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Sir had taken off Tuesday so he could spend the day moving more of his things from his home to now ours. I would come home after work and help him put things away . It was actually fun doing this together and seeing him make this home our home now. On this particular day we managed to get through all the boxes , all that was left was a large trunk. It was the old fashioned kind with a rounded lid. I asked what he kept in it , he smiled and said it was full of articles of bdsm equipment. Really I said as my eyes widen upon hearing this. Yes would you like to see? I said I would so he opened it for me. Omg it was exactly as he said bdsm equipment from bondage gear to floggers canes chains shackles even a fucking machine . holy shit bdsm man it had almost everything. Sir laid them out on the bed one by one they filled the entire bed lol. I looked at them all some I will really want to try others maybe and a few im not sure. I say that but the fact is 3 things got my intention immediately one was a very soft but very thick hood. Sir said it was a senses depravation hood. Ill get back to that in a moment. The second was the chains and shackles and the third was what looked like a pear shape butt plug but sir showed me it was more then that , Sir showed me once it was in your ass it would open out like a flower spreading your ass open even wider on the inside. That I do want to try.lol The hood and shackles present special challenges for me due to my past I wasn’t sure if it was something I could really handle or not. Truth is however I wanted to try just to see how far I had come in fighting my past. That leads us up to Friday we both took the day off just to be together and play before we got busy moving the larger things of Sirs over the weekend. We both woke up at our usual time for work except this time instead of getting ready for work I got to suck on Sirs cock and taste his cum shoot down my mouth to start the day. Mmmmmm. Sir made me cum by using his fingers and once pulling on my hair. It was a wonderful start to our day. After we showered and ate breakfast we went back to the bedroom and it was there that the challenges began for me. We started with the chains and shackles first just the sound of them gave me goosebumps. Sir was very gracious and patient with me. He started with my ankles as he shackled them I felt only a small twinge run through me. Next came the chains between my legs and around my waist. To be honest the ones running between my legs I found erotic around my waist not so much but not terrible either. Next however came the ones for around my neck and boobs It was here that I had to pause a moment and asked him to stop. He did, I had him just hold me for a few minutes as I got use to the chain around my neck for the first time in a very long time. A few flashbacks here but with sir holding me they quickly went away. I had him continue and actually liked the ones around my breasts made them look erotic to me. Finally that chain was fastened to my waist, I was alright. Then came the most challenging part for me the ones around my wrists . immediately my body resisted this , I had Sir hold me again this time for even longer. He asked if I wanted him to stop, I replied no I just needed a few minutes. He held me until I told him I was ready to continue he snapped one around my right wrist then the other on my left and both of them to the one around my waist. As he did I shook a little as now I was completely defenseless , he held me again saying nothing just holding me. It felt good and subsided most of my fears. It was what he did next however that removed them for me. He began to kiss my neck omfg those kisses removed my fears and I began to get wet almost at once. Then he moved to my breasts and nipples my eyes now closed I was beginning to drip. When I felt the chain move by my crotch and his mouth on me I came instantly. He went behind me played with my nipples some more and kissed my neck again then he yanked back on my hair and told me to cum. Jesus I did more then cum I flooded the floor. Well I may not want to do this all the time I may ask for it from time to time. We stopped playing for awhile and just spent time working around the house . We had lunch later then back to some play. I wanted to try the mask Sir was unsure at first we have been doing really well and Sir is very careful about things that may trigger me into bad thoughts and worse. I do rely on his wisdom in these matters his actions have proved their trust in him. This is something I wanted to try , I wanted to push past my past. He went over the hood with me , he had it custom made it had removable eye patches , it had a mouth opening with a metal ring in it so it was open if wanted or a metal cap could be screwed in place to cover it completely . It also had an attachment to the metal ring that could be screwed in and it had a hollow rod that then held the mouth open. You could also snapped a penis gag on the hood if you wanted. It had holes for the nose if everything else was closed off. It also had detachable ear coverings to either take away your ability to hear or let you. I had Sir slip it on over my head once in place I admit I shook but after a few minutes or so realizing I could see hear and speak I was fine. Sir tightened the laces pulling it firmly to my face I was still good at this point. Then came the eye patches as sir wanted me to be able to hear and speak as the process continued. Here at this point as the patches covered my eyes I had him hold me I could feel the trust in his arms that nothing bad was going to happen it was that trust that allowed me to continue. He gave me sometime just getting use to not seeing before he continued. Next came the ear coverings , another challenge for me as now I couldn’t hear him or anything else for that matter. Another long hug as I got use to this as well . Its strange not being able to hear or see with someone you love. Next came the mouth for this I asked for the penis gag , at least I would have something to help take my mind off other things. Lol he snapped it on and as the penis portion entered my mouth I began to suck, it helped. After what seemed like forever I motioned with my hand I was done. Sir took off the gag then my eye patches then my ear coverings . then finally the hood. As he lifted it off I wrapped my arms around him and just held on to him. I shook a little but was otherwise fine holy crap I did it , I actually couldn’t believe I did. This was one of the most challenging things I have done with Sir besides the first time he tied me down. For those wondering the hood play was not done in just minutes it took over two hours to do what is printed above. Sir didn’t rush things he took his time and waited for me to adjust to every new thing he did. The hugs went on for minutes not seconds all very much needed for me to feel safe. It was intense but in the end rewarding as well. It will not be something we may do often but we will see. The third thing was the butt plug from what Sir tells me it was copied from the original pear of anguish. Though according to Sir and some other experts on this there is not documented proof the pear of anguish was ever used anywhere but the mouth of blasphemers in the middle ages. The anal and vaginal use of it never really happened or at least to point of proof it had. Never the less I wanted to try it. Sir had me bend over spread my legs and he slowly inserted it. It felt like my large metal butt plug not quite as heavy but close. I enjoyed its feeling , then he began to open it ,holy fuck feeling it open inside me spreading my ass as it did I have no words to describe it beyond incredible. Sir said he had it about 2/3 to ¾ open when I asked him stop as it began to hurt a little. He backed it off just a smidge and it felt good there. He asked if I was comfortable I said I was. He said good as he snapped a locked on it so it couldn’t be removed. I think I came close to cumming as he did so. Jezz just this thing about having something in my ass that turns me on big time. I stayed with it locked in my ass for two hours. I was dripping most of that time. Once out Sir took my ass with his cock and fucked the hell out of me. I came a number of times. Those were my challenges for the day it was challenging but amazing.
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4/18/2021 11:35 am |
What a great day
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Dear Wanton, building trust is so damn important, as you well know, but just as important is getting to know your partner as well or even better than they know themselves. This is to include their body's physical constraints (dickie knees or previous shoulder injuries). Also just as important but working hand in hand with the trust and personal knowledge, is understanding the degrees to what an activity or piece of equipment can and may be used to. An example of this is the amount of pain a submissive can take and with what equipment, or for the length of time a person may have their senses deprived before they become panicked, or for the length of time a person can be constrained in bondage. Without trust and genuine care, the submissive can have very real times of distress and become frantic. The way your Sir has introduced you into these things is exactly the way all introduction in BDSM should occur, after all, this life is suppose to be fun, exciting and full of contentment. Wanton, I have picked up from reading just a few of your blog posts that you have had bad experiences in the past. I don't know if you have written about these in the past, but I am guessing you will tell me. Can I suggest dear Wanton, if you haven't, could you please. To see how personal growth allows individuals reach those places of bliss is something special. This personal growth by the way should be nurtured and encouraged, but to those pre-determined and agreed to limits.
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I LOVE this Blog!!...again, Thanks for sharing...I bet that Pear feels amazing, any chance of some pics of it?
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4/19/2021 3:27 pm |
great story =)
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