4245 posts 10/19/2023 1:52 pm
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The Cloud
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5764 posts 10/19/2023 1:56 pm |
Sometimes the cloud clears, sometimes not... maybe one day it really will...
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7021 posts 10/19/2023 2:10 pm |
I seem to be a slow learner.  
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:39 pm:
You do? I would have never thought of you as a slow learner...  |
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649 posts 10/19/2023 2:16 pm |
Only one question remains. Have you looked at clouds from both sides now? A much as they can obscure, they can also reveal as the part. The old question of half empty or half full becomes very real in those moments.
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:38 pm:
It is a good suggestion, to change the perspective of looking at the same thing... as much as some things were devastating, on the other hand, they have encouraged me to face life in a way I would have never done if not been made to... which only made me realize how capable I am... will that do me good... probably as it is building my self-confidence... which leads me to setting clear boundaries and respecting them myself first... which have brought me losing some dear people... maybe losing them is not then such a bad thing as I am again learning about people, and obviously making space for new ones... it is always a mixture of pros and cons...  |
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3154 posts 10/19/2023 2:18 pm |
sometimes we can't embrace the new until we release the old
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:30 pm:
Exactly. This is what my thoughts are... |
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9676 posts 10/19/2023 2:55 pm |
It's okay to look back but don't stare.
Howling at the moon and mal ad osteo.
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:29 pm:
No, no staring at all... just a look or two once in a while |
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26119 posts 10/19/2023 2:56 pm |
I've left much behind but I must say there are many fond memories 
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:28 pm:
Some things left me behind, and some things I have left behind... many fond and many bitter memories... those bitter ones do make me think that there will always be some clouds remaining above my head to remind me that storms do come when and form where you liest expect them... |
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3114 posts 10/19/2023 3:08 pm |
It's not that the cloud clears, it is you getting more accustomed to the light.
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:24 pm:
Or maybe accepting that some grey clouds will remain and adjusting to them as your new present... |
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1442 posts 10/19/2023 4:03 pm |
The past is a place
to remember . . not
to live in.
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:22 pm:
I don't think I live in the past. That past is not very nice to make me want to live it through again... but I live with the consequences of my past times. Consequences that are shaping my present time, and possibly my future.
You can't be the same after having a few years of a rollercoaster style in every possible department of your life... |
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6064 posts 10/19/2023 5:02 pm |
I agree with what everyone on here's responses. Our lives, are our own personal book of ourselves, that we write, with every breath. At times we all get lost in an old chapter... Don't let it ever make you stop writing...
Sadly some do... Instead of creating more adventures, beautiful sunrises, and smiles that could be shared
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:18 pm:
To use your metaphor, likeithot, I did stop writing as I simply don't trust I could write again with the same faith and hope and enthusiasm as before... and I have decided not to force that writing... but to just give myself time and allow all the shadows ad hard feelings to fade... to disappear... and I guess I will know when the time is right to move on... this time now is more like a time of reflection and some kind of hibernating... |
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1539 posts 10/19/2023 5:05 pm |
Dreamcatcher, you and me both mate. I keep making similar mistakes to those in the past.
But like Ex, I hope that one day the clouds will clear and there, Lo and Behold, will be the one that I have been searching for for years.
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9435 posts 10/20/2023 3:33 am |
My Dear Ex💋.....I! never like change but everything moves forward so it must be endured SAD😔
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:07 pm:
I am a very static person, I like my routines, and not really keen on changes but like you said, my dear Brandy... changes do happen whether we like them or not... I just seem to bear that a little harder  |
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4174 posts 10/20/2023 5:32 am |
dwell not on the past or the future but dwell on the present the here & now be grateful live today for yesterday is gone & tomorrow is not promised!
big hug Ex have a freaky Friday girl!
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 1:04 pm:
I am not, BDD. Past is in the past, future is somewhere in the future... sometimes I just give myself a time out to sort out some pictures left in my memory and to think of the things I have been through... when I left home and my son and I separated it was not a cloud I entered, it was a hurricane... I think that has literally dismantled me... been all alone... and I am still alone, but I managed... survived... started all over... I am not complaining... I have earned my peace again. |
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8730 posts 10/20/2023 5:49 am |
i believe this to be true. it is so difficult to leave a place where yesteryears are buried.
i hope clouds clear!
ExNameForUse replies on 10/20/2023 12:53 pm:
Clouds have cleared already... last 3 years have been all about clearing my sky... sometimes I think of certain stormy days, but all in all, what has remained are some sweet and some bitter memories and consequences to live with... |
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6064 posts 10/20/2023 1:55 pm |
Quoting likeithot19:
I agree with what everyone on here's responses. Our lives, are our own personal book of ourselves, that we write, with every breath. At times we all get lost in an old chapter... Don't let it ever make you stop writing...
Sadly some do... Instead of creating more adventures, beautiful sunrises, and smiles that could be shared
Dipping ones toes, back into a pond, reminds one how rewarding, that can be.
I have been down that road, It was rocky and no fun. I have always been curious about the idea one has plateaued, when they are still alive. No matter the situation, the answer is never to limit oneself. Yet we do it consistently , to ourselves...funny how our journeys, are...
ExNameForUse replies on 10/21/2023 1:10 pm:
Those limitations, which I am aware of, make me feel safe. I don't feel safe interacting with people, going out, let alone getting involved with anyone... it is better for everyone if I just stay aside. That's all... |
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