Sun, soleil, sol, zon, sonne,
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Posted:Apr 8, 2024 3:12 am
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2024 4:56 am 5040 Views
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We got two days sunshine, again the wind was freezing cold,
so, you could NOT sit in the garden, in the sun,enjoy it, ... 
And then i heard, some very important air flow, The Artic Polair Vortex,
changed course, above the Northpole.....
Wich could have a very big impact on the weather overall, and here too.
The wind changed from West to East, and that means, most of the time
overhere, very bad winter, cold weather!!
God forbid!!
Not again!!
They are talking abous snow, again.... and freezing temps, too.
They specifically mentioned two dates, the 16 and the 17 of April.....
How is that going to work?
Two days of snow, and after that, we are going on with the spring times?
I dont get it...
Stop this planet, i wanne get of!!   amp;
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An other family member...
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Posted:Apr 5, 2024 10:46 pm
Last Updated:Apr 8, 2024 3:26 am 5168 Views
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My sister just got the bad news, that yet an other family member is told his days are done.
An other family member with multiple cancers all over, in his body..
He, too, took all the needles...
😵💫🥴😭😣😫
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I got 20 points, so he said....?
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Posted:Apr 4, 2024 12:40 am
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:12 am 5581 Views
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In this conversation about dominance, submission, master, slave
he told me at one point, that i just won 20 points?
HUH?
What?
I did not know, i was in a game of winning points?
I was under the impression, we had some sincere conversation
about what being in a D/s- or M/s all is about...
scoring points?
He never mentioned that before in our conversation,
That i had to collect points, for what ever reason?
So, i finished that contact.
Points??
WTF?
anways, good riddance.
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Dominance, dominant, master, dominance, master?
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Posted:Apr 3, 2024 11:49 am
Last Updated:Apr 5, 2024 10:41 pm 5227 Views
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I am done.
I am too tired,
and have been lied to, too many times.
To be able to open up, ( again ) for someone...
Well,.... Why?
The amount of energy to have to put into that socalled new contact,
never equals the energy, i get back....
Most of the time....
It all starts as lying,cheating, cheap talking....
I just feels there is something off....
Like those bedroom dominants?
I inmediately feel they are playing a game
Not really interested in me, at all
Only in what they can get out of me, or out of my body....
Sooo terrible tiresome...
I am done playing games just to stroke their egos....
There is such a big part of psychology in building a Master_ slave dynamic.
This is, certanly in the beginning, a case of fingerspitzengefuhl
being subtile....
It is not about ticking of some boxes, of wants and needs, hornyness, and the likes?
You have to want to invest time, energy and being sincere is just one very big part of this, too
Having patience, building trust, be réally, réally into that other person?
Both have to want to dig into that other persons personality.
Not!
Not trying to keep a score....
I am done.
I dont mind if i never, ever wil meet a Dominant_ Master in my whole life......
They are not worth the effort....
I am rather happy without them.
Then have to go through all those lies, and game playing....
All the emotional turmoil they create by making believe talk
but never, ever are able to follow that up.
sorry lot!
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I really have no idea,
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Posted:Apr 3, 2024 11:25 am
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2024 11:29 am 4799 Views
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I really have no idea, why some people think, they can lie to me, about things that are easily proven otherwise?
Do they think, i as a woman are half brain death?
Or dont have my facts checked out?
i really dont understand this behaviour of some men....
I have these friends, a heterosexual couple, living in North Portugal
We exchange messages about what is going on in their and mine life....
All is good.
Then, all of the sudden, he starts telling me how i have to ride to South France?
What IS he thinking?
Does he really think, i did not think this through, did not get all the info i needed and wanted to make a good decent decision??
Do i give of this vibe about being stupid and not able to decied for myself, what is best, for me?
I really dont get this.
Do they really think that i am sooo gulleble?
I dont get it, at all?
This other person, too, we exchange messages, and all of the sudden, without me giving any indication that i am in for this proposal,
he decides something, wich i totally dont agree with!
We did not even discussed this, at all!?
Not asking me, nothing??
I must give off some real strange vibes when people, and especially men, think they can make decisions for me, while i did not even asked for advise??
Do all men, think, deep down in their hearts that all women are not capable of making decisions on their own?
How could we, as wimmins, ever have survived, with the UNWANTED "help" from the penis wearing kind....?  
You could say, those guys and i are defenitily not on the same page, anyway!!
Thunderstruck....
I have this other friend, he is a former dominant, he knów me, he knows how i think, how things work for me,
he is capable of giving very sound advise, and lets me know, he thinks in the same brain wave as i do..
it is great to talk with him, our conversation really, really flows!
he gives me good ideas and i him.
It is great fun.
I really have no idea, what, if anything, is going on in those brains of those other men?!
Can someone, please explain this to me?
I knów, i am not at all without any brain activity, so that could not be the point.
I also knów, that i am rather intelligent and have a rational way of thinking.., analysing things..
So?
What is it!
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An other family member,
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Posted:Apr 3, 2024 3:35 am
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2024 6:01 am 4750 Views
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Is terrible sick, is in a very sad state, too
No stamina, way too thinny... does not eat enough....
She was always totally focussed, well i would rather call it obsessed, with her weight...
Allways talking about how much fat she has were....
while in real time she looks like a starvation..... model....
Doing all kind of power training.. just to stay that inmaginary thin.
to overcome her "fat"....
It is, ofcourse, totally a mental act..... state.....
Gets help now.... But i just dont know about that....
For how long, how well that works?
Have been reading up, on the processes, going on to get those persons from who,
to get them to admit their mourderous plans
Get their help to admit that too.
The facts are staggering, and soo terrible down right evil
Doctors, engenieurs, lawyers, people from all kind of education levels,
are collecting evidence, on what was REALLY going on.
One engineer, lost his own ...
is now collecting all kind of medical facts,
They did not want him to look at the medical papers of his own ..
His , wanted to give his heart to science,
They could not use it, it was full of blood clots...
People die in their sleep, because their bodys are under attack from within.
drop death on the street or have multi cancers all over their organs.& brain, backbone..
Have problems with their hearts, blood, or failure of other organs..
That got him suspicious and now he is doing a lot of research to find out.
The horrible true, about those "vaccins".
It is medical gen tech experimenting on the whole world population.
There is still an excess killing going on.
With the knowing of all kind of high on the foodchain folks,
governments, MD's.....
The whole bunch.
Crime against humanity, the human kind..
I hope this family member has the spirit, the power to overcome this...
I doubt it, though....
Knowing, what i know, about this "killer vaccin"...
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It is getting close....
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Posted:Mar 31, 2024 11:32 am
Last Updated:Apr 1, 2024 12:51 pm 3224 Views
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To become really serious....
I am almost in the final stage of fulfilling my dream desire.
Have to start sleeping outside, to get use to it...
cook outside too, learn how to make a fire, in more then one way...
with multiple tools, too.
sleeping in my soon to buy tent, 
It is still freezing cold, for me, that is, overhere...
So i will wait for just one other month, or two, maybe?
and hopefully it will be a bit more nice temps, for me.
have to prepare the garden, for the tenttobe, to put up, there...
Make room.
I am all excited and a bit anxious, too....
fingers crossed and a new wishbone?
Hahaha, something like that!
There is still a lot to buy, for on the road.
for in the tent, too....
There are really a lot of blogs about people who did what i am planning to do,
Take a hike
but in my case, on the bike! lol
Sooo much info!
It drives me nuts at times!
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All the way, from america,
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Posted:Mar 28, 2024 2:09 pm
Last Updated:Mar 30, 2024 1:20 pm 3627 Views
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Great song, by Joan Armetrading.
check her out!
-update- my blog- ? Because of the same nonsense?
About H, G, and.....pfffff... alt! get a hobby!! 😱
All the way, from america,
I get reactions, in my mail box.
Wanting me, to travel to their place,
Where ever that may be?!
I dont get it.
There must be a hell of a lot more women, from the america's.
Wich they can contact.
Much easier, same language, same overall background, hopefully?
Why this Dutch chick?
Is it all for the show?
For the "online" games, sex acts?
Why?
Cant they go to a local , for that?
Are they soo cheap?
Wont pay for it?
And want me, to come fly to their destination?
To get F* cked by a totall stranger?
mind you; no bdsm oriented relation? - No!! Just sex??!
I dont have a death wish?!
If i had one, i can easily get that happening, overhere, in Holland.
#Again, did alt deny me, to post this...
For the obvisious " reason" = h,g, and... youknowwhat...
My,Oh, my_onaisse!!:🥒🌶🥒🌶😝
It is getting boring!!
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How most vanilla men approach me/ women.
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Posted:Mar 28, 2024 1:33 pm
Last Updated:Mar 31, 2024 11:24 am 3093 Views
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Always, always!
With their dicks in hand, first.
That is the way, they fly into my mailbox.
Of course, this ia a very big exaggerration...
Allthough....?
Ha!
Especially, now that spring has arrived, at least, in their bloodstream!
Not in nature, yet.
I always, wonder, what in heavens name, is going on, in their brains!?
But maybe there is not enough blood left, in that part of their anatomy...?
There is a distinct difference, in wich A Dominant approaches a woman,
Or how vanilla's / bedroom dominants (?), approach women..
Vanilla's, on here, especially, want to jump right to private mail,
For instance...
Dont have any questions, or only the sexual orientated.
Dont show any geniun interest in #you#, or who #you# are.
Just only are interested in the sexual part of me...
And are very upset, that i dont want to play their games...that i dont answer to their expectation...
This is something i always encountered with bedroom dominant,
I have to jump right into their little sexual fantasy role..
When i did not go that way.
They always became nasty and rude.
What i became to call, their true nature.
Cursing, bad mouthing, name calling
THAT, is something a dominant will never do.
He will say, there is no chemistry...
Or something like that.
No connection,no common ground, to build the trust on...
Or something like that.
NEVER, will a Dominant call a submissive names ( unless they agreed to that, on a much later phase in that contact...)
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Internet!
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Posted:Mar 27, 2024 3:49 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 1:05 pm 3235 Views
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We are all addicted to the w w internet.
What a drama to have no internet, only on my phone....
Give me a sledgehammer anytime over having to install a new modem!!
All those wires, makes me real nervous, afraid of doing something wrong/ stupid.
Well, halejula!! I am back on my laptop...
Now i only have to make a new place to sit, with the laptop,
because i changed the whole living room....
And did not think, of an other place for the laptop!
Gosh!!
bleagh...
give me a sledgehammer anytime over this kind of nonsense..... Sighs....
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