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when did i first know i was kinky (weekly topic) I suppose it really depends on how you define kinky and the dictionary states a person(s) whom have bizzare and deviant tastes usually of a sexual nature. I was a late starter sexually because i was adamant i was not going to lose my virginity to some spotty, fumbling teenage boy in the back of a car, i couldnt relate to my peer group because i wasn't hung up on latest fashions,<b> clubbing </font></b>and certainly not boys and sex. I was therefore 18 when i had my first serious relationship with a man that was a fair bit older than me at 29 and being new to sex and indeed any sexual activity i was more than happy for him to take control. The first kinky aspect was when he used a belt from a dressing gown to tie my wrists together and i remember really getting a buzz out of being partly helpless and he was lightly slapping my ass. It was the combination of these that i really enjoyed but i lacked the confidence to actually say i really like this slap me harder even though at the time thats what i wanted, and i remember being embarrassed afterwards that i did enjoy it and i think in hindsight maybe ashamed because i was conflicted over whether it was 'normal' to like it. Anyway it was certainly a landmark for me in the respect that in future relationships i would try to inadvertantly engineer it happening again, but again lack of confidence prevented me from actually verbally expressing what i wanted and liked. |
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7/20/2009 12:10 am |
I think i had similar experiences, i had a brief affair with a guy when i was about 19, he told me to wear stockings, tied me up and I loved it, here i was this bolshy strident girl being told what to do!! That coupled with the experience of being spanked by a friend when i was nine or so, should have really told me something .. Do'h !! Long time coming, but worth the wait!!
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