Sometimes, choices just SUCK!
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Posted:Aug 20, 2006 10:35 pm
Last Updated:Apr 10, 2012 5:26 pm 12088 Views
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How do you start (or end) a encounter with someone who has the ability to destroy your heart?
How do you resist the pull of someone that you know will inflame your body, and bring it to it's ultimate fulfillment?
How do you continue to hide your darkest desires from one who is already inside your mind?
How do you put aside the disappointments of the past, and open your mind to the promise of now.
How do you embrace the right now, knowing that there can be no future?
How long can lighthearted banter hide the deep longing?
How do you make the choice between: having a friend who you want forever, and gaining the lover of your dreams but possibly destroying the friendship?
Would you ruin the friendship all-together (on your own terms) to prevent having to make that choice?
How can something with the potential for so much physical pleasure, be surrounded by so much emotional pain?
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he was my friend
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Posted:Aug 18, 2006 9:41 pm
Last Updated:Jul 31, 2014 3:51 pm 12720 Views
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If you live in the Cleveland Oh area, there is no way you could miss the news broadcasts about the accident that shut down 422W yesterday morning. If you aren't from here, you can check wews,com to catch the video(search 422 in their browser). It is ugly, be warned.
I got stuck in the traffic from it yesterday morning about 2 minutes after it happened.
I was going the opposite way to get to work, so I got a full view of the entire scene.
You could see smoke around the bend, but nothing...and I mean nothing, can prepare a person who is grumbling nonsensically about "being late and stuck in traffic", for the sheer horror of torn metal and rubber as far as the eye could see - blood, gas and oil mixed together on the pavement - people satnding, sitting and laying on the side of the road head in hands, weeping like 2 year olds or wandering around, shock etching itself in every line of their face, cell phones pressed tightly to their heads as they called for help - A tractor trailer jack-knived with it's nose buried in a ditch facing the opposite direction that it was heading in 5 minutes ago -
and several truck lengths back.....as I think to myself..."oh God, someone is NOT walking away from this..... a shiny new black pickup truck.....a pick up truck BED...the front severed clean off and laying at a 90 degeree angle...nothing left but the back window and the tires....lying 3 feet away. The cab and it's driver shattered by the impact of two vehicles meeting head on at 50 MPH.
I had started crying as soon as I saw the far flung accident "debris" on the road, but I sobbed hysterically when I saw the pickup.....I kept telling myself.....Can't be Brent...he goes east not west, (just like me)...he wouldn't be going that way....couldn't be him....(right?....right?) Of course not, just a truck like his, right? (then why do I wanna puke?...why do I just have this feeling?) stop it...it can't be him, he'll be at work when you get there or he's stuck in this traffic just like you are.
SO why couldn't I stop crying?
I managed to barely compose myself before walking in the door some 10 minutes later, and I spoke of my fears to no one. I am just like that, I keep my heart and fears to myself and trust almost no one to carry my burdens with me. I do not wish to share the hurt or worry especially if I don't KNOW that I am right. Not even the best guy in the whole world (his name is Mark) heard about who I thought it was, but I did ask(probe?) if he saw the accident (he had missed it by a minute just as I had caught it by a minute).
He knows me and my emotions well........he is one of the few.......and he knew that if I had that look of complete horror on my face and was barely speaking (or when I did, it was in a monotone) that I was in bad shape with a good reason.
Every so often he'd check up on me...poking his head up over his cube to look my way and I'd just meet his eye and shake my head. He was starting to realize who wasn't there yet.
I myself kept a constant vigil.
Standing up and checking Brent's desk every so often. Never walking directly past his desk, but instead superstitiously backtracking around the far wall and craning my neck to see if he was in yet.
Maybe he was off and it would be okay.......
But it wasn't.
I miss my friend~
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My strap-on needs obedience school!
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Posted:Aug 18, 2006 7:54 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2019 9:06 pm 13036 Views
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I know they say mens brains are in their dicks but c'mon.....it's a plastic dick!?!
Is it actually possible for a toy to do what it wants instead of what I want?
Apparently so!
The bitch
You don't even wanna know about the delicious morsel it decided to malfunction with.
Sigh....story of my life!
I may blog him separately....HOLY CRAP that boy was amazing!
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Unretouched photos of hisfetish. A clothing free experience!
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Posted:Aug 14, 2006 7:45 pm
Last Updated:Dec 27, 2006 8:36 pm 13366 Views
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hisfetish
Now really y'all....did you actually think I'd show you something like YOU we're thinking? 
After she and I bitched sssssoooooooo much about hearing that all the time?
SIGH.......Training some of you is such a tough job, but I will do what I have to do to make ALT a better place for all of woman kind!
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SInce I'm off today and don't have to deal with it.......
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Posted:Aug 14, 2006 10:35 am
Last Updated:Oct 22, 2006 9:50 pm 13170 Views
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Essential vocabulary additions for the workplace and life in 2006
1. BLAMESTORMING: Sitting around in a group, discussing why a deadline was missed or a project failed, and who was responsible.
2. SEAGULL MANAGER: A manager, who flies in, makes a lot of noise, craps on everything, and then leaves. Also know as Goose Manager
3. ASSMOSIS: The process by which some people seem to absorb success and advancement by kissing up to the boss rather than working hard.
4. SALMON DAY: The experience of spending an entire day swimming upstream only to get screwed and die in the end.
5. CUBE FARM: An office filled with cubicles
6. PRAIRIE DOGGING: When someone yells or drops something loudly in a cube farm, and people's heads pop over the walls to see what's going
on.
7. MOUSE POTATO: The on-line, wired generation's answer to the couch potato.
8. SITCOMs: Single Income, Two , Oppressive Mortgage. What Yuppies turn into when they have and one of them stops working
to stay home with the .
9. STRESS PUPPY: A person who seems to thrive on being stressed out and whiny.
10. SWIPEOUT: An ATM or credit card that has been rendered useless because the magnetic strip is worn away from extensive use.
11. XEROX SUBSIDY: Euphemism for swiping free photocopies from one's workplace.
12. IRRITAINMENT: Entertainment and media spectacles that are annoying but you find yourself unable to stop watching them. The J-Lo and Ben wedding (or not) was a prime example - Michael Jackson, another...
13. PERCUSSIVE MAINTENANCE: The fine art of whacking the crap out of an electronic device to get it to work again.
14. ADMINISPHERE : The rarefied organizational layers beginning just above the rank and file. Decisions that fall from the adminisphere are often profoundly inappropriate or irrelevant to the problems they were designed to solve.
15. 404: Someone who's clueless. From the World Wide Web error Message "404 Not Found," meaning that the requested site could not be located.
16. GENERICA: Features of the American landscape that are exactly the same no matter where one is, such as fast food joints, strip malls, and
subdivisions.
17. OHNOSECOND: That minuscule fraction of time in which you realize that you've just made a BIG mistake. (Like after hitting send on an
email by mistake)
18. WOOFS: Well-Off Older Folks.
19. CROP DUSTING: Surreptitiously passing gas while passing through a Cube Farm.
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NYAH, NYAH!
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Posted:Aug 14, 2006 1:10 am
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2019 9:00 pm 14580 Views
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I met hisfetish and yyyyoooouuuuu didn't!
Inquiring minds wanna know.....So I'm here to tell ya!
Yes, she's absolutely darling.
Yes, I hugged the shit out of her and may have copped a lil feel, but I'm not saying for sure!
Yes, pictures were taken, but I'm sooooooo not sharin 'em!
Yes, she really is a smart, funny, beautiful 'lil bitty thing, and she does have red hair and green eyes, but when I asked her where her erupting goiter was...she said (and I quote only from my slightly skewed and wicked, tired mind)
"Aw shit, I must've dropped it in the parking lot when I stopped at Walmart!"
Yes, she does have fabulous........ah, the heck with y'all................
I met hisfetish and YYYOOOUUUU didn't!
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I have friends of stone!
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Posted:Aug 11, 2006 11:34 pm
Last Updated:Sep 20, 2006 6:34 pm 14685 Views
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Rough diamonds may sometimes be mistaken for worthless pebbles. -- Sir Thomas Browne
I am blessed by all the rocks in my life!
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OMG ALT HAS POSTED A SATISFACTION SURVEY
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Posted:Aug 8, 2006 11:18 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2019 9:00 pm 15833 Views
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Hurry, it's on your home page....quick fill it out, before it dissapears or gets pirated!
This is not a joke! Go check in a grey box in the middle of your home page...It says
How can we make this site better?
HURRY
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Poo to you too!
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Posted:Aug 2, 2006 4:06 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2019 9:02 pm 15893 Views
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The often immitated but never duplicated MrMalaprop52 posted a good blog today.
Unfortunately, that got me thinking of a funny joke I got recently.
So I had to post one of my own....I told you he is often imitated!
A little girl walks in to the kitchen one Sunday morning while her Dad is reading the paper.
"Where does poo come from?" she asks.
The father feeling a little perturbed that his 5 year old is already asking difficult questions thinks for a moment and says:
"Well you know we just ate breakfast?"
"Yes," answers the girl.
"Well the food goes into our tummies and our bodies take out all the good stuff, and then whatever is left over comes out of our bums when we go to the toilet, and that is poo."
The little girl looks perplexed, and stares at him in stunned silence for a few seconds then asks:
"And Tigger?"
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Movie star answers
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Posted:Jul 30, 2006 12:08 pm
Last Updated:Apr 30, 2014 4:02 pm 16195 Views
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1. a-4 b-2 c-5 d-1 e-3 f-6
2. a-2 b-1 c-4 d-5 e-3 f-6
3. a-2 b-1 c-3 d-4 e-5 f-6
4. a-4 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-1 f-6
5. a-5 b-4 c-2 d-1 e-3 f-6
6. a-1 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-4 f-6
7. a-3 b-2 c-1 d-4 e-5 f-6
8. a-1 b-3 c-2 d-4 e-5 f-6
9. a-4 b-5 c-1 d-4 e-3 f-6
10. a-5 b-2 c-1 d-3 e-4 f-6
(10-17 points) You are MADONNA:
are wild and crazy and you know it. You know how
to have fun, but you may take it to extremes. You know what you are doing though, and are much in control of your own life. People don't always see things your way, but that doesn't mean that you should do away with your beliefs. Try to remember that your wild spirit can lead to hurting yourself and others.
18-26 points) You are DORIS DAY:
You are fun, friendly, and popular! You are a real crowd pleaser. You have probably
been out on the town your share of times, yet you
come home with the values that your mother taught you. Marriage and are very important to you, but only after you have fun. Don't let the people you please influence you to stray.
(27-34 points) You are DEBBIE REYNOLDS:
You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a
best friend that no one takes the chance
of losing. You never hurt feelings and seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty, and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of back stabbers, and you are worry-free.
(35-42 points) You are GRACE KELLY:
You are a lover. Romance, flowers, and wine are
all you need to enjoy yourself. You are serious about all commitments and are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday, and never forget a Birthday. Don't let your passion for romance get confused with the real thing.
(43-50 points) You are KATHERINE HEPBURN:
You are smart, a real thinker. Every situation is
approached with a plan. You are very healthy in mind and body. You don't take crap from anyone. You have only a couple of individuals that you consider "real friends". You teach strong family values. Keep your feet planted in them, but don't overlook a bad situation when it does happen.
(51-60 points) You are ELIZABETH TAYLOR:
Everyone is in awe of you. You know what you want
and how to get it. You have more friends than you know what to do with. Your word is your bond. Everyone knows when you say something it is money in the bank.You attract the opposite sex. Your intelligence overwhelms most. Your memory is the next thing to photographic.
Everyone admires you because you are so considerate and lovable. You know how
to enjoy life and treat people right.
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