Hi bitsy ... You are most certainly a friend. Being a "standard" person -- I tried GOLD for a while and it was the same the long desert of dryness - I am unable to initiate friendships. Please feel free to. And, again, a singular 5 second moment in time (as Watson might say) truly struck me, so I thought for my own good I should write it down. I could've put it just in a file on my machine. I suppose I had a moment of hope via disclosure on ALT. But I'm far too conceptual for ALT to begin with, and leaving the post open would only invite more misunderstandings. Thank you so much for your comment about "the unattached female reading population here". Though I've owned that my perspective on this thing called life is a bit obscure, one would think that someone ... might ... yunno. Thanks for expressing my exasperation. I could tell you a recent story, but ... everyone has problems. Hope you are well. Thanks for visiting. tgd