I dont know much... Aah, well....
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Posted:Nov 1, 2023 3:38 am
Last Updated:Nov 2, 2023 12:12 am 9860 Views
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Still figuring myself out,
Learning, always learning.
BUT,
i know ONE thing for sure,
That i am TOTALLY NOT interested in those bedroom - sex- fetish oriented, "role-play" "dominants"
With 44.0000 hours of sm porn watching as their learning "experience",
The most dangerous ones....
I am not sex, play, roleplay, bedroom orientated.
I am person orientated, want to know whó you are.
To me, it is about trust, surrender, fully, in the long run.
Not parttime, sexual submission only, for a few hours.... till next time... you feel horny again.
It has nothing to do with feeling horny, for me.
Not at all interested in your dick.
Ooh, dont worry, when i get to know you, like the way you think, your walk of life, so to say, find out we are in most ways, compatible.
I will be very interested in your dick
BUT, you know?
SM, or BDSM is, for me, not about the sexual ( fantasie) act, at all.
It is about the Ds part.
It is about building a long lasting deep trust, in such a way, i can let go.
show you my true colours, not the outside rosa, but the deep buried one...
in a safe environment, always.
Not just because that makes you horny.
But, because that trust is the base of our commitment toward each other.
Because you hunger for that deep trust, because you hunger for that level of responsibility, trust, care giving, leading.. the submissive/slave, guiding her.
Idontknowmuch..... 
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Work,
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Posted:Oct 31, 2023 9:04 am
Last Updated:Nov 2, 2023 9:07 am 8645 Views
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Well, well,
I heard stories, today...
Unbelivable!! It makes me a bit uneasy...
A bit outside my comfort zone....
Made me wanne laugh also...
I cant give away details...
Ofcourse....
But, my god!
And then i was thinking, that i did a lot of illegal stuff, in my younger years...
Compared to some, i was a little angel! 🤣😂🤣
They gave me my own bike, to work on.
That made me very happy.
And, since the thrift shop is also selling Christmas trees,
They have a lot of those.
But, no one, understands how to put them back together!!
So, today i volentered, to put those back together.
I put three trees back together.
I had an audience....
They could not understand, that i could do that, in a rather high tempo!
The other day, because nobody understood the mechanism of those trees ,they threw some away!!
They are very happy, that i am willing to help.
I like that kind of puzzle, construction work.
I worked on my bike, too.
new tire, inner and out.
Removed some very old parts...
Removed the back wheel.
It was a nice day at the office! 🥳😄
One man is not allowed to come back, B.
He did very, very bad things.... 🤫🤫🤫
You dont bite the hand, that feeds you.....
So, now i am working two jobs, the bikes and the Christmas trees.🤣
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Christmas,
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Posted:Oct 29, 2023 4:11 am
Last Updated:Nov 6, 2023 9:10 am 9258 Views
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The thrift shop is also selling all kind of Christmas stuff.
So, they have a lot of fake Christmas trees...
Some men try to assemble those trees.
One guy, had put on such a christmas bonnet.
He is very small, and he sat on the floor among all those half assembled trees
It was such a funny sight, i told him; you look great! with that bonnet among all those trees!
W, one of the staff, was around too, and he too, saw the humor of it!
Christmas are the worst days of the year, for me.
With this SAD thing....
December is the worst time of the year and March/ April
....
I become a bit hopefull, for some lighter days, more sunshine...
and BAM, the weather turns again and we are back at square one!   
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They seem to get to trust me, and start talking...
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Posted:Oct 29, 2023 3:58 am
Last Updated:Oct 30, 2023 1:41 am 8197 Views
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At this social working place, the sour guy left the work floor, to collect some 400 bikes somewhere in Holland.
So i worked with B and an other guy.
B and i finished two bikes!
I am soo proud!
B made a test drive on this one bike, wich was worked on, before by the Sourman.
While he was on the bike, one of the peddal broke off..
He almost fall of the bike!
He came back, terrible mad!!
Cursing and cursing!!
Very impressive!
So, we fixed that, again, and checked the whole bike, because it seems that the Sour man, never really put all the bolds and pieces tighten
That made them, talk, about this Sour man!
I heard storys that made my eyes roll!!
ReallY?
Well, well, well, he is not as clean as he pretend to be.....
cough!
He did not practise shoplifting, let me say that...  
He is even more nasty, then i allready, instinctively 'knew' about him.
I even think, the staff might be a bit afraid of him....
I liked it, that those two men, opened up, about him and their selfs too....
It was a very relaxing day, working with B.
No drama, no nastyness, no negativity, at all
We even thanked each other, for working together.
One of the habbits of the SOur man, is always telling me, what i do wrong.
The whole day long.
The other day, i had enough of that, so i shouted at him.
I dont do anything WRONG.
I am doing things my way!
That does not say, that is wrong!!
He immediatly moved out of the away.
Or, when you tell him he forgot to do, something, he always react with;
I know that already!
Go F yourself! You did not.
It is known, that Indian man, and maybe especially the older generation,(?) really have a very big dislike of women.
So, now, maybe, i have made some friends, overthere.
Planning on working more and more with B.
We worked together, help each other, give each other the tools needed and all that, normal healthy work relation.
Still an apprentice.
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Today,
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Posted:Oct 22, 2023 11:58 am
Last Updated:Oct 29, 2023 1:10 am 10837 Views
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Was again, such a lovely day.
It started with rain, but i was oke with that, because i had to do a lot of work inside the house, first.
In the afternoon, the sun came out to play and i played a bit in my garden, too
just messing around with giving some small herbs a better spot in the garden,
making more room in the middle of my garden.
Put some soil in the holes i made by digging out the elder and conifer...
feed "my bees and wasps" some of my honey.
There were a lot of bees, wasps too, enjoying the honey
and i enjoyed seeing them eat, collect some food...
As i do, in summertime, when wasps especially, come and take water out of my very little pond... and fly away with it, trying to keep their nests cool...
I am happy to be of 'service' to those animals.
And, tomorrow i will get my stuff from the bushcraft shop!
i am soo excited, !!!
Just an other small step on the way to my traveling.
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Cooking, on the road,
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Posted:Oct 22, 2023 4:10 am
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2023 4:28 am 11420 Views
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These are the pots and pans ..
Hope this time, alt puts the picture, as i made it, online...?
you never know, with alt...
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dualism,
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Posted:Oct 22, 2023 3:09 am
Last Updated:Oct 29, 2023 1:12 am 10777 Views
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Hate/ love,
I am not againST the Isreal people or pro the Palestine people.
I am against the war.
I am againts the manipulation of the peoples!
I am against manipulation of the peoples, by telling what will be accepted as "the truTH"
There is no such a thing as THE TRUTH.
I dont like acting out of the underbelly feelings.
Howling with the majority.... amp;
No ratio.
I have a weekness for the underdog, cant help it.
Always been, always will be...
I know!
it is a weakness...... or not....?
In the mean whille, our ground rights are being undermined...
Without *you* are aware of it....
All in the name of your "SAFETY".....
All ocupied with all this war thing going on....
dualism, is a killer.
Sometimes, you, i them, just dont know, enough...
to be able to make a stand.
And that is very liberating, to say; i just dont know (enough) to build a oppinion about * it*..
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Tipping point
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Posted:Oct 22, 2023 2:56 am
Last Updated:Oct 30, 2023 10:16 am 10079 Views
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On more levels in this world.
I talk about the tipping point, in nature...
We all, act, as if we are on the TITANIC.
keep dancing and fancy dining,
while the poor and riffraff are drowing, down below...
As is the case with all kind of small islands, where the native born people are forced to leave the grounds where their ancesters are burried...
And that is something very traumatic for them.
Also, the have nowhere to go, to.
Other islands?
Mingle with other native folks? who are dealing with the same problems?
This is happening all over the planet, with all the small islands.
Near Indonesia, for example.
Once, nature gets to this tipping point, there will be no way , in wich we can safe ourselfs anymore, i believe....
Maybe if you live on a boat, ship..?
Have enough survival skills, do know how to....?
Know how to live from the sea, or land....
Talking to a friend, we discussed this, she told me; there will be a third world war,
dont question that.
I dont think, it will be the war of wars, that will get most of us killed
i think, nature will fight back
The ice on antartica is melting way too fast.
The permafrost in Russia is going on, way too fast.
All that water has to go, some place.
We, here, in Holland, are sitting ducks
It will come from two or more sides
From the canals, from Germany and beyond and from the sea...
Buiding dikes?
How high do you think, you can build them?
The last storm, wich hit Scotland, and we had some of its tail, too
killed a few people..
This will continue, unless we stop acting as if we are on the Titanic.
All countrys/ governments dont have to backbone to make the big changes.
demand the madness about all those traveling in planes, all around the world, to stop.
stop the production of cars.
Stop the over production of meat, dairy.
Make a much, much better public transport system.
kick the Esso, Shell, and all those big, big powerfull companies out of their histerious profit making
Make them make amends.
When that tipping point reaches it high....
good luck.
Titanic behaviour....
We all do it,
act as if nothing is going on, continue the same way, live the same wastefull ways..
as ever..
Greed is thé source of all evil...
A friend of mine, told me; they worked só hard, they had THE RIGHT TO ...
in their case, to travel, fly to greece for their hollidays....
The right??
How?
Try to see the bigger picture.
we as people, cán make a difference.
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Bushcraft ?
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Posted:Oct 21, 2023 11:28 am
Last Updated:Oct 22, 2023 11:47 am 12976 Views
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To be able to cook, on my way, i have to have some good gear.
I do have some outdoor coking gear, but they are actually too big and too heavy. to much bulk
So i want it all as small and foldable as possible, light weight is important too.
So, yesterday i did put a very big order at this Bushcraft shop.
So, next week i can start to learn to cook outside and start a fire, too...
See how it all works.
I have a lot of stuff already for my traveling.
The list with things to buy are getting smaller and smaller.
I like that...
They advice to take with you merino wool clothes....
So, as i do, with everything i buy for my traveling, is,
i buy one or two items, use them, wear them and see if i like them.
That way i found out, i bought a wrong head light.
It is rechargeable, but only has one way you can put that lamp on...
I am disapointed about that, i will go back to the shop and see if i can change it for a headlamp with more possiblities, more angles, too
There is sooo much nice stuff to buy and to use, very fancy stuff, too,
but to keep it at the bare minimum, is an other piece of cake!
Minimize is all i do, constantly.
Clothes can become a problem, to downzise that, would be hard work!
Also, i have to take in mind, i have to have stuff with me, i can also use when i found a place to stay.
Multiple usage of all my gear, is my goal.
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