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My journey ... so far Recently, a member here, with no BDSM experience, contacted me to see if I'd be interested in a new playmate. And after a few message exchanges, I was very candid in why this wasn't going to happen. And when I now read it back, I see it was basically a quick and brief journal of where I am in my sexual journey. And wish to share this below: "I have many playmates that don't originate online (I’ve been on other sites besides ALT – and I've been here a little over 6 months). I do have encounters with some from here – for specific purposes (and not really playmates per se. See below) The nature of online sex dating sites requires time and effort to get to know each other to move from online to offline – and moreso with an alternative sex site (see My Profile). If you read my profile, I am basically a very normal, educated, confident and happy woman with a professional career – albeit a woman with a large and diverse sexual appetite. I’m a wealthy widow slut who traverses the wide world of sex mostly on my own. I love more than one playmate at a time and learned a while back to be very “egalitarian” in my choice of partners. And I also go to many clubs and parties where that's provided. AND I love others watching me “get down n dirty” which fuels my sexual rhapsody exponentially. If he joins in on the fun and is telling me what he’s seeing … O M G! And I'm not shy about this with my playmates. My bfs (with just a few exceptions) must be fully on-board to actively share me with other men and women. And I have some bfs and a few local cucks arrange for larger (rougher) group sessions where they love to watch and listen. (but not always only just watching and listening) It's very much a leftover from my hot-wife days. (it's a very spiritual Zen attribute that makes the sharing so uplifting to the parties; and is a major factor contributing to my rapturous orgasms) But I’ve noticed ever since my husband's passing, I’ve been turning up the volume to approach previous ecstatic pleasure levels. (as my current tastes were once far beyond my previous limits AND I don't expect any other person to love and share me as wondrously as he had and mutually experience the blissful joy.) In my current state, I believe I need to push my boundaries much further and beyond my comfort zone. So I have taken the big step necessary to seek true sexual fulfillment in BDSM (It's the darker, dangerous side of what I love) I've had dates with Doms and Dommes from here and have sampled the pleasures of pain and edged/forced orgasms. And frankly, I love it! So here I am pushing myself past my current comfort zone to indulge in the fear, uncertainty, pain and humiliation of giving up all control as all part of the incredible and numerous orgasms BDSM sex provides-- or as much as I can without full submission and without the strings or commitment. I also believe I am an Alpha domme more than a sub (I've tamed many a man who've tried to tame me. Don’t get me wrong, I love being handled as a rag doll and owned). At some point, I hope to progress towards my dominant role and learn how to harness this power into mutual BDSM sexual pleasure. And while I am seeking BDSM here primarily, there are still many other kinks and taboos that intrigue me. It need not be BDSM only. As a matter of fact, I still thoroughly love “vanilla plus” sex with one partner and I love my many other sex scenarios and [almost] all forms of sex is fabulous fun. Wish me luck on my journey.  |
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Good luck gorgeous! If ever in Vegas, door is open anytime
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Wish you good luck on your journey have fun stay safe and above all enjoy xxx BTW you are beautiful xxx
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YES i do wish you the best on your way thru life
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To you, I wish safe travels and fascinating journeys. You find yourself in the enviable circumstances to grab as much as you can, and have no regrets.
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1 post 7/19/2023 7:41 am |
Id love to share that journey through ehe wildest side of sex, just watching you and stroking myself for you
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Honey traveling is beautiful, beautiful I just wish you to be vigilant and to the pitfalls that your exploration inevitably exposes you. Never relinquish command of yourself
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Being a widower myself, I agree with everything you say and do. Just live your life your way and enjoy every moment of it. Have a great journey!
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