4245 posts 10/1/2021 7:40 am
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To My Beautiful Soul
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5764 posts 10/1/2021 7:41 am |
Photo: Jack Vettriano exhibition poster - The letter - museum art print - 1998
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26117 posts 10/1/2021 8:03 am |
That poster says so much and the symbolism dives right into the heart. Sometimes, walking through the day with that One in your heart can be so comforting and then other days the darkness seems to have a stranglehold. I've come to realize that all these emotions make life worth living and the sun shines brightly even on a cloudy day. 
ExNameForUse replies on 10/1/2021 9:07 am:
Nothing to add to what you said, dear girl except to nod and thank you. You read and saw everything perfectly, as you always do. Hugs to you my friend... |
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854 posts 10/1/2021 10:49 am |
Sometimes, no matter how much we yearn for it to be possible, somethings belong to the past, like my beloved wife. No amount of wishing, dreaming, hoping or praying will undo her accident, She is gone. She will always be a part of me and our sons, of course, I could never cut her out of my life, my future even if I tried - and why would I? Yet, my future cannot contain her and I must bear the burden of my sorrow every day.
I know something of depression and the blackness it pitches the sufferer into (and those they love most dearly), but you can't live with that. You must plot your own journey forward, even if the destination you dreamed of is closed to you. You will meet new people and they may build a future with you which is not the same, but is happy and loving and valuing. If we stop believing this, we may as well pull the plug. Tomorrow always dawns a bright, new day, full of possibilities if we can only get ourselves to a space to appreciate them.
ExNameForUse replies on 10/1/2021 1:09 pm:
Darling R, once again, as I said a long time ago when we first spoke, you have my deepest admiration for the way you keep and cherish memory to your late wife, for you, and for your sons. It is beyond words how it makes me feel about it.
My "letter" was addressed to someone who I believe is not able to leave the past where it belongs and move forward. He did try, but with constant comparing then and now, and never being happy enough as he was not and will never be as he used to be for numerous reasons. I believe it was something to keep him stagnant, pessimistic, not consistent, hence not reliable and confident, which has caused my suspiciousness. What you wrote about depression is exactly what I think he should have known better, as he got his possibility, he even grabbed it, but without giving it enough time and space to bloom.
Me? As you know, and maybe a few more here have figured out, I am highly emotional, very sensitive, been extremely sad about what has happened, miss him still each day, and I think I will always... but I am one very strong lady. Very far from depression, only seeing and recognizing all the stages of my sorrow, recovery, and healing. That is why I felt confident enough to write today's letter. Because I am not angry with him, I am not bitter, I have no hard feelings.
Only love, understanding, and compassion for someone who is I believe deeply sad and lonely person craving for unconditional love. Mine was not enough, unfortunately. I wish with all my heart for him to find it and find his peace. |
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3088 posts 10/1/2021 7:01 pm |
"embracing people who are there just because of you, and you only, because you are worth it, you are enough to them."
I'm here because of you!!
You are worth it!!
You are enough to me!!
ExNameForUse replies on 10/2/2021 12:09 am:
My dear Rayne, saying what you said, being accepted and cherished for who we are is the most valuable gift we could ever get. And I thank you for your lovely words.
It makes me sad though when someone is so sad, so lonely, so insecure behind the mask of a strong person, like someone I loved very much, that all that prevents him from embracing the love around him, love given to him, making a million complaints, and never be completely satisfied. The truth is if you don't love yourself, if you don't accept yourself, no one will be good enough no matter how much love we give them. |
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203 posts 10/2/2021 8:44 pm |
We accept the love we believe we deserve.
To everything else we are blind.
ExNameForUse replies on 10/3/2021 2:53 am:
It is a sad truth that no matter how much we love someone, love is not always enough, they are not ready to be loved that way. Or any way. |
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