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ExNameForUse 53F
4245 posts
12/25/2023 1:02 pm
Grande Finale

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ExNameForUse 53F
5764 posts
12/25/2023 1:03 pm

Some things have become clear, some sorted out, and some still unfolding, but the main thing that took place is me becoming more and more comfortable in protecting my peace of mind. Not feel bad when saying no, when not responding to things that serve no good to me, when standing up for what I believe is the truth. So I feel well enough to be back among people who I consider my close, even though virtual, but without doubt - friends.


Harddominant22 34M

12/25/2023 1:31 pm

Très beau texte je te félicite bonne soirée


Yern2lic 67M
1345 posts
12/25/2023 2:16 pm

👍👍👍👍👍


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:04 am:

maletramp 64M
2095 posts
12/25/2023 2:20 pm

It makes sense.. wish I was near and we could chat.. but it all sounds quite logical


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:05 am:
Thank you, although I am hardly a chatty person, but I appreciate the thought.

DancingDom 74M
22592 posts
12/25/2023 2:57 pm

I just wish I could get my sock drawer sorted.

We all are different. Some sort while talking it out to supportive folks. Others may need some special folks to do that with. Then there are those that have to do it all by themselves. Which in the end is the most valuable way to sort stuff.

"One Big Sky Covers Us All Equally"


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:10 am:
I bought a new chest of drawers which has been delivered a little damaged... nothing too much yet enough to make you wonder why nothing works well... and then I started sorting all of my socks, underwear, scarfs, pashminas... Jesus... I didn't have any idea I had so many things... but I managed in the end... spent one weekend sorting it all...

BillywildMartin 73M

12/25/2023 3:23 pm

The older I've become, the more alone I am, sometimes lonely, most times NOT. But, as you said above, that sometimes causes a 'noisy mind', which, if you don't realize it, can be as problematic, with the stormy emotions, overthinking and over reacting to things you're going through.
I'm not sure I'm good at sorting out someone else's problems, guess it would depend on the problem and whether I'd faced it myself, at some point in my life. But, I've always been a good listener, especially to folks I sense are hurting, emotionally, and sometimes, having someone to listen is all anyone needs.
'DancingDom' said "We are all different", and that's very TRUE, but we're also all the same in SO many ways. I think Ryder posted a saying the other day, "All human beings are also 'DREAM beings'. Dreaming ties all mankind together!" Jack Kerouac. There's a bond that forms here within these BLOGS, the longer you're here and read them the more you see it develop, and I think it's a GOOD thing, a useful thing that each of us can lean on when we have needs, desires to unload, to DREAM. The bonds of friendship are just as important as our desires to dream, and as the saying goes, "No (hu)man is an island...". Welcome back, Ex...


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:17 am:
The bond here within these blogs, or bloggers better to say, is one true real force and I think it is what helped me many times. I said already that this place is my safe place. I know many would say it is a bit too much to put it that way, I mean we are all here just letters on the screen... but I disagree. That fine connection built among bloggers is how it should be everywhere. Yet it is not. It is why many, including me, are here and are not leaving for good.

drmgirl622 68F  
26122 posts
12/25/2023 3:35 pm

Our lives can take such horrible turns yet we know we need to fight the good fight. That good fight is what works for each of us as individuals. Physical rest is important, yet mental rest can mean so much more.


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:24 am:
I had problems with sleeping. Couldnt fall asleep... and even if I fell asleep I would have a broken night... That would come to around 4 hours of sleep which simply is not enough... I get up at 4.45 am, and I am back at home at around 5 or 5.30 pm... That being said you can only imagine how physically I have become exhausted, not to mention mentally... Finding a way to "switch off" is still my main goal, but I am leaning towards it and getting better at disconnecting without that guilt trip that I am doing something wrong...

Plzrmeister 67M  
10466 posts
12/25/2023 3:48 pm

Well I'm glad you're back from your hiatus. We all go through what we go through and we all have our own unique ways of dealing with the cards we're dealt.

Nobody knows you as well as you do ... so you play your cards the way you determine is in your best interest. I do hope you're seeing or have seen the light at the end of the tunnel and have decided to once again join the peanut gallery here. You know you miss it and I can assure you that you were missed.

Make Women Female Again


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:30 am:
I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, Plz... and that need to see it made me feel ill.... sick... because there was no light I could see... so I simply stopped the search. I am accomodating to living in the "light" that I have, which is not much, but - it is what I have. I don't like it. It is not what I think anyone should live like, but it is what I have and if I don't accept it I will become a very sad (I am already, but..) uncurable person.
It will sound like a cliche but I knew this place was where I could come back without being judged, or anything for my absence... it is the connection we have built with each other here, that gives us freedom to be who we are.

Artschoolgrad 47M
8737 posts
12/25/2023 5:32 pm

sending a bunch of hugs


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:32 am:
I know you are my dear friend, Arty and I am sending the same back to you

JohnnyLightning 65M  
9676 posts
12/25/2023 7:30 pm

Sounds like a grand plan

Howling at the moon and mal ad osteo.


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:32 am:
Hopefully it will work out.

jenny14 75T  
90351 posts
12/25/2023 9:27 pm

Ex

OI am glad you are feeling a bit better and hope, things are much better very soon,,,,


A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. George Bernard Shaw

Jenny


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:33 am:
Many thanks, dear Jenny, I hope for the best too.

boh99 68M
3154 posts
12/26/2023 12:12 am

whenever you do choose to talk, we're listening.

Wishing you the best !


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:40 am:
I am aware I may sound sometimes like a broken record. But I am more than grateful for being surrounded by precious people here who are willing to read all my words, listen to my thoughts, and keep me company in things I am trying to cope with.
That is more than many, including me, have in our real lives.
Best wishes for you, dear boh!

likeithot19 62M
6064 posts
12/26/2023 4:20 am

, ME, Myself, and I. Through thick and thin, they are there. Everyone's lifetime companions! It is good to take the time to better learn the 3 amigos who never leave you. I have learned to enjoy their company.
Remember to go forward in life, one needs not live in the past. We all have little time but so much more life to live. So go out there and live it.... with Me, Myself, and I. Others may drop by, but those 3 will always be there.


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:53 am:
It is very difficult for me to move forward, likeithot. Not because I live in the past, but because I live with the consequences of my past life. It is what prevents me from moving forward. So, I accepted that I simply do not trust people. It is in my core after betrayal after betrayal. So instead of focusing on moving on and interacting with other people, I have focused and will continue so, on moving forward and fulfill my life by taking a little care of myself. That means I will cook a meal for myself, bake a cake, read a book I bought ages ago, or watch a film I wanted but felt awkward about going to the cinema alone, go to bed early, and stay in bed on weekend mornings as long as I feel like... I know it sounds strange, but I have stopped living literally, apart from going to work and back home - everything else has been "canceled"... I felt like I died for everyone else and for myself.

brandygirasol 55T
9435 posts
12/26/2023 4:46 am

My Dear Ex💋....as a loner myself I totally agree with your sentiments. Being a loner is not for everyone but it sure works for ME and apparently it also works for YOU❤️❤️❤️


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 9:54 am:
I feel better when not with people. I am glad someone understands me 🧡

bdsmDOMdaddy 61M
4175 posts
12/26/2023 5:26 am

Ex I hear you
I feel you
I understand you
it’s ok to say no
it’s ok to distance yourself
it’s ok to be silent
I too will withdraw
I’m alone & Holidays are miserable time for me
you’re not alone
you are well & safe
everything will be ok now
gentle caress big squeeze & firm spank to you gorgeous


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 10:01 am:
Thank you, BDD. I know all of that too. I just didn't know how to implement it in my life without feeling guilty. Until I felt sick. Then it was either I shall cut some things/people off and start taking care of myself, or I will end up in a very bad shape.
I will be alone for New Year. I will be alone for Christmas. Sometimes I think it is not how it should be. But I will do what I can to make that time as nice as possible for me. Because I deserve a nice dinner, a glass of nice wine, a piece of nice cake. I do. And so are you. So make it for yourself, please.

rydermantel 69M
25448 posts
12/26/2023 8:22 am

Ex, I say Merry Christmas and Christmas day is slowly becoming the loneliest day of the year.


ExNameForUse replies on 12/26/2023 10:04 am:
Thank you, ryder, and Merry Christmas to you as well and all the days after Christmas day...

likeithot19 62M
6064 posts
12/26/2023 10:15 am

    Quoting likeithot19:
    , ME, Myself, and I. Through thick and thin, they are there. Everyone's lifetime companions! It is good to take the time to better learn the 3 amigos who never leave you. I have learned to enjoy their company.
    Remember to go forward in life, one needs not live in the past. We all have little time but so much more life to live. So go out there and live it.... with Me, Myself, and I. Others may drop by, but those 3 will always be there.
Little by little, change your routine. maybe start by driving home one block different, when one falls into a rut, one finds a small hump to get them out of it


ExNameForUse replies on 12/27/2023 1:23 pm:
As you know it, likeithot, it is what I am doing every day... changed my morning routine, changed the route from work and back home... as you say - little by little

boh99 68M
3154 posts
12/26/2023 10:30 am

    Quoting boh99:
    whenever you do choose to talk, we're listening.

    Wishing you the best !
just a note...

you're stronger than you know... it's ok to take care of your self and you needs, and you've got support here.

best - boh


ExNameForUse replies on 12/27/2023 1:29 pm:
Sometimes I feel strong and sometimes very weak... and that rollercoaster is tiring. I hope to get to the point where nothing can truly upset me, hurt me, disappoint me... where I can accept and be at peace with whatever is happening. Just to let things happen, and people do whatever they think is right for them to do.
It is why that disconnecting time was needed, to distance myself from everything, and maybe even prove to myself that the world won't fall apart if I don't engage, so to speak...

Dave54321 61M
2718 posts
12/26/2023 3:38 pm

Hi Ex,
Sorry to hear you are going through a tough time. As has been said,
"you are stronger than you know". Although it's often not comfortable
finding out how strong you are.

My understanding is that women traditionally talk out their feeling with
other people. Men usually withdraw into themselves & think things through.
But we are all different & what ever works for you.

I know how difficult it can be cutting people out of your life. I no longer have
anything to do with with my sister. It makes me sad & I know our father would
be unhappy how things have turn out. I just can't deal with her anymore. I am
fortunate that her children want to keep in touch with me. The last of my close
family, they think she's out of order too, lol.

Anyway, I hope things get better for you soon.


ExNameForUse replies on 12/27/2023 1:32 pm:
Hi Dave, and thank you for your kind words and for stopping by.
I could say I am sorry for the situation with your sister, and in a way I am - it is always sad when things like that happen. I have no contact with my mother. It is maybe the best decision I have ever made, sadly very late in my life, but then better late than never.
Enjoy the time and contact you have with the rest of your family, Dave, with those who appreciate and respect your presence in their lives.
Wishing you all the best for the coming year!

aliljaded 53F
8928 posts
1/22/2024 3:17 am

Ex,

I apologize for missing the opportunity to express my sympathy towards you. I am sorry that you are going through this by yourself. Please know that your feelings are valid and, you have my support. I also want to remind you that saying "No" is enough and, you do not owe anyone an explanation. Narcissists are the ones who refuse to accept "No" as an answer. Do not let them manipulate you into doing something you do not want to do. Stand your ground and prioritize your well-being.
I sincerely hope that the current difficulties you are facing soon subside and that the tides of fortune turn in your favor. May you experience some positive changes in your life that bring you joy and fulfillment. Remember that tough times don't last, but tough people do. Keep your chin up and stay hopeful for a brighter tomorrow.

Sending you Hope, Light & Love

~M xx

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


ExNameForUse replies on 1/22/2024 9:06 am:
Thank you, dear M, for all the warm and friendly thoughts... never too late for the kindness and support you and my other friends here provide

Everything will be okay, one day


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