1/8/09 thursday
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Posted:Jan 8, 2009 4:34 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:20 pm 2843 Views
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wow, a lot has occurred since last entry... time has a way of passing quickly when we least expect it. i have grown so much!. Master has allowed me to date to satisfy my need for sex. lol, if He had to keep me satisfied,, He would have a full time job!... so in letting me date...He not only progresses with my training, but also gives me something i need. i do remember when He first mentioned it, i was so afraid something would change with O/our relationship and what W/we had would be gone, and i would be hurt inside.... i dreaded it even though i tried to trust Him and believe it would be better. He tried to reassure me, but i was sure it would be over, and i would be without a Master again. *smiles.. thinking back*... but it is even better than before... i really DO have a wise Master. He cherishes me just as much as ever... and i do enjoy dating. The dates He has allowed me to have have been wonderful, and for Christmas He gave me a gold charm anklet that charms can be added to. He wants to give me the letters S L U T to put on it... and i wish to add a special Master Charm... mmmh... i am so lucky to have such a wise and loving Master. i hope to post more soon,,, but real life has such a way of moving much faster than internet time.... lol.. so soon...
ohhh.. and Master is making me a collar... but has said i could consider my anklet as one in the meantime... *smiles brightly and happily... *.. so.. i am now a collared slave..
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9/21, Sunday
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Posted:Sep 21, 2008 8:42 am
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:20 pm 2901 Views
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today, i woke and snuggled under Master's arm, purring as i felt Him against my skin...letting my hand slide down and cup His balls.. carressing them hungrily.. seems i always wake hungry for Master...but i must have fallen back asleep because Master was at the computer when i woke again. i truly missed the time i lost sleeping longer...i cherish the time Master pulls me close to Him and i can feel His strength and ownership of me physically against my skin... just as i feel it deep within my soul.. as if an invisible rope binds me to Him. i used to think when i first learned of M/s that if my Master asked me to do something i didnt wish to...i could always just walk away.. but i realized months ago that is not true... i could no more walk away from Master than i could fly...i need Him, i need His guidance, His care, His touch, i crave His acceptance and approval of me as i have never craved anything else in my life.
i took a pillow and knelt by Master rubbing my cheek against His knee..sighing in pleasure as He moved in the chair so i could sit between His legs... and hungrily took His cock in my mouth...mmmh.. i also crave this...sucking it into my mouth and loving it with my lips and tongue...this is my reward for being a good girl.. and i try so hard to always be good. i would not willingly and knowingly do anything that would irritate or displease Him. i enjoy my reward immensely and am glad that He has an 'open cock' policy...allowing me to touch and enjoy His balls and cock with my hands and mouth anytime, unless He directs me not to...i let it slide deep down my throat, and massage Him with my lips, pressing hard against the base of His cock...mmh.. wonderful...until i am aroused and begin to suck harder and faster till i feel Master's cum fill my mouth... purring as i swallow and snuggling close against Master's leg... mmh the perfect way to start a day.
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8/5, tuesday
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Posted:Aug 5, 2008 6:00 am
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2008 3:52 am 2608 Views
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YAH!!!...today i get my pedicure...i woke just after Master today, and after He let me have His cum...mmmh...my breakfast of protein...we looked on Alt to see if my membership had gone through. i have never been so frustrated with something. took 6 phone calls, and 4 months, but finally it worked...they seem most incompetent for a billing department, and the most repeated answer to my questions and problems has been..."i dont know, Ms...., you can call us back tomorrow and see what happens"...lol.
and..."there are no supervisors here right now, but if you'd like to call back tomorrow, we can see". ..so, i am ever so glad that after 4 months of calling and having someone say, "it's fixed now, everything is fine", and then not being , it is really fixed. so, anyway, it is going to be a wonderfully beautiful day!!...i have Master's cum in my belly, and i belong to Him, and next week He will collar me. i am lucky to have found such a strong, wise and capable Master. this weekend Master took me out to breakfast, and had me dress up a little...with no underwear, of course...and it was a bit exciting to have other men stare at me longingly when i walked past...and ever so comforting to know that no matter who He may let touch me or share me with, i will always belong ONLY to Him. the idea of sharing me at first was unsettling, and disturbing, but as Master has explained things to me in the last few weeks, and taught me more, and i have felt my own body's reaction to the idea, i think i have grown in understanding... and i have learned over the years that how you Think of something directly affects how you Feel about it...and that as you learn and find new truths, the way you feel will inevitably change with the new found truth. i have had to dig deeply and break through some walls that were built on false information as a foundation to find the truth many times in the past year or so, as i did when i first began my discovery of M/s. the following poem i wrote when i looked deep within myself to see if this was the path for me...it was a difficult decision to make, but a true one, and as with such...there is no turning back.
Journey
My way was clouded , my path difficult to see,
as I searched for what I was to be.
Amoung endless stars that spin above,
I let my soul fly as a dove.
Amoung the pulling ocean waves,
I let my heart explore it's dark caves.
When all else was washed away,
my path became as bright as day.
In my heart and in my soul,
I found my future pathway told.
To be submissive to my Master's will,
was to see my soul's desire fullfilled. babygirlpips 2-18-07
have a wonderful day, everyone!!!!! *smiles*
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7/28, tuesday
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Posted:Jul 29, 2008 6:42 pm
Last Updated:Aug 1, 2008 8:12 pm 2553 Views
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well...after four attempts of having my account paid with Master's card, i have come to the conclusion that alt billing department is incapable of doing so, even though they assure us each time Master has called them that it is taken care of... it is evident that it is not the case. lol..
i apologize for no postings this last few weeks...have been so busy with job hunting. Master set me the task of getting a job in my specialty field before He would collar me, so i have put all my time and effort into doing so...and ...YAH!!!!...i start work in two weeks in my field...and am SO looking forward to being Master's collared one. i was beginning to think i would never accomplish the task, but with His help and guidance and pushes...and of assistance...it will soon be a reality. the very thought of being His collared one is so arousing to me, that i can hardly wait for the days to pass, though i have so much to do before then, clothes and shoes and nails and ...mmmh...even a pedicure, Master says...that will be delicious.
it is my most deepest desire to be His...in every sense of the word, even though He possesses me inside and out even now, and has since April, when i gave myself to Him...to wear His collar is special to me. it is a symbol of His ownership, and the very thought arouses me deeply...and pulls me to Him in ways i do not truly understand yet. there is much about belonging to another that i dont understand yet, but with Master's guidance and teaching, i learn new things each day. Master wishes to broaden my experience, and has told me that when i am collared, i will be His to do with as He chooses, even sharing me with others when He chooses...though i have learned to trust Him, and it no longer scares or disturbs me. i know that He will protect me, and care for me, and will let nothing happen to me...so i can say that i will do anything He asks of me...because i trust Him implicitly...
it is a comforting feeling to know that my life is in His hands...i suppose that as with so many things about M/s, i finally understand some of the things i first learned ..
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6/27, friday
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Posted:Jun 27, 2008 9:16 am
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:20 pm 2597 Views
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mmmh..today is a wonderful day...i woke as Master did today...He did not let me suck His cock right away, but snuggled me a moment, and showed me how to hold it when playing with it...then told me to make the coffee...i practiced a bit more when i returned. W/we talked about sharing me with a female, and i am a bit curious...i used to think i definately did not wish to explore that, but...now i think Master is right...i really dont know...since i have never done so. when Master finally let me have His cock in my mouth, i was anxious to have His cum...and sucked it hard like He likes it...moaning softly with pleasure as i felt it fill my mouth, swallowing it hungrily. i could feel my own dampness from the arousal of having Him in my mouth...it always makes my pussy hungry for Him...He felt to see...and spanked it a bit as He said He needed to spank it good. at first i thought He meant it was bad of me to be aroused from sucking His cock, but when i asked, He said it would make it even wetter...and even the thought of it made me tingle...Master gave me permission to masterbate when i take my bath later...mmmh...(though i would always prefer Masters fingers on my body, *smiles*).
after He left for work i finished my chores early, and spent a few hours drawing, before starting on my sewing, but He was never far from my thoughts...i miss Him anytime He is away from me...but enjoy knowing i have His protein with me all day.
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6/24, tuesday
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Posted:Jun 24, 2008 5:39 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2009 12:49 pm 2542 Views
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mmmmh...this morning, as i awoke...Master uncovered me, and i was so hungry for His touches that i was ready to cum almost as soon as He began to use me...letting His fingers slide into my pussy. He made me cum quickly...and continued to play with His babygirl cunt...till i came again, then He held me close as my body trembled with relief and it was hard not to let tears of joy slide from my eyes. sometimes my need for Him scares me, and i mentioned it to Him before He guided me to His cock...then i thought of nothing else except the pleasure of sucking His cock...i let the presence of Him inside my mouth fill my senses, till i felt my reward warm against my tongue as i swallowed it hungrily. as He prepared for work, He let me pleasure Him twice more...and when He left me...i was content...and smiled, knowing i had some of Master with me as i readied my stuff for work...today is a beautiful day already. *smiles*
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6/23, monday Noon
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Posted:Jun 23, 2008 8:18 am
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:20 pm 3646 Views
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this monrning is the beginning of a beautiful day, storms last evening, and more expected today...but then i love storms...it was the perfect weather for sucking Masters cock last evening as we watched TV, and i longed for His cum as we went to bed...it was hard to wait for it till He decided to give it to me...when i woke around 2am, and sensed He was awake, i was happy to slide His cock into my mouth and enjoyed my reward for being a good girl. He is at work now, and i miss Him...i long for His affection and attention to the point that it is almost like a hunger, and when He gives it to me i feel satiated, and satisfied to the point i had never experienced before. *smiles, thinking*...even the memories of His touches and whispers...His lips against my cheek as He speaks possessively to me...these things surround me and form my world...i would do anything He asks of me willingly, as i trust Him and know He would never ask anything of me that would be bad for me. i am especially suprised at the amount of time my thoughts are of Him...such as during work, when i move and feel my clothing rubbing gently against my bare pussy...and His ownership of it is felt deeply...making me feel His presence within me...*sighs*...
He owns me more fully than i truly understand. my days are filled with trying to please Him in all that i do, whether it is in doing a good job at my work, or in pleasing Him personally. today, it is hard not to be distressed over my inability to accomplish the task Master has set for me before He will collar me. it is not such a hard task, but there are obstacles in my path that are beyond my control, and i long for His collar so badly...but i will not give up till i reach that goal...even if i cannot see the pathway to it right now...it is there, or He would not ask it of me...and i trust Him implicitly...so i take strength from His leadership and protection, and keep moving forward, and i am positive that i will accomplish it...i am His, He believes in me...and He is here for me, and that is all i need.
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6/20, friday AM
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Posted:Jun 20, 2008 5:31 am
Last Updated:Jun 20, 2008 5:40 am 2908 Views
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i woke early as Master was stirring, and moaned softly with contentment as He pulled me against Him...whispering my morning greeting, before teasing Him saying that i thought He said to come and put my mouth on His cock, giggling as i slid it into my hungry mouth...letting go reluctantly as He pulled me up to whisper, "did you really hear me say that?" i shook my head, smiling..."no, Master"...and He was relieved that i wasnt hearing things, as He let me have it back. Master allows me to touch and suck His cock whenever i wish, unless i have been bad, and i was hungry for His cum to slide down my throat as i sucked it deep...mmmmh.....there is no better way to awaken than to have Masters cock in my mouth, and know He is pleased with me...it is such a deep contentment that while i may be lying next to Him, my soul is skipping and dancing with joy, and i gasp lightly as i feel His hand touch my shoulder, sliding down to rest on my waist a moment before carressing my ass. i feel the arousal stirring as i pull His cock into my mouth, and can feel the tingling as my pussy reaches for Him...i suck hungrily till He rewards me with my protein, and taste it a second before swallowing it greedily...
after rolling to lay beside Master, i reach down to carress His balls lovingly, and practice holding Him the way He likes...i almost have it right, but after only one evening of practice, i have a ways to go...lol...i watched Him touch it last night, as He showed me how, and made it my personal goal to learn to touch Him exactly as He likes...i had been a little shy asking Him to show me...and was glad that He was so willing to teach me. as this is my first experience with a real life Master, i have a lot to learn...i discovered BDSM over a year ago, in a virtual world where i was working and playing. i had gone to a balcony there to visit with some friends and watch the stars, and observed a few Masters with thier slaves and submissives, and was deeply drawn by it, even aroused. i didnt understand how i could be aroused by something i thought was wrong, having someone own you...so much of what i observed felt degrading and i could not reconcile my feelings with my thoughts and beliefs...so i decided that something that could affect my emotions in such a way deserved some research, and started by asking a few of the Masters questions...they answered gladly, but instead of my curiousity being satisfied, it only intrigued me more...i was granted permission to talk freely with the slaves and subs of most Masters, and learned a great deal from them...i learned that the Gorean style wasnt for me, and kinda understood the basis of the relationship between a M/s, but so much remained unanswered, and i felt a hunger growing slowly but intensely.
after several months, one of my Master friends suggested that i attend a school for submissives there, and recommended several...one of which i chose, and created a new character to attend with, as i was not ready to be open about my interest with my other virtual friends who were not into BDSM...i did lie to the schools Masters about having another character. i thought that they would not teach me if i didnt give all of myself, and with a separate character..well, most Masters i had spoken with had said they would not accept a submissive unless she played with only one character, or they owned all of them, and i was not ready for me to be owned... i just wanted to learn what called and pulled at me so deeply... over the next few months i learned so much and lots of things began to make sense, but there was still a hunger that was not satisfied, and something i could not seem to grasp. when one of the schools Masters said i was finished with training and that he would like to have me as his, i was overjoyed...as i knelt for him...as all students knelt for the teachers. i felt such a deep feeling of contentment, that i finally understood the basis behind all that i had learned and it made sense. i had not realized however, until it was too late that it could never be...as i had based it on a lie...and building something so precious as a M/s relationship on a lie would be like building a house on a cracked foundation...so i spoke with the school Masters and told them all.
to my great suprise, they were understanding, though angry...and one Master offered his support as counsel in my continued path if i chose to follow it...it was a hard lesson for me, but to be honest and truthful to a Master is the first and most important lesson i learned. for three days i thought and looked for the right path for me, and decided that i wished to seek a Master more than anything else. since then, i have had two virtual Masters...and now...*smiles joyfully*...i have a real life Master. He is strong and wise...and reaches me deep inside where i have never allowed others to touch me...and draws me to Him as a magnet, bending me to His will and desires...and i feel such deep contentment and happiness when i know He is pleased with me, that the world could be falling apart, and my world would be safe...my Master creates my world with His words, and wishes, and keeps me safely within. nothing in this world could be more desirable to me...these things i remember as i watch Master getting ready for work, and i cannot help smiling as i remember the poem i wrote when i finally realized that i have always been as i am...but now i have the freedom and courage and understanding to free my inner self...and be me.
JOURNEY
My way was clouded , my path difficult to see,
as I searched for what I was to be.
Amoung endless stars that spin above,
I let my soul fly as a dove.
Amoung the pulling ocean waves,
I let my heart explore it's dark caves.
When all else was washed away,
my path became as bright as day.
In my heart and in my soul,
I found my future pathway told.
To be submissive to my Masters will,
was to see my soul's desire fullfilled. babygirlpips 2-18-07
sighing with contentment, i begin my day...already longing for Masters return...but knowing i have a lot to do before His return...
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tuesday.6/17.AM
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Posted:Jun 17, 2008 5:18 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2009 12:50 pm 2847 Views
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today i awakened just after Master...aware of His presence near me the second i was awake...rolling near to kiss His back and chest, sighing softly as His strong arm pulled me close and snuggled me a moment before i rose to make coffee. even though i had sucked on Master's cock much of the previous evening, lying between His legs as W/we watched TV, He had chosen not to cum, and i missed the taste of His juices in my mouth, and deep inside me. it always makes me feel close to Him, and greatly contented when i can have His cum to keep with me thru the day or night...i love the fact that He usually gives it to me several times a day, however, the night before, He allowed me to fall asleep before Him, and He chose not to awaken me later, so i was anxious to feel His cock inside my mouth and to let His hot cum slide down my throat.
i fixed Master's lunch and felt my heart jump with longing as He finally brought it to me...letting me suck it for a few minutes between His shaving, brushing, etc...till He let me have what i desired, and i moaned softly with pleasure as i swallowed it hungrily...continuing to suck gently till i had the last drop and had cleaned Him...then watched, smiling as He stepped into the shower. mmmmhh...what a wonderful morning.
i was smiling as i made the bed, and did a few chores before i started preparing for my own work...a midshift today, but still will be home in time to help prepare supper...salad today..with all the works.
i lifted my face to Master's and sighed softly as i wished Him a 'good day', feeling His lips brush mine in a bye kiss as He headed out...missing His presence near me the instant He was gone. i smiled as i felt His ownership of me as surely as i could feel the dampness between my naked thighs...my body responding even to the thought of Him...to the memory of His voice whispering in my ear...His hands possessively touching His babygirl cunt's pussy, and throat...my eyes lifting to look into His as i answered..."it belongs to You, Master...Only You".
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6/16.monday.8am
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Posted:Jun 16, 2008 5:22 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2009 12:50 pm 2661 Views
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today i woke after Master...as i realized He was awake, and moved closer to feel His body near me, He guided me to His cock...contentment ran through me as i let it slide into my warm mouth, and i purred as i sucked it in, letting my tongue explore it asi let it slide in and out...sucking gently as if it were my lollipop..then harder as i became aroused...mmmh...i wondered if Master knew how much it makes me want His touches, caresses, even the sound of His voice...and my mind went back to the bath He had given me the night before, as i imagined His hands sliding over my skin. by the time Master came in my mouth, and i hungrily swallowed His cum, i was damp and aroused...i rolled over and gasped as Master slid His leg between mine, letting it rub against my pussy...but knowing Master still needed to shower and dress for work, i kissed His cock, and rolled back to my side of the bed...smiling as i gently kissed His back, and side...being a good babygirl...saying nothing of my inner desires and longings...knowing that Master always takes care of my needs at the time of His choosing. After packing Master's lunch, and going over my plans for the day with Him...my heart and body longed for Him as i watched Him drive away to work, sending my wishes for a wonderful day with Him. so.. now it is time to get my stuff for the day completed, and i already long for His return. i smile and begin my day.
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