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My first mistress Hello to anyone reading this, I've been commanded by my new - my first ever! - mistress, Goddess Chloe, to write a blog about my thoughts on having her as my mistress. Firstly of course I am incredibly excited about starting my training under such a beautiful and welcoming mistress. I'll also admit to a mix of excitement and nervousness or even fear, not knowing what is going to come and having never done this before. In a wider sense though I feel a real sense of empowerment and purpose today. Thing is, all my life I've been a chronic people pleaser, but more than that I've been full on scared my whole life of displeasing others or of not getting their approval. As time has gone on this has of course had an increasingly negative impact on my life, my personal happiness and my relationships. So it might seem an odd choice that I'm seeking out someone to be<b> submissive </font></b>to, but the thing is the more I go down this path the more strong and less scared I feel in other areas of my life. Its as though I'm siphoning off or compartmentalising this part of myself and giving it a private and healthy channel for expression, and then the rest of me can get on with the rest of my life more capably. Maybe I'm over analysing, I am prone to it, and maybe this will all turn out to be nonsense, but there has been this urge bubbling inside me for a while now and surely it is healthier to explore that than to keep on suppressing it and myself? So with excitement and fear I am taking my first steps in my training, and my divine Goddess awaits! |
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