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heard about this kinda thing,........................and to witness it ..... imagine ,, 4 th yeartogether, somehow from that point until this time ....which is 5- almost six years later,seperated myself willingly ,and drew lines clearly , and it even was explained and made clear,that the last attempt ,at being or having someone in my life ,that wont ,or will not ,align me ,with my higher self ,or of that of my divine gods will,or for any greater good, are things that for the forseeable present ,are things ,ive let go of ...... my responsibility,to anyone or anything ,that isnt humility,or for reasons bigger ,and with meaning greater then myself, fall to the wayside.... and hows it can be seen now and how blessings are coming for me ,,,,,,,, i have all my blessings i was gifted from as long as i can remember,and blessings in the form of money ,or to have to trade any birds in hand for any promise ,to which ,my<b> giving </font></b>up whats already mine ,and hasnt any directl benefit ,to others as it is for me ........... then bleesings its not.... it would appear,that our last eclipse,in 2017,was the cause ,on reason ,for all the things ,that were problems ,this seemingly sttrange and ,total 180, from the direction,and path ,i was on and had accepted , was just one or the last ,possibly ,if not last attempt ,to trip me up.......... in hopes ,that i do the work,of comprimising ,gifts given freely ,and which no conditions are attached im not sure how to fight ,or resist , someone who convinced me ,and anyone ,who also can "see",rather attempt , and then to still continue ,with dialog ,that is neither relivant ,or even possible ,and i have ,not only ended ,but my actions i cannot take back , and if i was to give into ,yet again all the false ,and complete disresect ,of lines clearly drawn , and is being lived out ,as tho ,i havent already ,walked away........ and did so ,this is going to somehow change , what not only has been ,done , for me to break down ,and roll over ,to accept , this behavior ive tolerated ,in the name of love ,(only to see ,the intention .....i didnt cheat my marriage ,or any vow ive made in relation ,to my vows ........i have fulfilled them ....if not ,by me walking away ,already , cause then ,any action not inline with what ive not only chosen ,but am living ...... already ,and for the past 4 weeks ..... could ,and will be made out to look as tho ,i had cheated , i ended the old ,first ,by 2 years ,not living together ,then took it a step farther,and seperated ,any joint mail,or anything that keeps connected ,my name ,(even tho legally ,using my last name ,and by my explaination ,and saying ...... that noone ,in the world atm......i have given any authority to ,to use my name ,in any absence ,where i am not using whats always been mine ,meaning im not present .....ive consented to noone ,cept for god ,or the ,to use freely and how it can best serve the greater good ,as opposed to one selfless own desire.......and my actions agaisnt the union ,that was ,and had been completely and utterly ,disrespected .on every level and plain, that not only did fate get sealed,but done in such a way ,,,,, that to ever concede,or abandon ,of my current made with purpose .....path..... for me to go back ,to anything it never really was , to go back to that ...would then ,make me ,every word ,and every little thing ,thats was ever said for me to have done ,,,, i made sure ,theres no coming back to any of that .... the only cheating going in that old relationship ,played marriage......was ,any cheating me out of the honest ,and upright life ,only i had been carrying .... all of this was done ,with the mind of my maker in mind ......judgement by any one ,who ,isnt my friend .or my makers own ...... is not anylonger my concern.... simply put ,,,,,,, to go back ,then makes my actions cheating ,,, but ,i can only say so many times .... and with no building ,or rebuilding , of anything ,when it was availible to do so ..... but now has effort put into ....... ,is called ,after the fact .... never have i been able to see the truth to so many things in life ,,,, as ive have now ..... and the last thing im gonna allow ,is for any cheating ,in or of anything.... in my ,reminder ,of time here.... yes it is rather ,crptic......and those who know ,can read this ,and have no misunderstndin, those who cant . well... its kinda my point ,in making it this way..... but cheating me out of choices ,cornering me ,and doing so as tho ,i cant clearly see ,whats going on ...... if you wont be accountable to you own actions and deeds..... expecting me to continue ,to being accountable to you .....and to vows ,that were never intented for truth ,but instead ,to trick me into ,following any one back to hell,. where i just spent 25 years ,crawling away from ..... does not know ,or respect or care ,for what it took ,to crawl that far and that long ......noone ,but two ,have kept me safer in my life ,then the father and the ,thats who ive bet on ,,,, and never was i told it was gonna be easy,,,,,, ive been reassured ,time and time again ,,, that it will be worth it ,and worth every little hurt ,agaisnt me ..... i pray for my loved ones .may mercy find you,,and gratitude ,for such ,divine guidance,and more love ,then it was destined to have otherwise thank you .... david . |
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