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ExNameForUse 53F

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10/8/2021 5:18 am

Rainy Mood on a Rainy Day

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ExNameForUse 53F

5764 posts
10/8/2021 5:23 am

Or have I been dreaming everything, hoping for the impossible, having faith in what was not meant to be... but a dream.

bimom4taboo 54F

2098 posts
10/8/2021 5:42 am

seems to me it was not meant to be. but who really knows. it's the what if's in our life's

ExNameForUse replies on 10/9/2021 9:12 am:
It seems so, bimom.

alwaysassertive 64M

10/8/2021 7:04 am

Think of it like this. He had his opportunity and blew it. Fuck him. There's someone that is going to yearn to possess you like a treasure. Have no doubt.
I see the value of your worth and someone else will too. Don't waste yourself on those that are unworthy...Rick

ExNameForUse replies on 10/9/2021 9:08 am:
This is also the way to look at things. I wish I could get angry, you know like being really pissed of for some things, but I am just not wired that way. This doesn't mean, in the slightest, you are not spot on when saying I am wasting my energy on someone who actually does not deserve to be even mentioned at all.
Thank you so much for your thoughts!

Raven_GB 63M

854 posts
10/8/2021 8:16 am

You never met, looked him in the eyes, read his body language or heard the tone in his voice, did you? Whilst this guy may have been all you dreamt of, he could just have easily been what the French would call a "fantasmeur", his situation could have been totally different to what he led you to believe: there may never have been a chance for your happy ever after.

That said, you must know that "the one" is out there for you, somewhere. He may be at a cafe around the corner, hunting cyber space for you or waiting to bump into you on your next holiday. I think that you are an engaging, intelligent and caring woman and those qualities are always in demand; both in this strange world of BDSM and in the more everyday one.

Don't fret about what might have been. Get properly recovered and dream of what will be!

ExNameForUse replies on 10/9/2021 9:28 am:
Dear R, I am doing my best to get properly recovered from this covid thing, and I hope by the end of the next week I shall be back to work.

Also, thank you for your friendly support, and kind words, yet I think you are way too kind. An intelligent engaging and caring woman wouldn't allow herself such fiasco in her fifties but would be smarter and sense something was wrong instead of finding excuses, being understanding and keep believing it must be up to her each time something went wrong.

Was he a "fantasmeur"? I don't know, R, and I shall leave to him to live with his conscious if any if that was the truth.

But I like the thought of my next travel and bumping into someone to buy me a coffee

drmgirl622 68F

26110 posts
10/8/2021 9:53 am

It's the lack of closure that surrounds and feels like a vise squeezing ever so slowly. The vise continues to punish and, at times, there feels like there will never be a release. The heart is a fragile organ, my friend.

ExNameForUse replies on 10/9/2021 8:58 am:
Very fragile, my friend. I think of ways how to keep it's remains locked for the future as I don't think there are many pieces left to be broken again.
I keep wondering if it is true that you can actually get seriously ill of a broken heart? Read an article recently on that topic...

tahimikbayani 53M

8008 posts
10/8/2021 5:30 pm

Sometimes one can't wait for that final cordial release to signify that the relationship is over, sometimes separate ways just works best. Best of luck.

ExNameForUse replies on 10/9/2021 8:54 am:
I guess time will prove what you just wrote, T.


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