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The stray cat...
Posted:Jan 6, 2024 10:36 am
Last Updated:Jan 10, 2024 1:39 am
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We are getting our second hit of cold weather...
Below zero...

"My?⁹" stray cat get his food in the shed, when it is bad weather.
Also, this day...
Most of the time, he stays, just inside of the shed...
So he can run, when he feels his life is in danger...

The other day, he lay down, just inside the door, to the hallway...
On the treshold...

Today, he lay down, inside the hallway, on the other side of the door, even!!
I was sooo proud of him!

Soooo....fingers crossed, he may get inside the house, when this bad weather gets worst...
And, maybe, just maybe, i am able to close the backdoor... when he decides to stay inside... for as long... as he can stands it...
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Work, this guy.....
Posted:Jan 5, 2024 10:06 am
Last Updated:Jan 7, 2024 3:49 am
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The bike i am working on, is getting along pretty well,
except for the brakes and the gear.

It drives me nuts, that i dont seem to get it.
And my man to go to, was not at the job,
so i got to figure it out, on my own...
Grrrr....

Then this sour man, did find it necessary to "help" me,
with all kind of strange advise, about disassemble the whole gear box!

Are you out of your brains! LOL
So, i told him, you stay away from my gearbox.
I will ask this Ronald guy...when ever he gets out of his booz stupor! Há.

Today, Ronald was, thanks the goddesses, back again.
And indeed, drank way tooo much liqour,

He had a rush job, with this bike, so he could not help me..
Instead, i cleaned out more tool boxes, my god!! The stuff they collected???

We talked about my bike, he told me, how to do this....

But i was blank, i did not get it into my head!!
Just not!
So, we agreed, he would help me, next tuesday, fine
I am a very visual, oriented person, i have to see it, in the flesh, so to say....

There is this other guy working there, i find him attractive.
he is from Ucraine.
He is a intelligent guy, just like this Ronald guy....
So, i try to talk with him, translate on his phone did help a lot.

Then, all of the sudden, he wanted to meet at my house?!
HUH???

I hate men, who dont have any patience, decency, and are very clear, about what they are after....
How disgusting!

So i told him, i dont want to meet him, we can talk here.
Told him, about the husband of my sister....
being terminal ill....

NO EMPATHY WHAT SO EVER.
NO COMPASSION, AT ALL
Well, so much for being intelligent.amp;

I, ofcourse, are already done, with him.

This time, i stayed later then normal, i was in the shop,
talking with this couple, customers of the shop,
They were soo open and friendly, did come from the West of Holland,

so we clicked, inmediately got to talking about all kind of stuff
I totally forgot the tea break, came back into my part of the building
all of the sudden, it seem to be 4 oclock?
How did that happen!
So i asked for my pay and got to talking with this W guy, one of the staff.

We talked about this SAD thing, my family background,
i think i shocked him, with my background story..

And i am always very carefull to tell the light version of my life, background....
Never give to much details, just the overall picture...

I dont have any charge on that story, anymore, so for me, it is...

Nah, not really a bedtime story, but more, this was our normal,
So?
Most people cant handle the real harsh true... And i do understand that.

All in all, it was a great day, although it rained and rained, and rained!!
Gosh......

The rain is going away, so now we are getting below zero temps
and maybe even snow and ice.... terrible cold winds, too.....
Gosh!!
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Health,
Posted:Dec 31, 2023 2:11 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2024 8:54 am
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When older people, have to go to the hospital and get pneumonia,
it is most of the time, the end of the show.

Ofcourse, doctors, try their best,
But are very bad in accepting that life sometimes, is just over! done!
and try and try, beyond what is considered respectful to that elderly person.

Have seen it happen, to my daddy...
To a friend too...

The husband of my sister, in the hospital, is having pneumonia, on top of all the other ailments.....
broken collarbone and gods knows what else....?
Well, metastases everywhere.....

Ofcourse, although he is terminal, the doctors still keep pushing meds in to his system.
He is getting antibiotica......

Sometimes i really wonder, how much money those doctors get, by doing so....
I find this behaviour so very unethical.

He is terminal, help him, by giving him painmeds, so he is able to make the move over....
Not try to make his conditions worst, if that is even possible...

This is a very strange old and new year -celebration- Not so!

I am just waiting for that one call, telling me, he is dead...

I believe they should bring him, to a hospice, so he can die in peace with the right kind of care....
No hassle, anymore....

I offered my sister to come to her place, go with her to her husband in the hospital, is she wants that....
She was very glad with this offer....
That is all i can do....
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570 kilo?
Posted:Dec 31, 2023 9:27 am
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2024 8:58 am
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NO, this is not about someones weight.

This is about the amount of fireworks, people had stacked up, in their house.
It was lying every where.
Even in the childrens bedroom.
One other thing;
They were smoking, too, in that house.
The police found out, after they got a call about a fire in the house.....and found all the illigal fireworks.

An other story, two boys, driving in their car, loaded with fireworks, were smoking in their car, wanting to throw the sigaret out of the car.
The sigaret came right back into their car and set the car in fire...

You cant cure stupid.

It is becoming a warzone, here.... 😤🤬😱😠
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What are you into?
Posted:Dec 30, 2023 2:13 pm
Last Updated:Dec 31, 2023 9:16 am
15750 Views

Is just one other questions, the no-nos come with,
together, with what are you looking for?

Again, as if it is some sort of shopping list...?

I am into strangulation, (NOT)
and hoppa! there is the one, who will strangle you,
untill you are dead...
DUH!

i am always totally flabbbergasted, when someone asks me this.
Dont they have any manners?
Did their mommy or daddy not teach them, how to behave in public,
with strangers?

As if am going to tell someone, i dont know one thing about,
my most deepest needs, wants and desires?

Is he sick in the head, or something?

The men, who uses these "pick-up" lines, do disqualify themselfs on the spot.

Ofcourse, later on, complaining, that those "bitches" jadajadajada...
Fill in the gaps....

After meeting, online, some of the men, who used this "pick-up" line
i got sooo bored, by their approach,
that i made all kind of answers up, just to have some fun..
A sense of humor?
They did not.

I had some fun.
It was also a way to check how adult they really were... Not so....
Could not handle a smart ass woman, LOL

What are you into?
I am into sea fishing, on mackerels!
It is soo much fun!
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Stress?
Posted:Dec 28, 2023 11:53 pm
Last Updated:Dec 29, 2023 11:31 pm
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For a lot of people, these times, the end of the year,
Are very stressfull days.
Not so much, for me, because i refuse to get sucked into that end of the year, madnesss.

In the family there is a lot of stress.
First, the husband of my sister is terminal ill.
The cancer is in his breast, back, hips.. 🥺😱

And, her oldest daugther and partner decided to get a divorce...
So.....
Nasty times....
Stressfull times...
For me, in second degree....

I mean, i did not have a strong bond with her husband, i feel very sorry, for them both...
And, well, her has two small , under 10 years....
Sighs....
Horrible....

It is a matter of time when her husband.. gets worst and worst, he is already in the hospital......
There is talk about giving him, still radiation "treatment", why???
The cancer is everywhere, in his body...

He is on morfine, and something even stronger, then that?
Crazy times, in the family.

I cant do anything, about this situation, only be there, for my sister,
And i will.
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What are you looking for?
Posted:Dec 28, 2023 11:43 am
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2024 2:18 am
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In the group Psychology of a D/s relation, on FET,
there was this person, who asked about this..

This is something that many men have asked my, sooo many, many time, before, too.

It always left me flabbergasted.
What do you mean?
How so, "looking for"?
Am i in a kind of a shop? can i pick up a d to my taste and thats it?

What!
This person explained, it is not so much a person... as a something....

As in a connection,

Many gave their support to this idea and some gave very good explanations about those who ask this kind of qeustions.

As in, they really have NO CLEU, what so ever, about the amount of ...

About what is asked both from the D perspective as from the s perspective, to build this connection.
To be able to give, that much....
That this is about the character of the person.
Being compatible, beyond the easy kink sex play act...,

being compatible as human beings, FIRST.

Like each other.

This person, also said, it is not something you can look for,
it is something that will happen, organic
It can be something he/ she can say, or a certain look, that stops you dead in your tracks.

It is not a play time kink, it is a connection, that ebbs and flows, within a dynamic,
it is not easy to come across.

How do you say, that your preferred dynamic is the mental connection?

Whenever i told, explained that, they always looked like they saw water burning.
skipped my explanation, totally.

And just started talking about fetishes... As if i did not say a thing.....
Just totally missed it.

Did not have a cleu.

To me, those are not dominant, and for sure, not Masters, no matter what they have written in their profile.
Those are kinky sex role players, with a dangerous lack of Knowledge about safety, rights of the s type, hard limits, safe words, to name a few...

And, most of the time a very big inflated ego, based on nothing...
Maybe lack of selfesteem?

I always felt insulted, and totally misunderstood, when that was the first and only question they had for me.
The only thing they wanted to know.... about me....?
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Talking, talking, talking...
Posted:Dec 27, 2023 11:07 am
Last Updated:Dec 28, 2023 11:14 am
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That is all, what our government and the EU is doing.

While with all the fireworks that will go up into the air, is really very bad.
Not only for those who get themselfs in a hospital and cripple for the rest of their lifes...

BUT, the birds dont have an agenda, dont know what is going on, and fly out of their sleep trees and fly very high and very very long, because those morron, shoot their fireworks everywhere!!

A lot of birds get killed, this way!
And those lame folks in the government still searching for their balls and backbone.

Way too afraid to get the firework industrie and the weapon industrie against them..
They are responsible for all the birds that die.

It is in other countrys possible, to have a central firework show,
Even here, in a place called Sneek the local government decided
we do a anual fire show and stop the private selling of fire works!
It is possible!

But Holland?amp;

Money is their only motive, or so it seems.
all dogs and cats, and people who came from war zone countries....??
all are in for some real bad, bad days.

I have a rather extreem solution,
nobody will follow through, ofcourse...., it could be as criminal....

Just put the fire works in analy, put the match to it, and you solve two problems in one strike! HA!
I told you!
It is rather extreem!

That is how much i dislike those morrons, full of liquor and throwing fireworks every where!
These days, the fire works are also very, very heavy, like real bombs, and grenades.

The folks, here, already started their private war game....

This has to stop!! It is soo terrible primitive!! and stupid braindeath.
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Wet, wet, wet,
Posted:Dec 25, 2023 12:34 am
Last Updated:Dec 26, 2023 1:40 pm
14660 Views

My gosh!
It was terrible.
It is already raining for days now,
this saterday, it just started as a very light drizzle.....
And from there on, it only got worst!!

I was doing my luxery round of shoppings,
as i do sometimes, to those small villages.

I was wearing three! kind of raincoats.
A small windcoat, and then a long rain coat, over that.
Both were wet, on the inside too.

Then i put on my Army rain poncho,
That was really a very good move.
But, still, sooo cold.

My gosh!!
I was sooo cold, on my way back, soo cold!!
The whole freaking day rain.
I did not get warm, untill the next day!!
Ginger tea, honey, nothing helped, getting warm again..

( when i was still drinking, i just drank, untill i got warm again...)
not really very healthy.

I soo much, do not like this climate, this weather.
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Storm!
Posted:Dec 21, 2023 12:01 pm
Last Updated:Dec 27, 2023 10:44 am
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This one, was our first winter storm.
I loved it.
Ofcourse i went outside, on my bike!
it was real fun!

Dont be afraid, just do it!!
Hahahah.
And, when it is not possible to ride anymore, i go walking,
no big deal!
it was a great adventure, at times i thought, the wind is going to win this
from me!

Not so much!! though....
Our "storms" are much different then the storms in the US.

Stay safe.
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