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Blogs > cuzisaid > Swine & Pearls exist even here

cuzisaid 53F  
5548 posts
11/17/2019 10:27 pm
Glancing gratitude

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“If the past never helped you, why would you ever take it into the future with you?”
― Shannon L. Alder
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~
cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/17/2019 10:29 pm

 I wonder sometimes why it is so very hard to let the past go. I don't think anyone disputes the importance of the people and situations of our past that made us who we are today, the family and friends, enemies and choices alike. What though, I frequently wonder, makes us so unwilling or at least what makes it so damn hard to let go of those less than ideal memories that make us feel bad and we WANT to forget. Fear? Shame? Remorse? Guilt?

Time is needed for us to resolve and accept things be it weeks or years, so once time has passed, why are there always a few things,that we wont let go of or we hold onto so tightly they cant possibly let go of us.

Logically, I know that if I am looking over my shoulder at whats behind me there's no way I can accurately see where I am heading and yet, there's those things that I peek back at over and over again. These aren't the logical ones. These are the feeling driven snippets that linger around the edges that you think you''ve buried. Well, I think of them as dead and buried anyway. Not that I believe myself.

I am very thankful that I have more good memories than bad and that I can leave things in the past if they have a better life there than they would with me now, but what I am most grateful for is that I have had the chances and decisions and people and failures that leave little pieces that Ive been able to carry with me. Lessons learned or love that lingered.

“If the past never helped you, why would you ever take it into the future with you?”
― Shannon L. Alder
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


jenny14 75T  
90348 posts
11/17/2019 11:02 pm

 cuzi

Perhaps a psychologist could answer your question?

I too, like you, am thankful for more good than bad memories....
A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. George Bernard Shaw

Jenny


drmgirl622 68F  
26119 posts
11/18/2019 1:46 am

 What's behind us has shaped our future...….


aHedonist 52M
7510 posts
11/18/2019 2:53 am

 I have 4 things that haunt me - serious moral compromise stuff but given the same choices today I'd probably land on the same side of the equation in 3 of them. Whichever way I'd have had a bad taste in my mouth *shrugs* Life is a bitch sometimes.

Aside from that I've got it pretty much all squared away. So fundamentally I have happy memories and lessons learned, and I don't lose sleep over much. I think thats always been a big part of my decision making process... make the hard call and keep a clean conscience so i can get on with siesta unimpeded by bad juju. Sometimes I can take a while to process but once I have.... I let stuff go. And I've learnt how to not own other peoples choices.... because keeping my own shit sorted is a full time job.


MasterMent0R 57M
1642 posts
11/18/2019 5:35 am

 This moment which is already gone as I type this is the only moment to your future , Enjoy your moments and you will enjoy the future ,however the future does not matter , enjoy your moments .
(that's the path you seek)
MM/~
" Life Is Like A Train " 20th Century


gopats1 61M
148 posts
11/18/2019 6:11 am

 “You realize that our mistrust of the future makes it hard to give up the past.”


cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/19/2019 9:26 pm
    Quoting jenny14:
    cuzi

    Perhaps a psychologist could answer your question?

    I too, like you, am thankful for more good than bad memories....
Ms Jen, that would be a place for educated answers, but I think for now, I'll just stick with alt. Its laughter therapy is unrivaled.
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/19/2019 9:29 pm
    Quoting  :
That is certainly true enough. It should be a known building block of who we are, not a stumbling block(hopefully) and place to reflect not reside.
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/19/2019 9:37 pm
    Quoting drmgirl622:
    What's behind us has shaped our future...….
It truly has, and for most of mine, it has been way more good than bad and I look back with joy more than sorrow or regret. Its just a few of those little things....
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/19/2019 9:41 pm
    Quoting aHedonist:
    I have 4 things that haunt me - serious moral compromise stuff but given the same choices today I'd probably land on the same side of the equation in 3 of them. Whichever way I'd have had a bad taste in my mouth *shrugs* Life is a bitch sometimes.

    Aside from that I've got it pretty much all squared away. So fundamentally I have happy memories and lessons learned, and I don't lose sleep over much. I think thats always been a big part of my decision making process... make the hard call and keep a clean conscience so i can get on with siesta unimpeded by bad juju. Sometimes I can take a while to process but once I have.... I let stuff go. And I've learnt how to not own other peoples choices.... because keeping my own shit sorted is a full time job.
I know what you mean, my brother from another mother. You and I are so very much alike in those ways that it would be scary if it didnt bring me such comfort and peace.

Its not the big things I was thinking of so much as its these stupid little ones that pop in out of nowhere that I know others don't even remember( I ask when it gets to be much) and still I cant let them go.
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/19/2019 9:42 pm
    Quoting MasterMent0R:
    This moment which is already gone as I type this is the only moment to your future , Enjoy your moments and you will enjoy the future ,however the future does not matter , enjoy your moments .
    (that's the path you seek)
    MM/~
From your lips to Gods ears, doll, cuz you said a mouthful worth hearing. Thanks for that
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/19/2019 9:43 pm
    Quoting gopats1:
    “You realize that our mistrust of the future makes it hard to give up the past.”
That too is true as true can be. Our past memories/experiences color the way we see today and tomorrow.
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
11/19/2019 9:48 pm
    Quoting  :
*chuckles* You are always such a funny clever boy with your kickback comments.

42 is the answer and I was patting myself on the back for NOT saying that the question was the answer! lol

NO stinky weed for me, Im a skunk free zone kind of girl, but the rest, lol I can dig it. I am all into the hermeneutically cuzi kinda style now. It ties in beautifully with my love of Mazlow's Hierarchy of Needs religion.
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~



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