The strength grows in me...welcome to the darkside..we got cookies
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Posted:Feb 24, 2024 8:11 pm
Last Updated:Feb 24, 2024 8:18 pm 5518 Views
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I feel like the only thing holding my life together..
Is my MacGyver love of duct tape...thank you Jesus..
And Richard Dean Anderson
And that planet pizza gym..
Lifted 300lbs on the seated leg press today
Hit the dumbbell shoulder press with 65lbs
Hit the db chest press with the 75 for 3 reps
And I have no doubt I will get that 300lb bench press before the years end...even though I'm stuck on 220
And it really is mind over matter..
There is a reason prisoners are jacked..
There is a reason that tribesmen in Africa are jacked..
The mind tells the body you must..or you will
FAIL..or die(t)
And if the weights are locked..into place
Then it's time to press..
And by the grace of God
If
The weights end up in the press position
Then the mind screams
Noooooooo
And the arms,the shoulders fire up..they say..
We don't give a fuck..
It's going up
You see yourself struggle in the gym mirror
And the weight rises...
Your arms shake
and locks into place
Then I found myself wanting 2 more reps.
And the mind didn't care
Forcing the body to produce.
I feel myself growing stronger...
And that's kinda scary..old dude..55 yrs old..pressing 75lb db...at planetpizza
Only getting stronger
Welcome to the dark side
We have cookies
I am that badguy
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Fat girls be hott AF
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Posted:Feb 23, 2024 5:03 am
Last Updated:Feb 24, 2024 7:25 pm 5723 Views
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Here is a shout out to all the real sized women of the world..
Not sure where we get the idea that women need to be a size 6 and 120lbs..
I was at a customers and this fine lady walked out of the office..
And dammmmmnnnnnn
She had it going on...and probably weighted 250 easily.
So ladies stop obsessing about your weight..
Plenty of people out there think you look hott AF.
Have a great day.
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The easiest way in life to get something..is to go after something else
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Posted:Feb 23, 2024 4:51 am
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2024 4:56 am 5702 Views
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I'm the type of guy that isn't on the cover of QG..
But I'm also not chopped liver.
I find the easiest way to get with someone..esp for me..
Is to look for someone else...
And not only look but email,etc..
And karma..Will see to it that when I click with this person..
Someone else will magically pop up and enter my DMs.
Karma is a bitch because I'm not that guy.
I'm not going to juggle two or omg three ??? people..like am I a swinger????
it's kinda shitty to have to chose...and tell them no.
But still kinda funny to go from a draught to a flood.
Welcome to my world.
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Liftting,losing weight and real pain
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Posted:Feb 22, 2024 7:43 pm
Last Updated:Feb 22, 2024 7:53 pm 5625 Views
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Ive
Never seen real pain at a gym..
Real pain is my roommate vommiting non stop..
Until the nurse at a hospital ask permission from the doctors to give him the real shit..
And I'm talking. Morphine .the really shit to literally knock him out.
Lifting,running..is not pain...
I have feet
My roommate does not..due to diabetes
When I lift..I lift for him..
I work a 47 hr.
work week..at 55 yrs of age
I have never asked my roommate for dime 1....I would rather die
He is on disability...and that..pays shit.
I'm happy that he lives here..with me,his mom and her husband
I'm happy that when my pipe burst in my basement..
He will get new carpets,new bed,new clothes,a gaming station.
It might mean a new life for him...a chance to get out of his depression
A new change
So what is pain to me...
When I still have the means to lift..
Think about that..
Sometimes when you pray to Heaven
Don't be jaded..
Sometimes you are the answer to someonelse prayers.
And I grind..
Cause others cant..
I lift cause I don't know real pain
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I'm in the cue from hell...your number 10 billion in line
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Posted:Feb 22, 2024 5:40 pm
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2024 8:50 am 5086 Views
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No despite the rumors
I am not dead...
But I'm wondering if I'd be just better off than..waiting on a woman when it comes to bdsm..
Yes things seem to have settled down a bit between the exe Domme and me..
But ommmmmmmmmhhhhhhhhhyyyyyggggggggggggggoddddddddddddd...
Do women enjoy the whole judging time period before any play takes place..
Cause I must be the gold medal winner..
I emailed Dommes for months..played once and continued to talk with them.,
For months
Only to find myself in that hell loop with 3 seperate Dommes..
And now doing the same thing with my exe..Domme number 1...again..
And February has been one hella long month.
I finally said today I need a break from the emails.
Ironically guys don't play these games..a dude will literally fist you on the first email..
Not kidding..a gay b dsm couple lives down the road and offered to f me...like it was no biggie..
It's ironic how different women and men are..
I wish I was joking..
Welcome to hell..
You are number
10 billion in the cue
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Strength will never leave you
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Posted:Feb 13, 2024 7:52 pm
Last Updated:Mar 29, 2024 7:24 pm 6503 Views
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When you were ill..
I was there..
When you were sore
I was there
When you said you can't do this
I was there
When you just got frustrated and quit
I was there..
When you just had something better to do
I was there..
Growing,festering...waiting
You will return..
someday?
You will drop the weight
You will bench that 300lbs..
You will win..I promise you that
Cause I am the meanest,baddest mfer you ever met..you can't even imagine what I been through..
You can't imagine the scars that will not heal
And you will not fail..I will not let you quit..I will carry you to the finishline..
I will carry you to the ends of time..
But I will never give up on
You
..I am that second wind..
I am that lingering spirit that whispers
You got this..
Today you'll lift your maxium..you'll run that mile
Nobody beats me...nobody beat you..
I am strength..
as my old body throws 65 lbs dumbbells into the seated dbell shoulder press position..
And if it's loaded..MF IS GETTING PRESSED
And my body screams as the weight threaten to break my spirit..break me
Yet
I am pure..
anger
I am raw pain...
And the weight starts to rise as my arms begin to shake
I am leo..mother fucker..
As I lock the weight out over my head.
A bad guy
I am
Strength.
And I will never leave you
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In the end you still have the ball
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Posted:Feb 10, 2024 3:18 pm
Last Updated:Feb 11, 2024 7:00 am 5930 Views
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I send a few emails today...
Probably promised more of myself than I ever did before..to a Woman/Domme.
Fyi I work like 45 hrs a week...offered to give up my weekends for her cause she claimed I wasn't giving up enough of my time to her.
I didn't give up enough in our past..
And no I'm not a dick..I had shit to do like fixing fucking cars so I could go to work,mowing the grass and other shit that needed to be done...
She came back with some more disagreeable emails..something about wanting quality over quantity time
Like for real....
When a guy bust his a ss working 45 hrs a week and gives up his free time to be with you..
And you now want quality time..
Er..my weekends are quality time...every fucking minute of freedom from my job is quality time..
They are important to me and it took me a lot to give them away like that.
She said it was like we weren't on the same page.
Er what part of giving up my weekends to be with you aren't you getting
I said sorry you feel that way..
I did and said all i could..I don't know what else I can do.
We always end up arguing..
It's fairly obvious we weren't meant to be together..
And I dropped the mic..
Remember it's their game..
But you can take the ball and go home.
It is up to her....she can have a coming to Jesus meeting with herself and realise I can't be..whatever...
And maybe im good enough..
Or she can just agree...a throw the baby out with the bathwater.
Either way I'm slated for the dreaded what a complete asshat baby I am email..the one filled with ALOT of h word
But for Christs sakes..we exchanged maybe 50 emails in 3 weeks..
And had at least 4 separate arguments where we stopped writing one another.
Either way I'm down the road..and I right
I personally can't devote that much me time,energy and stress into someone that just wishes to butt heads.
And sure she had a lot to offer...but I doubt she would have ever done any of it...
And she lost out on a great dude that is very open minded and into ALOT of styles of play..
So she could have experienced alot..
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Round 3 for the wood chipper...
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Posted:Feb 10, 2024 7:42 am
Last Updated:Feb 10, 2024 7:49 am 5507 Views
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Most people by now would have said fuck it...
Huh? Yeah she got angry at me once again..stopped emailing me..
Without an explanation.
I have no clue why...
And I really wish I was that stereotypical clueless tv dad..
At least I'd have a laugh track..
But yeah..no clue..
And yes I have explained I'm a dude use to dealing with dudes,I prefer men...
We are straightforward,not complex,we will tell you right to your face what is bothering us..
Men aren't women,d ont pick up on subtle things..
So just be blunt and tell me why your upset.
But nope..
The irony is she will carry on like this for a day or two..
And then it's like nothing happened..
I don't call her on it...I just let it go..
Leo..being leo..a guy that prides himself of being able to read people believes..
She just inst ready to step into her " big girl " Domme shoes yet..
But omg I've never meet someone so born for the role..
She is the goddess type..so poised to step over the line and become ..well nothing..that's the whole point..
She is already a strong and controlling woman.
There is no need for fanfair..it's just she never had that level of control over a male
I'd like to think the hesitation on her part is the fear of actually playing with a male..
But I think her real issue is
Me...omg you can't believe how submissive I can be..
But at the same time I'm quiet bold,I walk with a swagger,
I'm not afraid to say strip naked and wait on guest at a tea party..
I think the reason I don't implode and stop this crazy train is I want to see the endgame..
She talked about a surgery and nothing can be done till the end of February..
But even then I don't believe she will want to do this..
Yet like a movie,I'd like to see how this ends...
Will She? Won't She?
Remember my fans..people including women..operate in patterns..
She's done this behavior before..and we never really got to explore the Domming portion.
I left..
But I'm back in the same mouse trap...
Yet I'm curious about her as a Domme..she seems such a natural..
And if/ when that takes place...Will things be different..
Right now I'm just a friend..I'm not a bf,hubby or her slave..
What I'm getting at is now it's easy to be frustrated at me cause there is no real outlet. I'm a friend
But suddenly have me naked before you and I can be trained,disciplined,teased..shocked...
All good ways to vent and alter behavior
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Women..the mental woodchipper..and I love in headfirst
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Posted:Feb 5, 2024 4:48 am
Last Updated:Feb 10, 2024 7:02 am 6373 Views
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So I thought I'd drop a lil update..
With guys everything is sooo easy..sex,play
With women it's like...taking a sigh..
I've never apologize more in my life for the slightest things.
Small things that I just glided over yet stuck in her brain..
Only to be brought out later..
And I'm not a bad,ignorant,sob.
But with this woman it seems like it's all or nothing..
She can offer me a lot playwise...and the next minute it's like I just want to walk away..
Partially cause I know talk is just talk and I doubt we would ever go there..
So why not just walk away...
Well as you get older you access for play drops off..
She literally lives 10 minutes away..we know one another.
We like a lot of same things..
But it literally is like diving headfirst into a mental woodchipper...with a future promise of
Where I get to be an oralslave
Get to wear a cock cage
She's wants to explore ball play
Then get good at milking a male
And sure this may not appeal to everyone..
But is right up my alley and hard to just
Walk away
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So this may be my last shot at the lifestyle brass ring
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Posted:Feb 2, 2024 7:53 pm
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2024 7:53 pm 6133 Views
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I wrote to you about my ex..
How she befriended me..
And things esculated..
And yeah we got to a point online where..
Why why am I even here..with an ex.,still in the lifestyle..
She seems like a complete b.
I literally wanted to quit..everything.
But something changed..
Maybe she realised having me on some level was better than being alone.
So I'm giving this a try
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