mental check in, break
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Posted:Dec 2, 2020 4:32 am
Last Updated:Dec 5, 2020 4:32 pm 6058 Views
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Do we all need a break sometime?
A break from the constant heaviness that is life?
I guess I have been on a bit of one such break.
I am overwhelmed and I am stimulated, YES!!! I did say stimulated, think what you wish 
It is easy to just unplug. To make decision to just not turn on the laptop or connect to the cyberworld.
What happens when your cyberworld that you nicely and tightly control by the pure push of an on button and the real world, cross?
Oh my random thoughts and ramblings.
I'm trying to figure out where all this craziness fits into my life. How do I make meaning of all this? Oh I am fine, and I am still in control of that "stuff" I just find it useful to write it down and process it all.
I am enjoying all the wonderful happenings in my life. I am finding some great times and some positive points for sure.
I will continue to write my chapters, hoping to fill the pages with adventure and lots of pervy details.
Until then, I will amuse myself and those who find this blog of any interest,,,with some sweet bits of excitement.
~hush
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Close of chapter 2:
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Posted:Nov 27, 2020 7:18 am
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2020 8:50 am 6581 Views
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Well, that was "interesting".
Not exactly what I had expected. Not exactly what I had hoped. Not exactly what was agreed upon. Has to make wonder sometimes, what the hell negotiating is about. Do people just not understand that to some of us, keeping your word, is pretty important? That shows character, shows authenticity.
I think it also showed me, that words on a screen, don't mean shit! Lol. Prove it!
Its more important that I found out a bit more about whats good for me, and what's not. I also discovered that there are just some things this girl needs along with her kink. Won't settle again. Gonna add a few more questions to my checklist, lol
What is good for some, might not be so good for another. I know He is out there. I know that I deserve Him as much as He deserves Me.
I'll keep on writing those chapters, might just make a great book one day!
~hush
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Thoughts
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Posted:Nov 23, 2020 2:08 pm
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2020 7:06 am 5293 Views
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Today as I was working these thoughts came to my head.
I wonder if others are out there are thinking about the last session they had.
Do they think about the fresh marks that were left under their clothes?
Do they think about the limits that are being pushed?
Do others think about the lifestyle, 24/7, like I do?
I wish I could turn off the thoughts sometime, like when I'm trying to sleep, but now that I've started down this path, started on this journey, I can't seem to turn these thoughts off...and honesly, I don't really want to.
They are comfort to me, they allow me to be myself, even as the outside world moves on, I am enjoying the new me,,the one I have always wanted to be.
I am no longer ashamed of my thoughts...I just hold them close and smile when I think about all the fun and naughty things I have and will do in the future.
My journey is not like anyone else's and I am not sure if or when the journey might change direction, but I'm enjoying what it is now and for now that is all that matters.
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Smell
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Posted:Nov 22, 2020 6:44 pm
Last Updated:Sep 30, 2021 4:32 am 4934 Views
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So, there is an interesting thing I've been pondering on lately. It has do with smells. I find that certain smells can and do cause a physical reaction in me.
The smell of leather is one such smell. This reaction does happen involuntarily. My pulse quickens, my mouth salivates, I become instantly aroused. My reaction the smell of leather started many ago. Recently, not so long ago, I had the pleasure of being introduced a brand new, never been used black, leather flogger. Omg, the scent of that flogger drove this girl crazzzzy! Those tails sliding against my skin, invading every inch between my legs, the mix of my scent with the leather, still lingers in my memory. What a beautiful memory. At the end of the scene,,He laid the flogger over my face, and I inhaled that wonderful mix!
Recently I did inquire about
that flogger again,, I was told that it still smells like me!!
There are a few scents that can do that to me, but this is just one of the most recent, and most memorable ones I've had. Just got to love leather!
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Thoughts on the beginning
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Posted:Nov 13, 2020 7:43 am
Last Updated:Dec 30, 2020 8:25 am 4654 Views
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Many years ago,,when I first discovered my interest/love for the lifestyle I attended the local club with a couple. What a shock!
The first example I witness was of a naked beautiful, tall blonde girl being led around by a rhinestone collar, leash ,,what an imagery. Something I will forever have planted in my mind.
Today as i was speaking to a friend I began to wonder about something...What about that scene struck me so deeply?
Did I wish I was the girl at the end of that leash? Were my desire there from the beginning, or as I did back then, deny those feelings, those needs,,those desires?
I have since explored some of my needs, desires..yet...I still have never been on the end of Ones leash
Just random thoughts from this girl.
Have a good one
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Why do I admire them?
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Posted:Nov 8, 2020 3:17 pm
Last Updated:Dec 5, 2020 4:09 am 3167 Views
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These black and blue marks left upon my delicate skin, why do I enjoy them so much? What about them bring smiles upon my face, and gives me such pleasure? I'm not really sure, but all I know is I really love looking at them, photographing them, and reliving the moment they were placed upon my skin. The mind is a very beautiful thing....
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when up is down
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Posted:Aug 20, 2020 4:09 am
Last Updated:May 4, 2024 8:57 am 3308 Views
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I do not color in the lines
i do not stay the straight and narrow path
i might bite and smile
i cry when happy and laugh when i am sad
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i make a beautiful picture
i enjoy the shiny objects along the way
i lick and cry
i smile when I hurt and laugh when in pain
I am not who you think I am
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its a start
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Posted:Aug 6, 2020 8:11 am
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2022 3:03 pm 3495 Views
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Thoughts
Vulnerable
Excited
Reluctant
Fearful
A new journey an unknown destination. I will enjoy the journey along the way, and not look for a set destination. Part of the journey is stopping and smelling the roses, even if they have thorns. Taking a different path from time to time, as long as you remember your way back.
hush
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