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5/10/2021 10:50 am

updates and other ramblings

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5/10/2021 10:52 am

For those who read my blog on a regular basis our date has been set. May28th I will become Mrs Sir. Were flying to Vegas on the 26th and staying a week . 12 friends will be accompanying us for the first 4 days. I cant wait WOO HOO .
Now back to this past week continuing on with my deeper submission. My progress in calling Sir , Sir all the time I have only screwed up once this week . It just feels so normal now to do so , I even used it on my phone from work so even that has been put in play.
As far as kneeling before asking Sir a question or needing something even that seems to be going much better for me as this past week I had it down to 5 times even those 5 I caught myself as I was asking so not total screw ups. Lol
As I wrote in my last couple of blogs I have found having to kneel when doing those things has led me to feel devotion not just love but a step above it. Its really hard to describe the sense itself as I kneel for him in any manner now not just for asking something but kneeling waiting for him to come home or even kneeling for a sexual reason . The emotions I feel in doing so seem to be increasing in intensity of submission. This really is a situation I never ever felt I would ever be in or accept in my life. Just goes to show I guess what it means to meet the right one for you. Sir has changed my world in so many ways I cant even begin to count them. Amazingly to me they are all positive for me. He has and is making me into a better submissive and possibly more yet at the same time a much better person as well. Im actually enjoying life now not just surviving it. I have fun not only with him but at work as well as everywhere else. Something for many many years eluded me. Life is now a joy. That above all the rest is the main accomplishment Sir has helped me achieve and to think it all started with the rule to make someone smile everyday.
Onto some kinky stuff ,smiles, I love having to wear my large butt plug well at work or elsewhere the pear at home stretching my butt a little more. In doing so it has had the welcome advantage of having anal sex that much more pleasurable which I loved before but now even more so.
Something I have not talked about recently but have been doing awhile now serving Sir his can of coke to him from out of my cunt. I smile now every time I do this. It warms me to see his reaction every time he takes it from me. I did make the mistake once of having it in my cunt when I jumped into bed and pushed it out for him. Lets just say the coke turned into ocean spray and leave it at that.
We as well have gotten a bit deeper into bondage and im feeling much more comfortable in being tied down or up depending on the play or want. Flashbacks from my past have basically gone away, only once in awhile and then for only seconds have they came back. I thank the lord for that. Sir as well as he has trained me in how to cope with them and I of course have smily as well should Sir not be here. BTW smily is going with us to Vegas. Maybe his big smile will bring me some luck. Sir will be on his own there.lmao.
Sir has pretty much stayed away from one area of bdsm because of my past that is the area of inducing pain in our play. Though he does spank me on a regular basis now ( not for punishment but simply because he likes to) I have found out ive tolerated it and like it now. We will delve into some other forms as well in the future. This is where I put total trust in Sir to know when that will be right for me. I have that trust because he has shown me he will stop not only when I ask him to but he will stop on his own when he sees things that even I may not feel yet but my body shows him.
It is so great now we living together full time I cant even express how happy that makes me . We have fun we have sex that is fun and rewarding and life is so much more joyful. But above all what makes this all possible for us is we talk constantly about everything both good things we feel and maybe not so good things . Doing so helps us avoid conflicts that could become bigger problems without conversation.
I am not saying this would or should work for everybody just that it is what works for us.
Well that’s my rambling blog for this week. Thanks for reading and I always appreciate your comments.
wantonone

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