Blood
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Posted:Jan 31, 2023 7:25 am
Last Updated:May 20, 2024 6:48 pm 1406 Views
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So red so warm
This life force I adore
We bleed we cry
But God I want more
From my first I knew this was for me
Human beings were made for me
The blood
So sweet
So pure
The way it pools
The way it runs
Tastes so sweet, this angels nectar
I would live in blood
It's my addiction
Feeling, playing with it
Oh blood is my way
My dark fantasy
My fetish
My mistress
Blood is her name
I bathe in it
I taste it
I always try to find more
I cannot stop
When I close my eyes all I see is telling sweet red
I thirst for it
I need it
The most beautiful thing on earth
The best
What was your life
I'll drink it off tell floor
You whole life pools slowly away
My whole love pours on out
Your so beautiful
Your so addicting
But I need to remember
Blood get in everything
It's hard to get out
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Survival
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Posted:Jul 28, 2022 8:40 am
Last Updated:May 20, 2024 6:48 pm 2700 Views
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I have a rage inside me. Something I need to control, but I do not want to.
I know that should I fail to control it, bad things will happen.
It will be worse than how it is now. But
I still want to release it. Not
In the way of batting cages, or drawing, or writing, but
In the way of violence. Real, painful violence. Never towards myself. Not anymore.
Her is who I want to
Hit. Over and over, until my
Hands are bleeding, and then more. Until I
Hear her stop crying for
Help. And her
Head hits the floor for one last time.
And I know she is dead. Finally she is dead. Still, I don't stop.
Again
And
Again I hit her for
As long
As I possibly can. I know
That eventually I will rise,
Trembling, not from realization, but from
The adrenaline running
Through me.
The sound of sirens has always
Terrified me, so I do not call the police. Not yet.
Emptiness is finally upon me. Not the feeling, but the sound. It is
Extremely
Enjoyable. I have not had silence in this house for
Eons. I take comfort in it for a few moments. Them I remember what needs to be done.
Everything must be
Exact. Be careful not to
Hurry. No detail can afford to be overlooked. Any
Hint of a struggle must be
Hidden. Clean up all the blood with bleach, then cover the bleach. Think of a place to
Hide the body. Drive there with the body and bike. Ditch the car with
Her inside.
Hopefully they never find her.
Even if they do, and it comes back to me, maybe one of them will
Empathize. And I can
Explain to them why I did it. I probably won't be
Executed. Tried as an adult, imprisoned, which is
Expected. After all, my reasons will be viewed only as weak
Excuses, but I don't want to die. I don't deserve it.
Really, I will never follow through. I want to, but I can't. So I do what I can.
Relive events that have never happened.
Run through what I would do if they did.
Remind myself that I am not alone, and people can help me cope.
Relax, deep breaths, in and out.
Remember that I need to survive.
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These are the memories that break you!
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Posted:Jul 28, 2022 8:38 am
Last Updated:May 20, 2024 6:48 pm 2189 Views
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Memories of the black and blue that still ring true
shattered bones, blood running down his face,
He look's to find a safe place to stitch his face.
These are the memories that break you
Blue lights and the sound of
Syrians coming down the line
they never leave this boy's mind
instead they leave a scar of once upon a time
These are the memories that break you
There's a call coming through with grave news
a loved one is ready to pass with three gasps
who'd of knew that would of been
the last I would hear of you.
These are the memories that break you
girlfriends come to pass as they never last
fear and confusion make's them run very fast
who'd of knew I try and kill you
These are the memories that break you
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For Your Hateful Throne.
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Posted:Jun 30, 2022 10:33 am
Last Updated:May 20, 2024 6:48 pm 2427 Views
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Held captive in hell by memories of thee,
And every deceit that has befallen me.
I’ll break these chains like damaged bone;
Fractured clean and broken free
Like a corpse flung from the throne,
Cast aside cold and alone.
With this blood from boiling vein,
Your pain I seek in echoed refrain.
I elicit the shadows in ravenous streams;
The unhinged ire of fallen dark dreams!
My abhorred soldiers shall win my new throne
Whilst I extract my new crown and twist swollen bone!
For every torment that has befallen me
Will be thrust upon thee, times three!
With nasty chains formed from the bone,
I’ll restrain haughty might no reparation can atone!
This chanted bane is most fitting for thee,
As your pain will fill me with sadistic glee!
So mote it be!
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Trenches
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Posted:Jun 17, 2022 8:25 am
Last Updated:Jul 28, 2022 8:40 am 2465 Views
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No time to hide
I'm alive on the inside
Breaking up my mind on the front lines
When I survive, when I survive another day
This great divide
Side by side on the inside
Breaking up our minds on the front lines
Never again, never again will I be denied
Here I come
'Cause here I come
I've waited all my life to get out of the trenches
I'm ready to fight for what I believe you can steal from me
I won't take this
Gonna fill these trenches and stand up
Wake up, I won't give up
'Cause here I come, here I come
Back and forth, stuck in a hole, damage control
Digging for rhymes on a secondhand cell phone
When I survive, when I survive another year
Still month to month
Paying my dues on the inside
Breaking up my mind on the outside
Never again, never again will I be denied
Here I come
'Cause here I come
I've waited all my life to get out of the trenches
I'm ready to fight for what I believe you can steal from me
I won't take this
Gonna fill these trenches and stand up
Wake up, I won't give up
'Cause here I come, here I come
I've waited all my life to get out of the trenches
I'm ready to fight for what I believe you can steal from me
I won't take this
Gonna fill these trenches and stand up
Wake up, I won't give up
'Cause here I come, here I come
Stand up
Wake up
I won't give up
'Cause here I come, here I come
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