Gifts of nature,
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Posted:May 6, 2023 1:49 pm
Last Updated:May 9, 2023 12:02 pm 8865 Views
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It was a reasanel pretty day, this day.
I love my saterdays.
a bit shopping, the market,
visiting my best friend.
She was a bit depressed, tired, beyond believe...
I, ofcourse worried about her.
Because she allways have very, very,very! high standards, só high, it works against her....
Forget her own pace, room, space, time
Everybody else is always much more important then she is....
Thát, is not a bad trait, but if it is in the overdrive scale, it is no good.
So we talked abit, we even hugged, ( did not do that, since the corona haox)\
She was way too scared...to get other people sick or become sick herself
That is how she is.
While i think, everybody has her or his own responsiblity.
and have to carry that too.
Anyway.
Coming back home, i listened to my favorite radio programs
did some cooking.
And, when the twilght time came, i went outside
It was not really "warm"....
But i wanted to be outside.
There was a blackbird singing and singing, it was soo nice!
and then some wild cats came into my garden, did not see me
untill i moved, they ran like the devil was onto them
I always have to laugh about their reaction.
The blackbird keep singing and singing, it was great
My own personal concert!
Then, i saw the first star appear!
That was a great gift, too.
Some bats were flying around my shed....
An other gift....
I was getting a bit cold, and stiff from sitting so still for so long...
Hoping for more gifts...
Did not want to appear greedy, already having got soo many gifts...
And then, it happened.
There was this shade, moving against the other shades...
Already getting pretty dark.
It was a hedgehog!
My first hedgehog of the year!!
It drank out of the waterbowl for the birds.
I think it must have had some real great meal, because the snails are there again!
Everywhere!
I am thankfull for all those lovely gifts of nature....
It was a well spend evening outside.
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DIY
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Posted:May 6, 2023 7:18 am
Last Updated:May 7, 2023 1:33 am 7718 Views
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I was working on my bike, there was something i needed to repair.
I needed some muscle power, to get in done.
And then, the item worked it self free and i heard my nose crack!
On some metal part of my bike......
My glasses were thrown off my face... It hurted like a real MF.
I inmediately put a cold cloth on my nose....
and keep repeating that action......
There is no blood, so i dont think my nose is broken, my nose is already crooked, so you cant tell, by the shape if it is broken.....
I can touch it, it does not hurt.. very much....
There is some swelling.. but not really very heavy.....
laconic about such injuries.... no panick at all.
it just is......
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Do you all think i should do it? ;-)
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Posted:May 5, 2023 2:00 pm
Last Updated:May 6, 2023 2:09 pm 7905 Views
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This is a joke, i am totally not serious.
just playing around...
I had this message, it is for sure spring!
I have to report to this.... aah, well, just let me give him the honor to call him dominant.....
yawns....
Thats all, no introduction, nothing.
Just report yourself?
When i get that kind of messages, these always make me laugh out loud.
Maybe there are women , who fall for that kind of thing....?
I dont.
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Remembering day, 2e WW
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Posted:May 4, 2023 4:02 am
Last Updated:May 4, 2023 11:57 pm 7774 Views
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4 May, we in Holland remember all the people who died, in the 2 WW.
Now, with all the struggle/ wars going on, some people also remember ALL the victums,
of ANY WAR, ANYWHERE.
I really appreciate that.
The whole day long, there are radio en tv programs going on.
People come together, to listen to stories about their survival in those horrible years.
I listen to the storys.
I only think, this should happen, all year round, once a month or something like that.
Those who survived that horrible war, and those death camps, slowly die....
And, with them, their personal stories....
And, tomorrow,
"we" are going to celebrate the end of the 2e WW.
With a lot of music, and, again, here, a lot of public drunks!
Puking in peoples gardens.... Out of controle... 😝🤔😡
Disgusting.
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Subspace,
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Posted:May 2, 2023 1:22 pm
Last Updated:May 4, 2023 1:58 pm 7327 Views
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I did read a lot about subspace.
I thought i knew what to expect...
NOT.
It is what they say, or try to explain it...
it is like a runners high, or when you use those funny sigarets....
A high, with the possibility of a very deep drop, when you are not aware of it.
To handle that subdrop, you can practise selfcare
by drinking some sweet substance
Or some enery drink
Take some chocolate, that seems to be thé thing, to take.
Go to the gym, seems to work, for some, too...
Self care is very important,
even when the D type gives good after care.
Subdrop can also starts days after the session....
They say, never leave a session, without giving yourself the time to come down.
Because your mental state is altered.
It is possible that you have some sort of black out, while driving a car....
Staying in contact with your D type can make it easier to handle the subdrop.
Or being able to talk with other submissives, who know what to expect with subdrop, can be a good thing too.
It shook me, very deeply, this subspace thing.
Did not like one thing, about it.
(also, the aftercare sucked very badly)
I managed it, by myself.
The next time, i had a scene, with an other d type, i did not want to go into subspace, at all.
and i could controle that.
Thát felt very good.
he and i had some very good sessions, without subspace
It is not the end of it, at all.
I know, sometimes, some submissives make it some kind of game, to wánt to experience subspace.
As if you are not a good submissive, when you dont go/ cant get into subspace...
Thát is their only goal, to have to archieve thát.
As if that is the highest thing to archieve and maybe that is how that works, for them.
It is something i am not really interested in, to archieve.. again....
Also, in a healty contact, this is mostly the end of the session.
All depending on the level of trust and about what the two or more, did agree on.
A good dominant helps you to get down, in a safe way.
Takes good care of you..
And, if he has to leave, he stays in contact with you, keeps checking in on you.
support you, untill you can hande it yourself again.
Edge play can get you into subspace.
That does not mean, that you NEED the same amount of edge play, everytime again.
Thát is, in my eyes, not the goal at all.
That is not how it works, for me.
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Men! Explain! Please!
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Posted:May 2, 2023 12:08 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2023 1:12 am 6812 Views
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Woman are allowed to give their ideas too.
Sometimes, i really dont understand other peoples motivations for their behaviour.
As with my evil neighbours..
Why?
What is their inner motiivation, what kind of satisfaction do they get, out of being
just nasty, mean, sick fuck up people?
How can that be a motive for your life?
I just dont get that.
I mean, i dont care one thing, about what my neighbours do, or dont do
I hope they are happy and have a good life.
I dont care if they do the laundery only on monday or on sunday, or on any other day.
Who cares?
Or what ever else they do..
The same, with some men.
What do they think(?) to win, with being soo terrible lazy, to not put any effort in a conversation, for instance...
What?
Is their inner motivation, if they have any...?
Wo wants a lazy partner/ lover, anyway?
I dont!
As if being lazy is a real great trait?
Something, they can be proud of?
I really dont get that.
I, very much dislike lazy men.
A vanilla male friend, told me, that are 18 year old boys in a mens body.
They will never learn or grow and most probabebly have also a lot of womens issues.
Are not able to grow, to get used to a changing society, with changin expectations, in behaviour of men and women, alike..
I think, i have to agree with this friend.
Or, are they just vanillas who dont have any idea about the whole other rules/ structure of a D/s dynamic...?
Think, they can behave in the vanilla way, of trying to find a girlfriend...
to have some kinky fuckery?
And call that SM? or "the lifestyle"?
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Traveling?
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Posted:May 1, 2023 10:38 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2023 12:59 am 5265 Views
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Going to visit my sister, she celebrates her birthday, today.
it is a distance of 44, something, kilometers...
In a car you can do it, in 44 minutes....or something about that....
I, going by public transport, bus, will be on the road for 2! hours!!!
For crying out loud!!
I gonna see, every freaking village there is, between her place and mine!!
Aaarch!!!
I soo much dislike the country side.....
Patience, patience...... 
Bought some nice presents for my sister.
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Family matters,
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Posted:Apr 27, 2023 1:23 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2023 11:46 am 5857 Views
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Our aunt, who saved us, is very sick
She is getting more and more demented...
So much so, that it was not longer healthy and safe, for the family to let her stay in her house.
She was living on her own, in a house attached to the house of her and in law......
A very big farm house.
They call that kangaroo living... in the pouce of the family, in the close care of the family and still remain, some privacy... of their own....
Now, she is sort of living, in a care home.....
I visited her, last Tuesday...It broke my heart, to have to see her like that...
Some moments, she was really there, and enjoyed the fact that i visited her.
The next moment, she was almost in tears, because she did not understand why
she was in that house?
It felt like a punishment, of some sort....
So confused......
It was terrible to see her in such a state.....
When my daddy was getting more and more demented, he too,
went to such a care home.....
He too, did not understand why he was there......
Totally confused, telling me, they kept him there, he could not walk out, . he could not go away... i must not talk to loud, because they kept an eye on him....
So sad... so terrible.. so.
He was in the army, during the war in Indonesia... he never talked about that time....
In the end, i told him, that if he wanted to go, "be free" he just could go and die in his sleep.....
He got that message loud and clear.
Because this is my aunt, i cant tell her that, it is up to her to say something like that,
If she wants that....
I dont think, my niece is able to do that...
That moment, is totally about their happiness, not yours at all.
Sometimes family are selfish and dont want that family member, mother, to finish it here.
They want to keep them "alife", for them, not for the sick persons best interest....
And, i do understand that, too...
I can 'see' when they had enough, and need help... so to say...
My sister is also not well, she is showing signs of something going on in her brain....
I really dont know, how and what... some sort of disconnection going on..
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I go visit her in a week or two and will see how she acts then...
How bad it really is, because i was messaging her, and her reactions were very strange,
just like she was typing to an other drummer, so to say...
Just off....
strange...
She never behaved like that before....
I have a heavy heart, it scares me to death, if my sister is losing it, too....
sighs... sad, very sad.. scary too....
And there is nothing i can do, to make it better....... or different, or.....?
Alt is telling me, i cant post this, because of war arms and god knows what kind of bullzhit they think of, this time...
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Royal day... Kings day.
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Posted:Apr 26, 2023 3:24 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2023 1:46 am 5951 Views
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Tomorrow is Royal day here.
Our king is celebrating his birthday. amp;
It is freezing cold!
There is always a free market, and everyone who wants too,
can try to sell off his junk
Most of the time, it is a little folkore thing.
For the it is very exciting to sell their old games, toys and all that
Make some money!
There are also a lot of performance of all kind of bands, music and a lot of drinking going on...
and eating all kind of nasty, greazy shit....
I am not a fan of the Royal family at all
and no Kingsday festival.
at all.
Since we did not have much of a spring anyway, way too cold
Not enough sunshine....
I wont be going!!!
My neighbour her is going to try to sell her old stuff.
and it is freezing cold!
So i gave them some very warm clothing, tarp, a lantern, so they can keep their hands warm.
The mother is working tomorrow, so, i volentered to collect the , when they have enough of it, and, or are too cold!!
I already have the feeling of being a hero!!
I cant stand the cold, that freezing cold wind..... coming from Antartica!
The last two weeks, we have this very cold wind, freezing cold, going on.
It is no fun, to be outside, i am telling you!
There is some sunshine, but that has no power at all, the wind is just too cold!
But, i also cant let those girls stay there, while they are freezing half to death, in this cold?
The mother was very relieved that i volentered to pick them up, while she was working, if they wanted that...
help them get their stuff back to their house....
collecting everything again! Pffff......
I am already a hero, by suggesting this.....
She knów how much i dislike the cold.....
So, i will see... fingers crossed.
I hope they have a great time and sell as much as possible.
Kingsday....
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Test!Test? Test!?
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Posted:Apr 25, 2023 2:21 pm
Last Updated:Apr 26, 2023 2:53 pm 6800 Views
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You have those very populair bdsm tests.
On F.E.T they use it all the time.
In some profiles, it is the first thing you see.
It is a totally unrealible test
You can manipulate every answer, you want too.
I see those as a bullshit test.
Also, if you think, you need a test to prove you are .....?
What ever???
Well, i wont take your word on it, let me tell you that.
I much more believe in the Love Language Test.
It says something about your emotional make up.
I can rely on it, can recognise mé, in the answers.
For sure, you could manipulate that test too,
But why would you?
It tells you something about your needs and wants in a relationship.
Not necessary being a romantic relation but just about any relation, friendship building.
So,
i put that test on here, just for the fun of it.
I did the test! 
The Love Language Test!
My Love Language is;
30% Acts of Service,
27% Quality Time,
27 % Physical Touch.
recieving gifts; 3%
words of affirmation; 13%
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