Blog : stress is not an aphrodisiac

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10/15/2022 3:30 am

stress is not an aphrodisiac

I’m almost certain I’ve written about this before, and may have even done so under the exact same post title but if so it’s happening again, so I’m writing about it again. You’ll just have to get over the title being the same - if it is.

There’s no 1 / one particular thing going on right now, but over the past couple of weeks my life has begun to get complicated and tense. Again. My sense of helplessness is matched only by my angry outbursts of frustration and hopelessness. Money is an issue, my mental health is a problem, bad things seem to keep happening to me - you know, that whole routine. I’m a firm believer in bad things happening in threes so I start counting when something significant occurs, so maybe I can produce a false light at the end of the tunnel to help keep me hoping. It’s a mind game for sure, but when the third bad thing happens I can usually feel a literal shift in my mood, and it is invariably for the better. Call me superstitious or whatever it is you have to be to believe the nonsense I just described, but that’s me.

Anyways, - wait. Wow, that was a heck of a digression, wasn’t it?

Anyways, my mind and mood have been so tense and sour recently that it has destroyed my libido. Prior to that I was filming on a regular basis and just feeling easily aroused in general. Now I am so preoccupied and distracted that sexy thoughts don’t really get the opportunity to creep in much. I’m really just so on edge - in fight or flight mode - that there’s no chance for sexy anything. I’ve also been busy with a bit of work-at-home for my lovely sex slave ChrisSwallows, and putting in extra miles on the bike, and on foot, to keep my physical rehabilitation progress moving forward. It’s been a race to see if I could get in good enough shape to work some jobs that were potentially available, but now I might just be able to chill out and not push myself so hard for a little while. The job search might be over, and then again it might not, but I believe I’ve been offered an opportunity to kind of work for myself and want to explore it. Taking the weight of that daily stress from my shoulders and brain might improve my mood, thereby improving my libido. Let’s just say that lately it hasn’t been sexy time, and I miss it.

My diet and sleep schedule are the same, as are most other basic aspects of my life, but it’s the mounting stresses that are seriously affecting me. The dick works, it’s just not very interested in showing what it’s capable of right now. Maybe some free time and a spurt of energy will have me naked and filming soon, but that’s the most I have to look forward to. Heck, that might just be the source of my despair; the grim outlook for my sex life in the near future. Stress is not an aphrodisiac but neither is loneliness, or that sense that nobody finds you attractive. Nope, not turned on over here.


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