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6/5/2023 10:55 pm

master plan

my pussy was sore for two weeks after my Master used me for the first time. one thing they don't tell you about being the woman in a relationsip is that a Man can fuck a bitch and then towel off and go on about his business and not even think about her until the next time he needs sex. but when you're the woman and your Man fucks you, you can still feel him inside you the next day. if you so much as go for a walk or even walk across the room, your aching pussy reminds you with every step that you just had sex and you had a lot of it. you may not have felt like a slut before, but you do now because no matter where you are or what you're doing there's an aching part of you that screams "you are a vessel for sex! you are a willing fuckhole for your Man's raging lust! so you think about Him all day every day until that subsides. if your Man uses you often enough that feeling may never go away.

after being used by Him, i would try to go online to look at my Master's cock pics like i had done a thousand times before. He has a beautiful Cock. but now when i see it i can smell his musk in my nostrils and taste it in my mouth and feel it coating my throat. the whole experience comes vividly back to me each time i look at his domineering Cock. and i look at it every single day, just to remind me what i am to Him.

i have a scar on my nipple now from where my Master drew blood. its just a tiny one that no one would ever noticed, but i know it's there and i find myself subconsciously rubbing it whenever i think of Him.

needless to say i am obsessed with my Master now. especially since He still has not given me permission to cum. we chat every night and He seems to take pleasure in making me tell him how long it has been since my last orgasm in days, weeks and months.

i tell him about my scar and He tells me that is his Mark and i should be proud of it. He says if he keeps sucking it, the nipple can grow up to triple in size. He tells me that he wants that for me. He says i can expect an hour of nipple torture to be part of our sessions from now on. i tremble because i think that i would like that. not in a good way. but in an "i could never refuse that" way. He also tells me that he will only do the one nipple though, because that's all He needs. i realize with a blush of shame that i will never be able to go to the beach or a swimming pool again because how do i explain my lobsided swollen titties? when the truth is "because my Master needs that one."

He tells me that i need to update my profile to advertise myself better. i go on the site and add the story of becoming His hotel bitch to my bio. this pleases Him. He tells me that i need to add some kinks. i have only been with 2 men ever, so my list is pretty short, but i go back over it and added some things that i haven't done yet, but have been curious about trying. i guess there's no harm in telling people that i have already done things that i would probably be willing to do anyway.

my Master is still not satisfied. He says i should have at least 25 kinks. He makes me add lingerie, spanking, chastity devices, cross dressing, panty hose and 24/7 total power exchange. He tells me that i am a sissy slut cock slut and that i need to change my color to pink in the chat rooms so everyone will know it as soon as i come in.

i'm really not into cross dressing and i never thought of myself as sissy. but i guess i am one now technically because i realize that as long as i am with my Master i will never not be wearing lingerie when he uses me. that thought sinks into me. i will always be fucked like a girl while dressed like a girl. it is a strange thing to learn about yourself from someone else. but i am content.

i find myself shopping online for womens underwear and wandering into the womens section of the department store to see if there are night gowns in my size or shoes that might fit me.

my Master likes to send me pics of his other bitches to make me jealous and to point out clothing items he would like to see me in and i immediately go out and try to purchase them. He sends me an especially disturbing photo of one of his long time bitches whose ass has been used so hard for so long that her hole is permanently pink and puffy like a swollen vagina. He tells me that He wants that for me, and i become sick to my stomach.

thanks to his Dominance, i have been having more hardcore fantasies lately and letting my Master push my limits and turn me on to new kinks, but permanent damage to my body is a limit i don't imagine ever crossing. and besides i am still very deeply closeted. if nothing else, my doctor would notice and then everyone in the hospital would know how i like to be used. ticking the "straight" box means i don't have to describe my sex life to every nurse in the clinic. i think part of my problem is that the scaredy cat side of me is still harboring the notion that if i ever change my mind about all of this, that i could just stop having sex and go back to my straight life and no one would ever find out.

but if my Master uses me the way He wants to and stretches me out and destroys my hole, that's something i could never come back from. if He ever tired of me, i couldn't just go back to the normal dating pool and find a nice vanilla partner. i would never be good for anything but brutal use by aggressive Doms

yet at the same time, the fact that He has been thinking about me in this way and fantasizing about how He wants to use me becomes a huge turn on. it makes me even more attracted to his Dominance and Power and more desperate to submit to Him. more than anything i *want* to have the kind of pussy that He likes to fuck. i wanted Him to prefer my pussy over all his other sluts.

it was the submissive catch 22 that i was starting to know very well. being disgusted by the things a Dom wants me to submit to, and disgusted with myself, but becoming so desperately horny for Him for wanting it, that i start to get turned on by the very thing that horrifies me.

i started masterbating more often and with bigger dildos so that it wouldn't hurt as much if He ever did try to use me like that. the twisted thing about that is, even though i had made up my mind not to have that happen to me, it was like i was keeping my options open *just in case* i decided to let Him destroy my pussy. but more likely it was just one more sign of my acceptance that submitting to my Master meant being used by Him had become inevitable and my role was solely to be pliable to His needs. i started stretching my pussy because i already knew it wasn't my decision.

He described many of his fantasies for me. Some of them were titillating. Some of them were dark. All of them changed the way i saw my place in His world. One day He said that he was thinking about "sharing" me. it was a term i was unfamiliar with, but i knew exactly what it meant. i suddenly realized that this is what he meant when he said i needed to advertise myself.

the idea of being with another Man had never crossed my mind before. i am extremely naturally monogamous for some reason. i don't know why, but once i make a connection with a person, i lose all interest in anyone else sexually. which makes it impossible for me to cheat on a lover. so i never really fantasized about having a three way or anything like that, because i didn't think there was any way for me to be attracted to two Men at the same time.

but when He told me about his desire to share me, it suddenly hit me that if my Master ever decided that He wanted to watch me being fucked by another Man, there was no question in my mind that i would submit to it in a heart beat. if my Master wanted to see me as a slut, and use me as a slut, i would definitely want to be that slut for Him. i don't think i would even hesitate. the idea of sucking my Master's cock while a complete stranger fucked me from behind was one of the hottest things i ever imagined. i realized i could probably even submit to a gangbang if it was a roomful of Men that my Master had picked out to use me. i wouldn't even care who they were, because it would be all about showing Him that i would be a total for Him. this opened up a whole new world of submissive fantasy for me.

i started watching more gangbang porn. i had never been very interested in pornography before, but when i first began reading about Dominance and submission i started looking up pornography that was rough or Dominant. at first i took it as yet another sign that i wasn't really gay at all since i clearly got aroused by seeing cute girls fuck. but eventually i realized that, much like the things that appealed to me in written erotica, what was really going on was that i was imagining myself as the girl in the videos. i liked watching girls take dicks in all holes because i wanted to know what it was like. i got turned on watching bukkake videos and first anal. i almost never watched ordinary straight sex, except by accident when i clicked on one of the girls who had just taken a room full of Cocks us to see what else she had done.

i was amazed at how far i had come in such a short time, sexually. one partner ago, i was a straight virgin who was afraid to even be seen in a gay bar. now i look forward to the life my Master has planned for me, and experiencing the erotic anguish of being a trusting submissive to a merciless Dom

i am a submissive sissy cock slut.

i am proud and ashamed to be the property of a sexy and sadistic Master who terrifies me terribly and arouses me like no Man ever has. a Master who plans to use me relentlessly then me out to be gangfucked by nameless Doms who i have never met but must serve, solely for His perverse pleasure and to prove again and again His power over me.

i am grateful to Him for guiding me down this dark and terrible path.


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