Vanilla is ohhhh so good!!!
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Posted:May 18, 2021 7:49 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2021 2:58 am 3144 Views
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So, back in December I wrote about the vanilla guy i started seeing. Well here is May, and and vanilla guy are still enjoying our times. I had no idea that things would turn as they have. I've even introduced him some of the thing I enjoy, spanking, breath , and recently the tawse and whartonberg wheel. Hehe,,,let just say, He is a natural! He loves do things that bring pleasure. I guess most would say his desire to please would catorigize him as submissive, but to , is no box I put him in, he is just Him, and I am loving every moment!
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dang..another detour
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Posted:May 2, 2021 7:05 am
Last Updated:Sep 30, 2021 4:27 am 3802 Views
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Life.....sometimes we just find that it can throw some obstacles in our way that we just did not expect.
I guess I must also find a way to either learn from such obstacles or let them break me, but I will say...the last few days I have felt the slight bend of my mind, my spirt.
I seriously am not sure where this detour is going to take me. All I do know is that I am just sad, hurt and not sure when or how to get back on the path.
I try, I am walking..looking,,,hoping that I will find that familiarity again.
The funny thing is. the detour has absolutely nothing to do with my "kink journey" NOTHING.
To love one so much that you allow them to hurt you over and over and yet, you stand there and wait for it to happen again, because you know it will and you do not have it in you to walk away, because even as much as they hurt you, You are all they really have....the only one that will love them unconditionally.
Deep breath.....!! 
So as I find my way, I will keep on looking for the serenity, the peace within myself....to be happy with what I truly desire.
I do wonder if I can walk these two paths...a question that must be asked.
So anyway...the journey continues...just down a different path for now...i will find my way back...just have to give it some time, and let this heart heal a bit.
just a snippet into what my life is....
our rainbows all come in different shades of color....
~hush
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my place
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Posted:Apr 30, 2021 7:57 pm
Last Updated:Sep 6, 2021 10:22 pm 3543 Views
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I go there sometimes
those dark corners, seeking refuge from the life around.
Questions about just where put these desires, and what them.
The normal seems so obscure and the fear of the labels that one can wear.
Tell me One, where I can go be safe and blossom into the retched flower that is me.
I wear my need, buried deep inside, only shown to those I let near.
My corner I will revisit, after time away, the safety of that place.
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How
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Posted:Apr 30, 2021 7:46 pm
Last Updated:Sep 6, 2021 10:22 pm 3455 Views
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How do I miss,
One I've never met?
How do i desire all,
That I've never had?
How do I walk away,
From a journey i never took?
How do I dream,
Of reality I've never seen?
How can I ask for things,
That I have yet to possess?
How can I wait,
When I have no vision of the future?
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passing thought
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Posted:Apr 30, 2021 7:44 pm
Last Updated:Sep 30, 2021 4:36 am 3676 Views
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I want be His choice addiction
A craving so deep all else falls away
Invading His dreams and desire from His soul.
I want leave my scent upon His mind, my taste upon His tongue.
The touch a craving, that must be fed.
My moans are the melody He can not turn off.
I want to be intertwined with Him, always and forever. Etched into His being
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Sloppy mess
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Posted:Apr 28, 2021 12:54 pm
Last Updated:Mar 20, 2022 9:12 am 3494 Views
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So, had a great discussion today in the lobby.
We had a discussion about messy blow jobs.
Yes, I started the discussion, it was something that I wanted to talk about,,go figure, me starting a discussion...haha
Anyway, I asked opinions on a messy blow job. If it is a preference to have a messy blow job.
Does the amount of saliva, spit, drool hanging off a girls lips, off His dick make a difference Is it a preference is it a turn on or turn off?
I was watching a video and the girl had a lot of stringy drool hanging off her lips, and drool hanging off his dick. I seriously was a bit turned off by it. I just did not see the appeal.
I myself, have never had any complaints about my performance of any bj's I have ever gave, if anything I have be praised  . But I was curious about the opinions of others, and just wanted to share *s*
I hope to get a few comments, opinions or views.
Please remember its my journey, and I just share and give my opinions here for others to see, so please remember to be kind.
~hush
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Is this a thorn?
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Posted:Apr 12, 2021 6:09 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2021 8:15 am 3653 Views
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Rejection of any type..just sucks.
Another side step...a time to breath, a time to evaluate what can be learned by the side step and see how to avoid going that way again...find the lesson and move on.
How does one not let it scar your head, your heart?
Please don't ask, please don't assume to know or understand.
It is my journey and it will not be like anyone elses....it has been a lesson I needed to learn..and I have to find a way to move past it.
I may need a few days to just clear my head...and try to process all that happened. There is no anger..there is no regret...I consider it just part of the journey.
I will not put my needs/desire/wants on hold. We all deserve to have what we need/desire/want. Two/or more happy people make the best relationship...its my belief. If those thing are not considered...why have the relationship?
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oh yeah,,,,that!!!
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Posted:Apr 8, 2021 10:31 am
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2021 1:22 pm 3449 Views
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What does openness mean to me.
Well, seems I have come across some not so fun situations lately that gives me some thought to this exact subject manner.
First, a few thoughts...."relationship" to me..is whatever the other or others involved,,and myself define our dynamic as. It may be just a friendship, it might be sexual, it might not be sexual, it might be anything that "we" the ones involved title it to be. Its our "relationship" and only "we" are aware of all the particulars involved. So, your opinion on the "relationship" is not really of my concern.
That being said....In my relationships, I ask and expect openness. I can not have a relationship if the openness is not there. It just does not work for me. I don't want to have jealousy leading the way. For me, openness helps to keep that away. Accept who and what I am about, and I will do the same for you. Its not right for everyone, and I am not saying it should be, I'm just saying for me...it is what I want from my relationships.
So it seems that even with openness leading the way in my relationships,,some people lie. They omit truth sometimes. Its a shame...it hurts, it sucks. I can not control other people and their lack of respect. Respect for the relationship,,respect for me..and yes,,respect of themself. Its a shame...but it happens and even with that I have to find a lesson in the crap and find a way to learn something.
Such is life...such is this journey....I keep on keeping on
~hush
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okay...so this is kinda an odd thing..but just some of my random thoughts.
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Posted:Mar 29, 2021 2:42 pm
Last Updated:May 27, 2021 3:56 am 3100 Views
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So, I will be gender neutral here...so..here goes.
When someone tells you that you suck cock well..how does that make you feel ?
When someone tells you that you lick pussy good...how does it make you feel?
I know it seems like such a random question, but again just some of my random thoughts.
Are those comments ones be happy and proud of? There are mixed feelings from , when such comments are made. Is it something one is be proud about or is it something that should be kept between the people involved.
And, you know people have different opinions and desires, so I guess one person may like,,and another may not.
But from what I have gather, talking men,,,most will be ecstatic just have a woman even suck on their coc..lol
So, just another snippet of randomness from hush's world.
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