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5/3/2021 10:58 am

A step deeper into this lifestyle

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5/3/2021 10:59 am

A late lunch today so I can post this now. As I am sitting with my legs open skirt pulled up in back sitting bare ass on my car seat. My large plug planted firmly in my asshole. That now described on with my blog.
As many of my regular readers of my blog know a couple of new rules or protocols were added to what I was already doing. Calling him sir now everywhere but my job has been quite easy as I love to do it. I think in the week that past I messed up just twice both times calling him hon instead of Sir.
Now the kneeling in his prescribed manner when needing something or having a question about anything has proven to be a harder task. Through the week I messed up just under a dozen times but Sir said that was less then twice a day pretty good he said. Lucky I have three months without being punish to improve on this.
I was not expecting the change in me that occurred from doing this it took me completely by surprise.It had begun just a little on Thursday night I cant even remember the question I needed to ask. But as I knelt waiting for a reply watching him something crossed my mind like a cool wisp of air hitting on my face. It lasted only a second or so but caused me to pause. When sir answered the question I went happily on my way I didn’t give the feeling another thought. I wasn’t even sure what it had been.
Saturday however was an entirely different story it hit me like a bolt of lighting almost knocking me from my kneeling position. I had a question about certain items in the house and how sir would like them arranged. I had walked out to the building Sir was working in he was on a ladder installing a electric hoist onto one of the large beams in the ceiling of that building. I knelt my legs spread hands on upper thighs and waited until he was finished before I asked my question. This took about 10 minutes it was then this overwhelming feeling hit me. Why was I doing this kneeling for this man like this. Yes I loved him and do with all my heart but this was different this was not love but something else entirely. I had not the word for it yet as I asked my question and Sir answered it.
In the mean time I asked Sir what the hoist was for and smiled and said for many different things such as raising heavy machinery and such. Then he smiled again and looked at me and said it can be used for you too if you would like. I said me sir. He said yes you my darling would you like to see. Inquisitive now I said sure.
So he had me help him by bringing over three bars all about 4 ft long two were round solid bars with closed eyelets in them 4 on each. The other was a thick flat bar about 5 inches wide. Chains were also in this. I watched as Sir put everything together adding the chains to the bars . satisfied he spread them out on the floor and told me to lie down between them. He did have me strip first. Now naked he fastened my wrists to the top bar spread apart the length of the bar. He did the same with the lower flat bar this time my ankles. Once ready and him holding me he slowly raised the bar until I was about three ft of the ground. Holy shit. The complete feeling of being on display hit me it was good bad and everything in between at first. I asked sir what he would do to me now that he had me like this. This time he laughed oh my darling many things can be done with you like that but not today. We will discuss them tonight if you like at bedtime. He did ask if I wanted to try being raised upside down. Wait what upside down holy fuck. I told him I would give it a try. So he lowered me down changed the bottom flat bar to the other round one. Then raised me up. As he raised me then stopped with me again about 3 ft from the ground emotions overwhelmed me . I have never felt so vulnerable in all my life. Mother of god when he rested his hand on my cunt and asked if I liked the view I almost lost it. My cunt no longer felt like my own but his he could anything he wanted to any part of me. My past creeped in for just a second but I pushed it out. My thought process now went to why would one do this. Then like a sharp slap in the face my answer came to me and so did the word. As I hung there I also started to feel very light headed so sir lowered me . he undid everything and we sat and cuddled and talked. I had yet to tell Sir of the feelings I was having that would wait until tonight. After he held me and I recovered from my lightheadedness I thanked him for his time and told him in honesty I wanted to do this again. He smiled and said of course when your ready darling.
I made my way back inside the house still nude but my clothes with me. Once there I had to check on something, I had to see it again for myself. I went to where sir had the photo albums and took out the one that had his past wife in it. With trembling fingers I turned to her photo of her looking at him. It was as stunning as I remembered it still taking my breath away as I stared at it. I touched her face god she was beautiful . but it wasn’t her beauty that drew me to her it was her eyes and smile. When I first looked at this photo I thought god how she loved this man. But now looking at it I saw what I missed the first time it was not just the look of love but total and utter shear devotion to him. I had my word now and my emotions that I had been feeling the past few times made sense now. I touched her face again said thank you and closed the album and put it back in its place.
As I worked through the rest of the morning and most of the early afternoon my mind began to understand I was terribly in love with this man of mine but even more I was becoming devoted to him. Not in any bad way but in a way that goes past just love. I was ok with that now.

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