I have this one .... bad habbit...? whahah! One??
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Posted:Jun 30, 2023 4:18 am
Last Updated:Jul 1, 2023 1:19 am 22696 Views
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Nah,
i must have more then one... 
Only this one, is something i know of and struggle with, sometimes...
I am, or can be, very goal driven,
That counts for riding my bike too...
i just cant ride just for the fun of it
I MUST have a goal, somehow
So, now i have decided, that i am going on my bike, without a real goal,
take some adventures side roads!!
Oh! help!! hahahaha
I think, i will experience sooner then later, that i am making a new goal, again and go for it!!! sighs!
hahahahah.
Try if i can find an other road to that big city,
I want to find the route next to the train rail...
I knów there is a route.
Have to find it....
and see what happens.....
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On my bike, again,
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Posted:Jun 28, 2023 1:28 pm
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2023 4:11 am 21475 Views
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Sometimes, i really have to kick myself to go on my bike, again
When i am on my way, i am ever soo happy, nature, the sounds of all kinds of birds.
Love it.
Feel happy..
This ride was not so pleasant, it rained the whole day, the kind of rain, you think, wont make you wet!!
Water cold, we call it, overhere....
It was no fun, but i was on my bike, so i kept at it..
This time, i decided to take an other route, not the bike highway, anymore.
It was a much nicer enviroment, with bush and trees...
But i had the idea, that i was biking back wards....
So, i kept at the same route and eventually, i came back on that bike highway!!
I laughed real loud and said some nasty words!!
About my way of orientation - NOT!!!
My compass is broken, that is for sure.
Later on, i got in a conversation with someone, who also bikes to South Spain and back.
The man gave me all kind of advise, about biking in France.
And in Spain/ Portugal.
i have such a great contacts with other bikers!!
It is like folks on a motorbike, they all greet each other, on the road.
It is a bit the same, with bikers.
Also, there is this brand of bike bags, very well known among the folks who ride long distance...
We all recognise each other!
A little small family of bike addicts! LOL.
An other nice side effect is, my legs are getting much stronger and upper arms too!
I thought i must learn to ride in rain, too.
Endure it.
Because it wont be always sunshine, on my bike ride to Spain...
Today, was terrible.
i was soo cold, and soo tired, could not think straight anymore.
No where to run, no where to hide.....
But i made it home, took the train the last part!! 
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"Friends" in the scene?
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Posted:Jun 26, 2023 1:40 pm
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2023 1:13 pm 18584 Views
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When i first started this journey.....
I really thought, it was great to become friends, with all kind of SM folks...
I really did.
Very fast, i realised, that is not working at all.
You can be 'friends', just because you both like to be whipped...
But that is a bit of a very shallow base for friendship.
Ofcourse, i did experienced this, in my life already.
But for some reason, i thought this community in Holland
was very open and acceptable of others.. and their preferences.
Oh! Boy! how wrong i was!!
My experiences were a bit shocking.
Yeah, i know, i can be a bit naief sometimes...
One big happy family!
Right! not!
First i had some friends, who did have a totall different view on submission, dominance, relations based on that principle.
objectification.
That made the scale on wich our SM conversation was base rather small.
i also found out, that most folks in, at least The Dutch scene,
only want to talk sex fantasy.
Nothing real life must come in between!!
To me, again, that was very shallow.... empty too.
There is more to life, then talk about the play you experienced and how much of the same you need/want....
Also, their ideas about dominance, or submision, was very limited, in my eyes,
to just the sexual act.
Fetish dispenser comes to mind....
Topping from the bottom, too
"I only want to submit the way i want it, when i want it.."
And he has to perform his act, accordingly..... HUH?
It is all made of small little compartements.
Does not have one connection, with their daily life....
I cant do that.
That kind of 'conversation' bore me to death, to have to participate in that way....
So, now, i have this one contact, and an other one, but that totally has no substance at all
That one, will bleed to death, and i am fine, with that..
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Finding?
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Posted:Jun 22, 2023 12:00 pm
Last Updated:Jun 26, 2023 1:23 pm 14646 Views
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I realise, to find a man, as i want and need it, is not easy at all.
SInce the 50 shades of womens abuse, and all the horrible sad porn.
It is getting even worst, to find a decent man.
Friends of mine, tell me, there are not Masters or Dominants ~ nor submissives, or even slaves, anymore
There are only swingksters!!
Two slaps on the ass and fucking!
The whole mental connection, the whole deep, deep trust needed to be able to give myself to an other person?
Seems no longer available on sites like this.
Or on fet life, too...
The other day, there was this item on fet, about 'giving up is not an option'
Well, let me tell you, it is!
They also use this term, when talking about cancer patients..
I think, that is rather rude to say.
You dont know, how someone feels, deep down inside
You have no idea, how heavy such 'treatments' are
physically and even more important, mentally..
I can understand when someone says; enough is enough.
in this case of cancer "treatment" or in the search for a Dominant~Master.
Let it go. 
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Next hoax?
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Posted:Jun 22, 2023 11:31 am
Last Updated:Jun 23, 2023 12:19 pm 14158 Views
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Here in Europe, the WHO is going for the overkill...
Yeah, disclaimer, you dont have to agree with me.
If you dont have anything positive to say, please dont say anything at all
Write it on your own blog, if you want to, have to, thank you very much.
There are a lot of different kinds of cancer going on, since the jab.
There are still a lot of people, overhere in Holland who are afraid of their health.
Have all kind of strange 'side effects?' since they took the jab....
Their whole resistance is gone.
Now, the WHO organisation has thought of something else...
In Holland you can get a shot, for free, now
to "protect" you, against 6 types of cancer...
Cancer has soo many forms, has sooo many ways......
It can get into existence through what you eat, or not eat
Genetica could also have a say in it...
Air polutions, water polutions, food polutions.
Most fruits, overhere in Holland have more then 7! kinds of poisson on them
Most are not realy safe to eat, in large quantities... for a long time....
So, getting a stap to protect you?
Against 6 kinds of cancer??
Bull shit!
It is just an other hoax!
WHO is trying to controle world population by controling their health, their finance..
their freedom.
Dont do it!
Please, please, please, if your country wants to push this on you.
refuse!!!
For now, they are only active on trainstations, in the big cities, and only focussed on the youht.
For now it is for "free"....
The next step is, you will have to pay for it.
I warned you, before
about this corona haox.
I warn you, again.
Do your own research!!
Dont believe me, please do your own research.
If i can find information about this, so can you.
Be aware, be very aware.....
Check the chinese way of controling their populations.
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glasses,
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Posted:Jun 18, 2023 9:47 am
Last Updated:Jul 2, 2023 2:17 pm 14789 Views
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This are my glasses,
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A message.....
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Posted:Jun 18, 2023 2:40 am
Last Updated:Jun 19, 2023 10:40 am 12426 Views
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i found a real nice frame, glasses....
i had to wait for it, to be finished.
So, finally i got this message, from the shop.
My glasses are ready!!
Yeah!!
So, i jump on my bike, go to the shop.
You must know the staff there is really, really very nice.
Very civilised....
That is nót common behaviour here, in this place....
So, i arrive, tell this man, my glasses are ready!!
I come to collect it.
He looks at me, ofcourse he does not know who i am and what kind of glasses i come to collect....
I tell him my name, he go search for my data, find my glasses....
I always wear a hearband, because my hair is so wild, and big.
But, to try my new glasses, i had to remove that band.
and try to reshape my hair...
Almost not doable....
So, that man looks at my hair in admiration,
OOh, such beautiful hair, was what he whispered...
I was totally surprised by his comment on my hair....
We looked at each other and gone was that moment...... 
The frame is almost multi colour.... sort of...
when you look at it, from one side, you see red, when you look at if from an other point, the colour changes, and it becomes almost pink...
also with the other colours, green to turkoois, bleu ish.... a bit of purple....
I love it!!
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Training,
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Posted:Jun 17, 2023 4:32 am
Last Updated:Jun 18, 2023 9:45 am 12912 Views
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No, not thát kind of "training", You sick fucks!
That is a fetish.
Not mine.
No, bike training.
I did a bit too much, the other day....
The ride was great, i was in a great shape!!
could get a real good rhythm.
Full speed!
I loved it!!
The other day, my body told me, cool down, mad woman!!
take a day off!!
So, i listen to my body and today i am doing some biking again.
There is this farm, who sales his own honey, the last time i was on my route,
i did not have enough money with me...
So, this is sort of a pleasure route, to go and buy some real raw honey...
But, being mé, i knów i will make this into a game to win!
To go as fast as i can, for a certain amount of time and then take it easy for a very short time.
And full speed again!!
Have to get the old body in shape again!
Did go on bike rides from up North of Holland, to South France....
Together with my partner, years ago!
Camping and gone again!!
I take all kind of precautions, food, drink, sweat, salty.
a lot of water, with me, to cool my head, face down.
I am very happy, on my bike. in sunshine, + 24 degrees Celcius...
I dont have much time for blogging, in these great sunshine times!
Take care.
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Bike ride,
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Posted:Jun 11, 2023 3:33 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2023 12:59 pm 13518 Views
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Yesterday was the first day of a heat wave.
Or so they promissed us.
So, i decided to go on a bike ride of 33 + kilometers.
In the moring ,it i was still very cold, riding in the shade of trees....
I was soo happy i took my shawl with me...
It worked very good, as a second layer of clothes...
I checked the route, i did not want to use my phone.
So i memorized some parts of the route, the numbers of the route....
and all the little places i had to go by.....
Then, i found out, they made a new bike highway, sort of.
That was a very nice surprise.
Knowing myself, i knew i would have some difficulties finding the route...
I knew i had to stay close by the railroad, to follow to that big city...
No problemo at all!!
Just stick to the bike highway and you will arrive at your place of destiny...
It was great!!
It took about 2 hours to get 33.4 kilometers under my wheels..
So, nice to be in a city where the people are nice, and decent and have a sense of humor and i had a great time
Later on, it became very hot!!
i did ate my lunch in a very nice park, in the middle of this city.
There was a herbal garden and some fruit trees
It was very quiet!! singing birds overal......
Later on, i went to some shops, talked with the owner/friends,
It was great, talking about all kind of stuff, personal stuff especially.
I want to to search for that one market stall and when i found her stall, she was in shock!
What?! How?
I laughed, told her, i came by bike, dont you see my bike??
She laughed too!
We talked, she was very afraid, worried about my safety, wanted to know, if i had my phone with me,
charged and all
I told her, how did we do, that, without iphone......?
How did we survived??
as a joke,.....
She did not like the joke, untill i explained her,
i had to go by bike for more then 40 kilometers without a phone..in highschool times.
How did i survived!!?
You ask people, you go and ring a doorbell and ask for help?!
You stop a car and ask for help....
What ever is needed.....
The highway was almost all for myself, no other bikers to be seen!
One or maybe two....
I enjoyed the ride ,
On the way back i took the time, it was great!
On the way back, my skin needed shade... there was no shade at all!!
I still feel the heat in my skin.
Now you can see, which parts of my body did take on some sunshine,
and wich not!!
Looks very silly...
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Psychology?
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Posted:Jun 11, 2023 2:02 am
Last Updated:Jun 17, 2023 4:15 am 9910 Views
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I read in a Psychology magazine, something about how you develop your own coping mechanism.
In not a safe family life, and also in a safe family life....,
Think about it.....
How you onconsciously 'recognise' that specific thing, in the other.
It is not a bad thing, to 'recognise' your own mechanism, in an other.
As long as you are aware of these mechanism.
They also talked about, it not being a bad thing.
From those mechanism can grow a healthy relation.
it is possible.
It only makes things slightly difficult, to find "your man/woman"
If you have more than average trust isses....
In our line of finding a D/s/bdsm partner, i think, it is a good thing.
TO not trust everything dicktomandharry lies to you.... about..
Also, those mechanism are not put in concrete.
They can change, in life, you can learn to trust. and feel safe...
You can get out of that old age coping/survival mechanism.
Thinking about my lovers, partners i did recognise some patterns, for sure.
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