he pulls his dick completely out of me and then with full force plunges his entire dick back into me. He will repeat that for 10 to 12 times in a row and rapidly. He will then start fucking me fast and hard and can last for a very long time before filling me with his immense load of semen.

Mistress sometimes brings a lifestyle Dominatrix friend of hers with her when she comes debauch and abuse . I am whipped harder and more viciously by the 2 Dominant women than I am by Master. They also tie me or strap me in position rayp with their strapon dildos. Mistress and her friend when she comes too, both like to pee in my mouth and force me to drink their urine. Mistress likes to have me lay flat with her squatted over my face while she urinates in my mouth. Her friend likes me on my knees with my mouth open and covering her muff while she urinates in my mouth forcing me to swallow it. She holds my head with her hands so that my mouth is tightly pressed against her vulva. When she is done peeing she laughs and pushes me away while calling me derogatory names. Both have had me face down on my tummy on the floor and they have stuck a funnel my ass and squatted over it and urinated inside it and peeing directly into . I must admit it that this does feel kind of nice and I do enjoy it with the hot pee directly from the body of the woman flowing into . They do make go and sit the toilet to expel the pee and after they leave or Mistress leaves if by herself I do take a douche.

Master and I had an agreement that he would never whip me to the point of leaving open wounds but Mistress and her Dominatrix friend are not honoring that agreement. Sometimes I feel that my skin could split open at any time when they whip me. They do leave some ugly welts and stripes on me. If it is just Mistress by herself she walks around me as I am suspended from the ceiling with with my arms above my head and she uses a flogger like a ‘cat o 9 tales’ and sometimes a bullwhip. Sometimes she will gag me so she does not have listen my screams and yelps of pain as the lashes from the whips and floggers sharply sting my bare skin leaving large long red welts as my body jerks with the contact. Mistress sometimes does want hear yelp and scream with pain as she whips and not gag . Mistress is a lifestyle Dominatrix and the friend that she sometimes brings with her is also a lifestyle Dominatrix. Neither are professional Dominatrices but they are each professional in their careers being corporate executives. They are both very attractive and very well built with large firm breasts and hourglass figures. Sometimes they will be totally nude just wearing heels when they debauch me or sometimes in black corsets, garter belts and stockings.

I am always totally nude during , and always as am a nude woman. My breasts are C cup almost D cup and most of my bras are 38C and a few of them are 38D, it depends the maker. My tuck (penis) is glued in place back between my legs so it looks like I have a cunt down there. Tit torture of is something regular that happens and Master and Mistress and her friend do work my breasts over. Master uses his bare hands my tits and slaps them with open hands from side side and he slaps them hard making loud noises. My wrists are cuffed together sometimes behind my back but more frequently above my head and attached to the hook of the cable hoist from the ceiling. So I cannot offer any defense of my breasts. Sometimes Master will have me gagged so I can do is make muffled noises and sometimes he likes hear my moans and whimpers from having my boobs slapped. Mistress sometimes slaps my breasts in those positions but she also adds a flogger or riding quirt punish my tits. At times my breasts have been so sore from punishment and abuse that I could not wear a bra for a few days. My owners and the people that they bring over are are dominate sadistic people. They are the opposite of , which I am a masochist. I have always known I was a masochist but I did not know what degree or how deep my masochism was. Now I have been taken beyond what I have ever imagined.

I do often get put in my cage and placed in the totally dark closet for periods of time. I designed and built this cage myself when I was designing my dungeon and it sits in a dark portion of the alcove that I made into a separate section just for this purpose. While designing my dungeon and building things I did that with my own debauchery in mind. The cage is just wide enough to put one body in. I made it using 1 ½ inch angle iron for the corners and edges and make the frame. Welded to the angle iron is steel rod 1 inch thick every 4 inches apart making like a cage with vertical and horizontal bars. The front of the cage has a door with 3 hinges for swinging open and also closing. At the top I installed a ratcheting device that controls the tension on the butt hook. I call them butt hooks but the proper name is J hooks they are also known as ass hooks or anal hooks. For those that do not know what they are, they are a large stainless steel hook that has a ball welded on the end that is inserted through the anus. The thickness of the curved shaft is 1 inch thick in diameter and the ball at the end that goes through and the butt hole is 1 ½ inch diameter. The hooks are usually highly polished stainless steel or have been chromed. my butt hook at the top of the J has a thin steel cable attached that is used for lifting and the ratcheting device at the top is like a deep sea fishing reel that retracts the cable and raises it and the result is once the ball is my womanly ass the cable is tightened by the ratcheting device pulling it taught and the hook is more deeply and securely embedded. The steel ball prevents perforation of the rectal wall. Having a butt hook one’s ass does greatly restrict their movement, it does me. When placing me in the narrow cage I am totally nude and I have a ball gag in my mouth. The butt hook has already been inserted. Once I am inside the cage my arms might be raised straight and my hands are inserted between the gaps of the bars but there is a bar between each of my wrists and my wrists are cuffed together and with the bar below the cuffs I cannot lower my arms. Sometimes my arms are not raised but secured to the sides of the cage with small pet collars that are wrapped around my wrist and also one of the vertical bars. This is on each side of the cage. My ankles are also attached to each side of the cage in the same fashion my wrists are. The ratcheting device starts retracting the cable pulling the slack until the cable is taut and almost lifting my bottom. This can be somewhat painful after the hook is pulled tight inside . I did install wheels each corner of the cage so it can be easily rolled around. After I am secured with my wrists and ankles secured and also being held in place and I am gagged, I am wheeled into the dark closet which is the sectioned off portion that is just big enough for the cage and once the cage is in place inside the closet door is closed making it pitch black and total darkness inside. A blindfold is not necessary as I am in total darkness. At first earplugs were inserted in my ears so I could not hear anything outside the closet but now I have music piped in from an outside CD player that is in another room. There are 2 speakers for stereo effect mounted above in the ceiling of that small closet. I have one CD I made so far and that is the music from “The Masked Ball” from the movie “Eyes Wide Shut”. I made a 1 hour CD off from the internet and that is how I know that I am always in the cage and closet for at least 1 hour or more. The CD is on auto restart and there is a brief pause. Going by the pauses I do know there was once that I was left in there for 3 hours. I do plan on making a couple more CDs of occult ritual music for the dungeon.

To add to the sense of total confinement I did add sliding locks to hold the cage door shut and to make escape impossible I welded a hasp for a padlock on the door and that is always locked after I am secured in the cage. It is not necessary for the padlock because of the way I am already restrained there is no chance of escape but the padlock just adds to the drama because I know the padlock is locked.

Usually I am raypd after I have been taken out of the cage and the butt hook removed, first oral and then anal. I might also be whipped some more after rayp.

I do know that my dopamine and endorphins must in because I actually enjoy this; being whipped, abused, raypd and debauched. Other women, cis women, sub missive women, that I contacted before my collaring have told me that they volunteer for this and a few said they are even addicted to this lifestyle. In between I do look forward to the next time. These accounts are true and Master knows I write this and approves and he did instruct me to write about the cage.


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