Laughs are you serious! Updated.
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Posted:Aug 12, 2010 4:38 am
Last Updated:May 4, 2016 6:48 pm 7174 Views
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Ok seems this post has come across totally wrong, and as a result
i have upset Phil (cmuk), i had the pleasure of meeting phil and had a fantastic time with him he is a great guy with a wonderful sence of humour and the girl he eventially settles down with will be very lucky and i wish him all the luck in his search' I have known and been freinds with Phil for around 3 years and his always been there as a freind to listen and give advise when i've needed it. This blog was never aimed at him and i was a little stunned and very saddened to say the least. My first thoughts where just to delete this but i decided to set the record straight incase anyone else had read it as he has. The reason for this blog was because i was sick to death of the begging emails from paople ive never spoken to before i've had more offers to move abroad this last month than ive had hot dinners and all because i changed my profile, as for the regrets they was for upsetting my original Dom they was'nt for meeting Phil. anyway i hope this is all as clear as mud now giggles  but well i just want to say Phil i am sorry and please belive me when i say i truly value our freindship hugs Sare xxx
Wow are'nt i lucky so many emails from the i'm so much better than any other Dom types because i just told you i was!,
i would give you the chance to prove it but seriously right now i don't have either the time or the inclination!
Yes i'm in a complete mess at the moment on what i want sense but i have made it quite clear that i want to stay chatting to freinds on here and i do quite enjoy blog land. if that does'nt suit you well tough. move on,
I have been through alot this year I had a Dom for just over three years and despite others thoughts and feelings as to weather he was a real deal or weather his way was right or wrong he made me very happy overall, he was old school and at times harsh i chose to make the break very painfully because after spending to great weeks with him, after i felt empty we could'nt move on and the distance was killing me, but i gave myself to him fully and i loved him with all my heart and in reality i still do, I then very stupidly went and played else where this was for my own reasons and one of which in many ways i enjoyed but after i felt very empty and i also lost not only My Dom but my best freind as a result, he cannot come to terms with me playing with someone else and i respect his thoughts on that, we do still talk but it will never be the same for either of us.
Many people told me not to ever speak to him again one in paticular still does, but that is not something i can do i've never fallen out with anyone and i don't intend to start now, plus i have way to much respect for him to just blank his calls.
I do have two friends on here i treasure and respect dearly and if you want to rant about genuine look up Domenikk and js i still stand by my word that they are the two most genuine people ive ever met, not just on Alt but in my life. They have never judged me never told me what to think or feel and for the last 5 years have been as near or as far as i've needed them to be, yes we have had some delicious naughty chats but mainly we have had freindly how are you doing chats. and for that i Thank them and one day nikk we will all have that coffee but i'm still paying weather you like it or not giggles and ducks.
But i will leave you with the thought that next time you want to spend most of the conversation to me or any other girl how your the best and the only genuine Dom here ......wander to your stereo and pop on Shania twains song "that don't impress me much" . because i told you to and because i ment it laughs.
Sare x
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pain
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Posted:Aug 7, 2010 2:08 pm
Last Updated:Aug 28, 2010 7:42 pm 6966 Views
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I need pain today i , can't really explain why but i need to be told im bad and i need to cry,
i need that pain on the serfice. Sometimes it would be so easy to go back to what i used to do head butt the walls or make a cut just enough to see that trickle, but i know i must'nt.
sighs well today is one of those hard to fight the urge days
today i feel lost and frustrated,
Sare x
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Weak
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Posted:Jul 31, 2010 1:43 pm
Last Updated:Sep 7, 2010 4:06 pm 8202 Views
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Don't tell me i'm weak when i FOUGHT everything i know and feel safe with just to see you, don't tell me i'm weak when i have to be blind just to see you, don't tell me i'm weak when you can show the world everyone else but You or I!
I am not weak i am just me, i play weak because its what drives my fire and my passion, you however you just play! Ian't tell you how much this week hurts but trust me it HURTS!
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dirty thirty!
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Posted:Jul 30, 2010 4:51 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2014 10:12 pm 8979 Views
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ok huge birthday flying up way to fast and wow i'm getting soooo  depressed i so loved being a but well my twenties always seemed like heaven, so much has happened this last decade,so many ups and downs and i think i acheived quite alot too. the most precious being my my little miracle,
My biggest down side tho is i am shit at judging who to trust and i always seem to pick the wrong path where relationships are concerned i've only had three and well lets not even go there i so still need a divorce but thats my plan for the next decade, Me and my standing on my two feet lol, my next step is to plough all my energy into the new yard and by another dozen horses lol, so although i'm dreading being 30 i'm also looking forward to the new sarebare3000 fuck everyone else and think of ya self for a change model. yep the next ten years i tend to live to the Max kinda a mid year resolution, 1st thing i will do is win the lottery shortly followed by a sybian purchase (insert sarebare licking lips here) and then i'm going to employ someone yummy to whip me whilst i ride the granny out of it!
Yep i'm smiling i'm also going to take a trip to disney world and see who is the biggest me or my little one
don't all run at once with the e cards and cv's lol
Sare xxx
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Smiles
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Posted:Jul 25, 2010 4:25 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2014 10:14 pm 8204 Views
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wow just WOWWWWWWWWWWWWW,
i will add more later right now i can't sit down!
Sare x
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Phil
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Posted:Jul 21, 2010 10:58 am
Last Updated:Jun 14, 2016 2:27 am 7157 Views
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ok i tried to leave a testimonial for cmuk but seems i'm not worthy lol so i'l just leave it here for you.
ok here's the tricky bit, you know i think your great but i struggle with the soppy stuff yeah yeah i can hear you saying blah' right now *giggles, but well you have been a fantastic freind these past few weeks but also over the last few years, and i want to say thanku, no one deserves to find there perfect match more than you do babes (yes i know you hate that to!)
I can't see me ever swooning at your feet and i'm certainly never going to suck your toes! but hey you know that  but you have earn't my total adoration and respect Phil,
Hugs Always Sare xx
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Time to be me!
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Posted:Jul 18, 2010 2:45 pm
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2016 3:10 pm 10141 Views
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Ok hear goes its finally time i stood up straight and showed you ME!
showed you what i want, and i'm figuering that right now half the trolls will dissapear due to me being a bit of an odd ball!
So on we go. so many people want to know what i want, so for starters i'l stop you right now. what i want and what i'l do to please you are two entirely differant things. And if you understand that comment i may be 60% sure you are a Dom.
My original fantasy's (well admitted ones!) where A) A naughty school girl caught and punished or a secretary (watch the movie its around two hours long and if i'm not worth that much of your time kindly move on now!)
Now for my biggest fantasy one i have learnt I personally seriously need, hey if its going to be about my needs now why not start here.
I want to be regressed for being bratty and by this i mean put into diapers/nappies for acting childish weather its on a jealousy level or because i poked my tongue out and drew on your wall with my fave pink shrarpie! the bottem line is it has to be punishment, i nedd to hear your stern voice and your anger and dissapointment, i also have a thing for being sent to bed early way before an adult would ever dream of, dressed appropriately with a dummy in my mouth (and preferably a very sore diapered butt!) and knowing even tho its 7pm no way on this earth i can get up i will stress here tho i am not an ABDL i purely want this as an adult for bratty behaviour i don't want to pretend to be a baby. I want to know i have to use the diaper aswell and i want to feel the humiliation of knowing i cannot remove it myself or use a real toilet. I'd also like to try something i saw online a video of punishment from herdiapers,com. wanna know more ask. i also have a fantasy (again very strong) of being controlled by a man and a woman in this state of mind, there naughty bratty girl. i'd love to be punished by mum but rebell that much for her to lose so bad that she could'nt deal with me then and have to call for Dad, and for her to tell me for half a day that he was seriously dissapointed and was going to deal with me when he got home. On his return i'd like seriously hard fucking humiliation punishment pain and then enema's being forced diapers nad him pissing into my diaper before he left me laying in it for the night. i'd also like hime to brutally my sore arse and leave his cum inside before he diapered me.
Ok i'm guessing 90% of uou will run a mile now but seriously i dont care, i've been through that much in my life that now i'm going to focus on what i want and need. what you want and need will be there as when i give i give 100% unconditionally my pleasure is knowing i've given you what you need. but very few will ever see that gift from me.
If you have run then thanks for listening and i wish you every luck in your search, if you have'nt run well message me but only if your prepared to wait and not push i am still very very fragile,
hugs Sare xx
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insomnia!!!!!!!!!!
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Posted:Jul 16, 2010 7:00 pm
Last Updated:Jul 20, 2010 10:06 am 7576 Views
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Why is it back and with avenduance(however you bloomin spell it!) its 3am and once again i'm wide awake why o why can't someone just tell me to get my arse to bed. Seems to be the only thing that ever gets me a good nights sleep, sighs if only i had bought a load of sheep and not horses least that way i could count the bloody things!
Well i hope you are all having sweetdreams for me lol,
and i'l leave you a good morning growl for when you get up,
a very tired but so unsleepy
Sare xx
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Holland
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Posted:Jul 12, 2010 4:23 am
Last Updated:Jul 15, 2010 11:40 am 7795 Views
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Why is it the minute you say your single you get inendated with emails, now i'm not being ungrateful here coz seriously i should be blown away with such offers.....who would'nt jump at the chance of packing my things and moving straight to Holland....its all good i can even take my ..............grrrrr comeone people get serious! never mind i've never even spoken to you do i really look that desperate!
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Arrrrgh!
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Posted:Jul 8, 2010 2:41 pm
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2010 3:08 pm 6627 Views
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why am i so bloody naive and so easily sucked in i so almost did it again! sighs i gotta stop dying my hair blonde........x
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