i have been bad, very bad....
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Posted:May 10, 2017 12:45 am
Last Updated:May 12, 2017 1:35 pm 4265 Views
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This needs for a apolocy.
Really, i am very contrite... i really am.
You see, i my behaviour was way out of line, really!
I feel very sorry, if i did hurt someone's feelings....
How can i blame people for something they dont know 1 thing about...? and dont care about either....
How can i blame people for something they dont have the inner need/feelings for?
I am very sorry...
I totally forgot that vanillas pretending to be a dom/master/sir, do not have one clue about BDSM...
They dont care, because all they want is their ego stroke/boost and have sex at the same time....
How can they?
They are just vanilla men and women too, who are in need for some sexual action.....
They use this site for a fix, a sexual rush....
This is all ego driven....
While BDSM is totally different... not ego driven at all... it cant be....
It is strange, but BDSM is all about thé other...
How can someone bé a dominant when he has to take care of the other (s need)?
That is not being DOMINANT at all...
well, actually it is.
Because that female is not able to give to herself, what she sooo desperate need, or that man is not able to get that kind of deep fulfilment in vanilla life.....
She needs a special kind of MAN for that..
Who also needs a special kind of woman, for his needs too...
So, frankly, they give to each other what the other needs...
It is not some egoistic ego sex game.
Well, for most it is...
but that is NOT what BDSM is all about.
It is about wanting to give that other person, what she/he soooo desperately longs for, need in her/his life.
So, a masochistic, submissive, service orientated woman, needs a man who needs this from her..
Are you still there??
Can you wrap your mind around this..?
To be able to give this to that one man, she need to know him.
She need to know what he stands for,
if he is able to handle all this, from her... not for a one time sex play.
but for real,
everyday, all day and night as the core of their relation, their way of having a (SM Master-slave) 24/7 real life relation,
out of love and respect for each others being.
She need to know that she can safely let him see the real HER.....
she need to know that that man, understands what it is, that she want to give to him... and value that....
He must understand this basic of BDSM.
It is really about giving the other what they need, long for..
We made rules by wich this can be given.
we made safety rules, protocol, to have some kind of structure for this kind of LOVE.
It does not matter much if this is about needing/wanting unlimited sex or SADISM/MASOCHISM.... or what ever it is that that special person needs to be able to let go...
The ground rule is; that special kind of man, understands that there are women who need to give the control over to someone who is trustworthy, for them, to be able to let go...
Most women hold responsible jobs, take care of a whole lot of bussniss....
Are in control a whole lot of time... organise this and that and the other too.
So, somehow, they need to let go, to be able to do that, they need a real mental strong man, who understands this.
It is never out of weakness, that a woman submit to her kind of man
NEVER.
Most of my kind of women, are aware of this inner need...
Maybe even had some inner struggle with this, because this is socalled "NOT NORMAL"...
WHAT EVER THAT MAY MEAN......
It is also never out of lust, it is out of need for some guidance, someone who is able to take the lead.....
so she can unwind can let go and be safe too.
She is not able to do that on her own, she needs someone who can make her want to follow him...
By understanding this inner mechanism.. in some women...
Some men, who are able to find this inner switch inside that one woman....
For this woman it may be lust, uninhibited lust, real rough totall out of control sex.
For some other woman it may be MASOCHISTIC NEEDS,
or as a way to let go, totall focus on his needs, as a overall act of submission.
by getting pleasure from giving pleasure...
it is not about her, she wants it to be all about him and his needs....she needs it to be all about him, she needs it to be, all about his needs, first,
to get to that special place.... to find that inner peace...
Or... what ever it is, that that one special woman needs....
Sure, she needs her needs to be met too...
bút by meeting his needs, she fullfils her own needs...
Does this make sense, to you all!?
Thats why he needs to know and respect her hard limits, her soft limits,
understands her....
Thats is why he needs to know her too, as a person, know about her medical history, her limits, her power.. her weakness.. her softness... her as a whole person.
Thats why she needs to know that man, as a person, his inner strength, his emotionally grownup human being, his weakness too, the good, the bad and the ugly....
give her stopwords, because that is the framework in wich they can both meet their needs... in a safe manner.
It is all about an agreement, between two (or more).
Thats why NEGOTIATION is soo very important
Thats why it is A SUBs RIGHT TO AKS ALL KIND QUESTIONS!
Thats why a dominant who understands this all, is more then willing to provide for what ever (relevant) info that woman needs from him, to know about him, to judge if she will be safe, if her needs will be meet too... In a SAFE, SANE AND CONSENSUAL MANNER.
To be albe to judge if he is COMPATIBLE TO HER NEEDS.
If she can grow and be safe doing so...
can get more and deeper in her feelings, needs for submission...
This is in a nutshell what BDSM is about, there is more, much more, it is all about very subtile nuances....
It is about needs and not wants at all.
BDSM DOES NOT EQUALS KINKY SEX.
So, i apolocize for all my rude behaviour to those poor vanilla men... with a very big misunderstanding about BDSM knowledge, anddontgiveadamn.
I forgive them their ignorance... their rude behaviour, their demanding submission.... demanding anything...... their disrespectfull behaviour, their lack of social skills.... their lack of selfcontrol, their jelly-fish character......
They dont know any better......
BDSM is not for the fainthearted, feeble egos....
BDSM is for people who have struggled with and found and know their inner strength.....
namasté. _][_
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I love it when a plan comes together... not...
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Posted:May 9, 2017 1:19 pm
Last Updated:May 10, 2017 3:58 am 4074 Views
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I dont do anything sex/kink online, except writing about it...
So, when someone from say; Australië wants to chat with me, or mail with me
i am open for that...it is chat, not sex!
I am a free woman, can make my own desicion.
But when that man begins to talk about totall controlling A sub... while he has a woman at home.... married ofcourse!
i tend to laugh very hard, sure you will!
How do you want to go about, DOMINERING !  that sub?
You want sex fantasy play online!
Sure, there must be enough women here who like that... and i dont judge that, if it makes you both happy?
i am not such a woman,
So, lets take this into reality, lets say i am in to that.... shudders...
so he, in Australië, gives me commands, i have to put nipple clamps on what ever body part..
Who is doing the works then?
Ist that a bit like online masturbation on some boobs?
If i want clamps on my nipples i will do that in the privacy of my own bedroom.
as a way to get some relieve... from that tension...
Totall control long distance, i am laughing my tits off!!
I can be Hoovering the place, while he thinks he "CONTROLS" me...
who is fucking who?
Make believe, porn play....
I need that man in the flesh, i want to see his eyes, his expression when HE puts the clamps on my nipples... i want to be able to smell him, feel his presence.
not as a horndog play act,
but out of commitment with each other... because i want to give him, what HE NEEDS, from mé.
An other thing, i cant stand it when some bloke (married!) calls himself MASTER, while he is not even capable of introducing himself properly to me....
Or able to start some decent neutral conversation....
MASTER? my ass!
Not even a dominant, more likely to be a kinkster, or player..
The other day i was having a conversation of some sort, with a dutch guy who also called himself a MASTER..
So, i totally innocent! ask him, what do you MASTER?
He got furious with me, How i dare to ask, question his Master... dom! ...
I asked him all kind of questions, because that is the duty of a sub, for her own security.... safety.
To know, to check if that man is what he claims to be....
He did not answer one question, all he did was attack me, with very nasty hateful comments, on things i told him before....
A real piece of work, this one.
Realy the attitude of a REAL MASTER.. that fuck up, did not even MASTER his own emotions...And wanted me to submit to him.....?
So, i granted him the honour to have the last word....  and that was also very nasty....
delete and block.
I dont mind when people say things they dont know anything about...
ignorance is no bliss... let them ramble...
I dont understand this behaviour of some men, if i want to be good at something, i read, i practice, i talk with people from wich i can learn a thing or two...
I dont call my self all superiour over others at all....
I am learning, i am struggling, i can be very humble.. in the presence of the REAL THING....
I just cant stand bullshit, or social injustice...or ignorant vanilla men, who think they can bluff themselfs between my thigh.... virtual or otherwise....
I have had a lifetime to learn, read, think, discuss, ask, talk, explore my own mind about all parts of THE LIFESTYLE, and what it means to me.
I am still learning, reading, developing,
They? wont ever learn a thing about themself, let alone the protocol of BDSM, or the respect real genuine dominants will show submissive women.....
Yes, i have a brain, and use it too.
I am way too opinonated for most... i dont mind, thats a way to test their mental, inner strength....
If you are not able to hold your own opinion, without making me feel less about myself, cursing and become a emotional wreck, or other nasty stuff...?
you will never be able to understand the strength of, and capture my submissiveness or my masochism, it is as simple as that.
Some Dominant on FETLIFE said; it takes a strong man to capture a strong submissive/masochistic woman.... out of her free will.....
But it is sooo much more rewarding, than all the doormats in the world, to be able to capture her, out of her free will....
She will stand by you, wont back down, wont let go... by the first hiccups and bumps on the road....
I submit to the man, who makes it possible for me, to let my guard down, who let me get to know him, as a person, a man, who knows that some submissives need time, to grow into that special kind of energy..
Who makes me feel safe, by his actions, by his emotional stability....
If i dont know that other person? How can i be safe then? What is there to trust?
This is NOT Kinky sex... this is true and totall surrender.. for real, you need balls ánd a backbone too, for that,
not some fake attitude... fake personality, fake... "dominering" equals bullying....
true sm is all about THE OTHER.
not you and your needs, but focus totally on the other her/his needs....
emotionally, physical, daily life, caring, be there for her.. because she trust you with her life...
No plan is coming together this night, i guess...
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a penis is a penis is a penis is a penis is a penis is a penis, is a...
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Posted:May 5, 2017 6:16 am
Last Updated:May 8, 2017 2:57 am 3522 Views
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You get the drift?
I have seen ugly, sick, fiithy penisses.. i have seen hooked, cut and uncut, i have seen white, and brown dicks....
Very big ones and very little once... disgusting ones, very smelly ones,
and very, very beautiful ones! 
oh yeah!
So? what is new on seeing more and more penissis....dicks!
nothing at all.
I think it is rather boring to have to watch that many dicks...
seen one, seen them all! kind of philosophy....
I think it is a sign that that man does not have much fantasy..
The same with alll, alll the chest pictures...
It is also a sign that he thinks very Highly about his tool.... 
He identify himself with his penis... thát says it all!
Soo unbelievable boring! .
Bdsm is all about reaching for her mind, her desires, it is subtile, it is tender, it is carefull probing her mind... build trust, friendship.... liking each other, first... letting her getting used to who you are... so she can let her defence down.... get to know you....
All you get is a majority of men who do not employ any fantasy at all.
and just copycat eachother....time and time again..... boo hoo!
I think it has also to do with the kind of porn they watch....
fantasia land.
BORING
it is for most, all make believe... so it actually does not matter what body part they post of them self... they are not planning on ever set something in action, at all!
But, DICKS? come on! is that all you can come up with?
to me, it is a sign of shortcoming of that man.
dismissed.
NEXT!!
There are some men who do make an effort, by showing interesting pictures of hem selfs or what they like.... in general, in life.... non sex, non bdsm, non kinky.
They are a minority and most are sub men, too.
The battle of the sexes all over again.
We know how men think, look at what happens when it is nice sunny weather again?
Look at what men buy for birthday, motherday, all red lingery in which she does not want to be found dead... {objectify}
it is allll about hissss fantasy....
But they are not at all capable of or trying to understand how our minds work?
strange....
selfish little wining boys... not men at all.
It is not about the penis, the dick at all,
it is about the kind of man attached to that penis, what counts for most women.
I am only interested in his Willy áfter we established some connection, some bond...some mutual grounds on which we want to engage in each other and bdsm too.
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awareness, consciousness
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Posted:May 1, 2017 2:13 am
Last Updated:Jun 10, 2017 11:14 am 3944 Views
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For me, it all starts with consciousness, awareness.
In as much parts of your life as possible....
Just as the good thing to do, for yourself.
Consciousness about food, and alcohol, and nicotine and, and, and, and..
as far as your awareness goes...
About food, the foodindustry is not here to feed you.
They are here, to make profit, no matter what, by lying, cheating and making you fat and diabetic and who knows what....?
Give you a feel good for 3 seconds, , by their advertisement, by all happily married, well behaving childeren,
happygolucky people eating that special brand cereals... or cheese or yoghurts, beer, wine,...
Jeagh..... or what ever.
Those people knów what they are doing!
They wont eat that junk themselfs! not in a Miljon years!
I think, it is everybodys right to take good care of his property; being your body!
I am, what is called i think, a foody..
I know a lot about food, healty food, and factory made "food"= stuffing, padding...
that what comes out of a factory is not food at all
it is all about the willingness to educate yourself about what you put in that whole under your nose...
A woman from FETLIFE, has a nice blog about healty eating, named;
Did you priced your cancer lately?
Yes, it is a hard reminder!
Your body can not do much with sugar at all
But still it is in almost all products!
Wheat, is also something most bodys cant do anything with it,
except making it in to sugar, what will be stored away for worst times,
AS FAT!
All those advertisement lies about not using fat,
because it suppose to be bad for your body..
Your brain need fat! the good fat!
Like rapeseed oil or real butter butter.
The fat from nuts, fish.
The fat from full dairy products, not the skimmed ones.
Awareness;
Clothes, from the real cheap clothesstore, are all made in countrys as INDIA, CHINA, BANGHLADESH.
Mostly by girls, who live on the factury grounds, do not ever leave that factory..
sleep, eat, work, sleep, eat, work...
thats all!
Alright, so you could say; but if i dont buy those clothes, those girls wont have work, with wich they support their family...?
I know! it is a dilemma.
But your awareness about it, makes already a big difference.
I truely believe in that....
Even the really expensive clothes shop, let their products be made in INDIA and such countrys....
Awareness about your use of water, electricity....
Do you have your vacuumcleaner on all day?
No!
So, why do you have your charger on the electrical power socket all day?
Do you keep all your lights on? day and night?
No! (i hope)
It is just a matter of how you look at things....
It is just a matter of making some sort of transition in life in general.
awareness.
People tell me, you must be a real boring person, why do you want to make such a fuss about totally not important bussniss?
the gouvernement is the one who is responsible for all that!
If they want us to change, they have to make that change first...
{ it is nót a freaking pissing contest!}
Will, in that case; how about some personall responsibility?!
This world is OURS!
everybody has an obligation to take care of his/her part of the whole...
Sure, if you have childeren, dogs, work, a wife/man.. elderly, family, you have enough on your sleeve.....
And still you can make them all aware of their responsibility too.
Living by example is what that is.
I did that with my , it did not do it any harm!
You can make it into a game, not all madmanlike.
Once you start by thinking about all this, your awareness rises in a natural way...
because once you opened your eyes to this....
It all comes natural.... there is no stopping it anymore....
it is not an effort at all anymore, poluting becomes an effort.
I think it is a nice thing to do, the good thing to do, for OUR PLANET, our fish in the sea, or cows and our soil too....
Awareness starts here too,
If you want to be the one to be able to handle her, be in charge of her,
you first have to explore your own mind and soul... your inner strength.
do you have what it takes?,
Are you build to take on that kind of responsibility. non stop.
Not just for the kinky fuckery, that is easy-peasy, in and out, kind of responsibilty,
but to be there, for her, when she needs you?
Altruism is really a big part of BEING A DOMINANT, as it is for the submissive too.
Because she wants to give you, what you long for, need, want... to feel whole.
and YOU, on the other hand, want to give her that, what only YOU can give her....
to make her feel whole.
think about it.
So,
thoothpaste, for example, is full of all kind of bad metal for your body.
Aluminium is bad for your health.....
Shampoo is full of dehydrating ingrediënt, that is, so you keep buying more and needing more of that brand...
Cleaning soaps and such, are also very bad for our bodys and milieu.
Even people with not that much money to spend, with a low income,
can make that difference.
AWARENESS, is were it all starts.
Choices, choices......
For sure, i have my weak moments...i will make mistakes, buy all kind of things totally wrapped up in plastic! 2, maybe 3 layers!
for crying out loud!
i be mad about myself, for letting that happening.. when i am tired, had a bad day at work... you name it..
And i can forgive myself too...
But i buy my vegetables in a grocery shop, my cheese at the cheese shop, my nuts.... etc....
All wrapped in paper.!
wich i recycle...
I think it is OUR RESPONSIBILITY TO do as much as we can, show some empathy for our body, our planet.
awareness.
AMEN, end of my philosophy
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Fetishes
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Posted:Apr 27, 2017 11:46 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2017 11:55 am 3318 Views
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When some men/couples even, send me a message, i always first read his/their profile, from top to bottom.
I want to know who, trying to find out, who that person is.
Look at who their friends are, read these profiles too....
So, i read, sometimes look at the photo's too....
and, ofcourse the obligate fetishlist...
It is always totally foreign to me, that special kind of "shopping list".
Because in my universum it is the wrong way around...
First: i must like that man,
Second: i must have deep feelings for him,
Third: i must have fun with that man, non sm, daily life fun and care for each other.
Fourth: i must be able to have a supple conversation with that person, not one subject is forbidden to talk about, ask questions about.
And if we are in that stage of the contact, we can maybe start to talk about our mutual likes and dislikes.... wants and needs too.
I have some very strong feelings for and against some implements
I even have feelings of fear for some items...
And i have a very big longing for some implements, hunger even,
a want!
There are also items on the shopping list, that is not to my taste at all
I dont even want to try them.
But, and again!
but, if i truely, totally trust that man, my dominant, i might be willing to try a whole lot that is not on MY shopping list at all!
Just out of trust for him.
So, to me, men with a whole full shopping list?
I dont trust them, i think they want the female flesh to put all that in action on.
Not something you explore and learn and grow in, together...
So, since i am not a FETISHFULLFILMENT MACHINE, for some totall stranger... for nobody!
I thank them for their attention, but we wont fit.
thank you, but no thank you!
Sure, i like rubber/latex alot, but more important to me, is do i like that man?!?!?!?!
if not, it is of no importance that i like rubber/latex a lot.
easy peasy.
first the person, his qualities as a human being, as a dominant sadist...
and if we have an understanding on that, we can talk shop.... he he he...
Not the other way around.
The other way around is, all play orientated, not person orientated ,
game and sex orientated...
fine, if that is your game....?
but it means nothing to me.
nothing more then just kinkyfuckery-sex, no strings attached..
SM and "no strings attached" is totally NOT POSSIBLE/ out of order at all.
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only from love.....
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Posted:Apr 24, 2017 12:18 pm
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2017 1:49 am 3340 Views
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The other day, i got an offer, i could easily refuse....
Because this man, sincere as he might be...
Wanted to, at least in my eyes, a roleplay-"relation",
Roleplay Histoire dO.... as a relation- form....
He was from the first sentence on very demanding..
That was not to my liking...
so, i told him, i can only from within mé, submit to the man that I choose
That i only can give myself from love for that man, for his whole...
That i would like to be treated as a human being, first
That we start as EQUALS!
He wrote things like, that i could HUMBLE APPLY.... and so on and on.... if i liked his offer... so to say...
Somehow, i always feel very offended by that kind of behaviour....
I am a human being, wish to be treated that way.
My whole being uniquely me! was totally discarded.
Unless degradation is a fetish of me,(NOT) i dont like that kind of approach....
I am being OBJECTIFYED, ( again)  me, as a person? does not matter much.
i am already molded in his mindframe as A SLAVE....
I dont own any personal character traits anymore, all i am is A SLAVE... an object.
I can not "playact" the (sexual) only submissive role... for as long as the game is on...yawns... I dont even understand how that works....?
I need that inner connection, feel his DOMINANT ENERGY....
not his sexdrivenegogames...
Feel his steadiness, his emotional balance,
To feel that he is capable of carrying that responsibility, gladly too
to be able to carefully, slowly let my shield down.
I need that connection with that man.
To know that he is also wanting to build a bond with me, from friendship... and not from lust....
I need to know that man, i need to have feelings for him, feelings, not lust.
Without that, it wont work for me.
I want to feel his dominance throughout the whole relation, in every aspect of our being together, relation...
That is what a 24/7 is, for me,
every day, sick, working, visiting family, friends, being together or not,
Hé is my Master, i will obey him...
because i know him and know that he will never ever do me harm.
He will challenge me, and i will expect that of him, too.
he will push my limits, and i expect that of him too.
and....?
he will love me for that....
because he is a loving sadist and i am a masochist who longs to surrender fulltime, to a grownup man, in controle of his life....
and me too.
Only from love.... and understanding and embracing each others needs....
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"role" switching..?
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Posted:Apr 23, 2017 6:21 am
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2017 2:02 am 3640 Views
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On fetlife, while i was to organise the munches, this man contacted me.
claiming to bé á dominant.... hm, hmm... sure.....
So, we met, he ofcourse! was married, had a bad sex life, had a bad marriage for what he told me, just the regulair, usual vanilla neglect of each other as partners...no interest in each other....just maintaining the status-quo.
I have heard that SOOO many time, it is boring... and somewhat disgusting too...
For so far as i know, there are 2 people in a marriage!
So, he fancied me.. well, who cares?
He was only in for the sex-kinky part of it all, ofcourse : the kinksters.
Sorry, i dont DO GAMES.
I thank him for his "offer :-&"
Great was my surprise, that i come across his profile some days later, and all of the sudden he is no longer a DOMINANT, but now, all of the sudden, he is á sub!!! hmm, hmm! sure....
WTF!!
It seem not to work for him, acting as a sub, so after some days...
yes! he was a switch!! 2 weeks later he was a sadist!
How you mean?
dont trust anything you read on a male profile, unlesss you have the living prove of that human... as a stable human being....
wich i doubt very much...
I get sick at the stomach, reading such profiles, especially after meeting those persons... shudders... it gives me the creeps!!
And, the likes of him, are here too!
Mind you, i can understand, when you always had a feeling that something was missing in your life, your relation, as a whole
You find somehow sites like this... that it is like being in a candy store...
But educate yourself FIRST!
Their approach is mostly very different from the predators..../kinksterplayers....
it is not a one night stand sexplay... easy lay.....
I also know that most men on here, think submissive = equals a easy lay, someone without any willpower, or a brain, one who you can fuck brainless, and dump,
up for the next catch....
Most of those men, are UNHAPPELY married, and in a desperate need of a fuck... to boost their ego....
They do not have any GENUINE interest in the whole BDSM dynamic, Protocol about BDSM, as a way of living...or in the other person.....
"role" switching gives me a rash...
allergy alarm! 
But, then again, most on here, are just in for the kinkyfuckery... to stroke their ego, nothing more....
so shallow.....
but thats just my rambling.....
To me, SM, or BDSM, is only possible in a relation, a bond between 2 people, in wich they take the time to get to know each other, with their clothes on.
gentle grow into the whole dynamic of a T A T/ Authority/Power Transfer...
exploring each other as human beings, having fun doing that, growing to like, understand and trust each other...
because A DOMINANT, needs to be able to trust his sub/slave too.
Trust, honesty, safety for both is mandatory.
To me, SM, or BDSM, has at first, nothing, to do with sex! AT ALL!
iT IS THE MINDSET, HIS SPECIAL ENERGY, that triggers me, to make me want to surrender to that one special man.... as a organic deed.... growing, learning....
to obey him, to be his totally.
Sure, if the dynamic is established, if we agree on most subjects of our dynamic,
sure there will be some sex.. but that is just a small part of the whole Authority EXCHANGE,...
taking my masochism as the core of the relation, taking my masochism as the centre of our/my sexuality.
and no vanilla soft, obeying the woman, serve the woman's favorite flavour .... shudders!
but the male demanding, taken what is his, from his love for me; SM sex .
stay safe!
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family matters
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Posted:Apr 1, 2017 12:21 pm
Last Updated:Aug 16, 2017 12:24 pm 4170 Views
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I have a very dear elderly aunt, she is somewhere in her 70e....
She survived cancer, she had a hip transplant....
She was always the aunt who was there for me, when i needed her the most.
Now she is losing it a bit, getting lost in her own head... 'forgetting' all kind of stuff.
It hurts me to see her like this, she takes this change very calmly and rational,
She tells me, i know i am losing it, i know i get lost in my own head and home....
But i am fine with that... why would i try to fight it?
This is what it is...
I find that so powerfull!
Now, my eldest sister, who has some attitude about her, is trying "to take care" of our aunt.
All she does is making my aunt upset, because the way she talks to her about her, behind her back, right in her face,
as if she is doing all those non logical things on purpose, to piss my sister off...
It is really nasty to see it happen, my aunt is only feeling more and more miserable.
guilty even, and she is not able to do anything about it.....
So she gets nasty, aggressive, in rebellion.
At the same time this sister of mine, demands that our aunt picks her up, at the busstation.
Thats in a pretty bussy place.... so my aunts panicks more and more...
I suggested to my sister, that she, just like we all do, when we visit that aunt, walks to their house.... that is about 10 minutes from the bus- stop.....
Oh, No! what i am thinking, she NEEDS to be picked up at that busstation...
shé is not going to walk! what are you thinking!
So, this so called, caring sister of mine, forces my aunt to do things she is not feeling safe about anymore, because that sister of mine, is too high and mighty to w a l k...!?
What a fuck up lazy bitch she is!
so, my aunt, being slightly demented, accident prone....scared in bussy traffic... wanted to take the sidewalk to ride home....
And the whole family thinks this sister is marvelous because she is soooo caring... for our aunt....
yeah, right, self interest is more likely....
I go as often as i can, i have a bussy work schedule...
Thank the goddess, she is not living alone, she lives in the house of her , cangaroo living it is called.... still totally independent, on her own, with her family watching over her....
It breaks my hart to see how my sister treats our dear loving caring aunt...
nasty piece of work, she is...
not having any insight in her own behaviour, when i told her, that maybe our aunt is not up to such a long drive anymore, she just laughs it off... and demands that her wishes are taking care of...
I worry... she makes her dementia only worse, and worse....
My dad had dementia also, at the end, his wife was also not able to handle that nicely, she was very rude and accusatory to my dad... hit him and cursed at him, when he forgot things... also a very demanding cold bitch....
that made him feel that he was losing more and more grip on his life...
also a nasty hard piece of work, that woman...
dementia is not a choice! to pester your spouse or other family members...
be- fucking- nice to those who losing their grip on their lifes.
be understanding of their condition..
My aunt was a psychologiste... my dad had a good job, before he lost it....
bé -fucking- nice to demented people!
respectfull
i worry... and feel helpless.... and sad about it all....
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Working on my bike,
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Posted:Apr 8, 2024 3:26 am
Last Updated:Apr 10, 2024 10:11 am 584 Views
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Adjusting an other luggage rack.
Just right here, in the middle of my living room!
Haha
no dirt around, it was a clean job, only my hands got a bit greasy..
I dó have soap in the house! lol
So, now with this new rack, i have room on my stearing wheel to put some other earo bars on it, so i can change posture, while riding.....
I am happy to solve this one problem, so i can find a solution for an other problem!
Isnt that great!!  
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